Razer blades and pencils

After a big fight with my dad I ran to my room I grabbed all my hand pencil sharpeners and my watch I used the longmental buckle as a screw driver and quickly toke all the blades out I hand a ring box so I put the blades and the screws in there.

I toke one blade sat down pulled up my paint leg and cut 1....2....3..4 5 6-7-8-9-10-11-12-13-14-15-33
i looked at my work then put the blade in the box and put the box in a door I grabbed a pair of knee socks that I would where till the cuts turned to scars even if I was wherein long pants I could not take the risk
I crawled into bed and went to sleep I went to school as I did every day I was never bullied but I was still sad I was diagnosed with ADHA and depression at a young age so it was harder for me I was 2 grades behind in math unyill 8 grade I was 1 grade behind in reading instill 6 grade and now I am in 8 grade
it was lunch time I left class 1 minete early went to my locker got my lunch I went to the clenic for my meds then I went to the libary eat lunch while writing a story my dream was to be a novelist I never really hung out with people but when I did I was with Mis rose mis tomsin mis combs mis lava mr jaeger mr bruns mr wilconsion or mis hobermen I always got along better with then they all believed in me I checked my watch 1:40 lunch was over I put my note books in my leather messenger bag throw away my lunch said good bye to the library in then walked to my home room I sat in the back of class and started to write agein
"Chrissy Chrissy " someone said I looked up all the sude ya where gone and the hallways still Mr bruns and Mis rose stood overt me I toke a deep breath and sighed I wiped the sleep out if my eyes
"chrissy are you okay" mis rose asked
in my head I said no no I'm really not last night I cut agein now I have 150 scars but they overlap so It only looks like 98 my depressions is worse my pils don't work any more the therapy makes me feel worse I can't sleep my grades are bad I'm freaking out. I am scard I feel alone I want to talk to my mom but she dose not understand but what I really said
"yup I'm fine I'm just tired". They both gave me a look that said I know your lied
i smelled and put my books in my bag
"where is everyone " I asked
"frist elective "mr Bruns said I got up and started to walk out when my sock got cot on a chair and ripped the sock had stock to the scabs if my cuts so they started to bleed when the sock was ripped away. I ran to the hallway and out the back doors I herd the teachers yelling for me to come back but I just kept running I ran to my house when I got there I herd the phone ring I answers it was the school

"Mr or miss Mansfield your dough yet Christine Mansfield ran form school today"
"this is chrissy my perents don't get home till 5 I can give you my moms cell phone number but I am pretty sure you have that" I seid then hung up the phone I went to my room then went to my laptop I thought for fun I would take a personality quizz called what's your theme song after I finished there was a link I clicked it and I toke me to YouTube and it played bvb coffin

Notes

This is mostly based on my life so far everything happend but I have not ran form school but every thing els is legit and that is how I found bvb and I will update only if you ask I don't think it is going so good so if you want more just ask