I'm Not Afraid

Seraphine's Point of View

Grams had passed the day that I had gone to visit her. Gladly Andy went with me and he drove me all the way home because I was an emotional wreck. I cried all the way from the hospital and all the way until right now where I was sitting on my couch with my pug pillow pet trying to squeeze the poo out of it. I had lost one of the most important people in my life as another came back into it. I didn't even know how to feel about anything at all. I was distraught and hurting.

I stared at the off the TV as Andy came out of the kitchen with a sandwich for me to eat for lunch. He sat down next to me as he held the sandwich. He was upset too because he was close to Grams but he was not a cryer.

"Please eat, Serah." Andy begged me as I stared at the TV. I looked at the sandwich and I couldn't help but to laugh at how sloppy it was. Everything was falling out and the mayo was on the plate. "What's so funny?"

"It's messy, Andy." I laughed again. Andy looked at me with a big smile on his face, a smile that I had missed. I loved when he would smile because he was scrunch up his nose. I picked up my sandwich and I ate it all gone, not because I was hungry but because I was empty.

"Want another?" Andy asked me. I shook my head before leaning against him. "Want to cuddle and a movie with some brews?"

"Yes. But I don't have any beers here." I told him with a long sigh. He gave me a kiss on the top of my head before standing up. "Where are you going?"

"To get some beer, my dear." He smiled. "Get the movie and popcorn ready. I'll be back in a few minutes." I smiled at him and got off the couch. As Andy left my apartment, I went into the kitchen and got some popcorn ready. As the popcorn was popping, I put on The Nightmare Before Christmas for us to watch.

"In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life?

In the end
As my soul's laid to rest
What is left of my body
Or am I just a shell?
And I have fought
And with flesh and blood I commanded an army
Through it all
I have given my heart for a moment of glory
(I gave it all)." I sang as I went to wait for the popcorn to finish. I loved this song not only because it was by Andy's band but it was a good song.

"In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die.

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid to die." I smiled to myself as I imagined Andy singing those words with his entire heart in the song.

"Born a saint
But with every sin I still wanna be holy
I will live again
Who we are
Isn't how we live we are more than our bodies
If I fall I will rise back up and relive my glory

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

In the end
As you fade into the night (oh whoa oh oh)
Who will tell the story of your life (oh whoa oh oh)
And who will remember your last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die." I moved my body to the words I was singing as if the song was an acoustic song not because I didn't have a voice but because I liked the acoustic version because it was easy to move slowly to.

"Who will remember this last goodbye (oh whoa oh oh)
'Cause it's the end and I'm not afraid
I'm not afraid to die

Not afraid
I'm not afraid to die
No not afraid
I'm not afraid to die!." I sang the last few lines and I couldn't help but to smile.

"You should sing more often." Andy spoke. "And your dancing is sexy." I turned to look at him and noticed that he was being sincere. I looked away as I felt the heat rush to my cheeks. Andy had always been able to make me blush, it was just the effect that he has had on me. Not because he had always been this sexy human being but because he had a way with words that could make a nun shiver and he had this confidence about him that not only made him attractive but the way he looked at someone when flirty with them was more than enough to get a girl turned on.

"Andrew Dennis, watch you mouth. That talk leads to a ton of trouble." I said pointing at him. He raised an eyebrow at me. "Put the eyebrow back to normal, Mr. Biersack."

"And why is that, Ms. Saccone?" I grabbed the popcorn and turned back to face him. He was still giving me that look.

"Wouldn't you like to know." I laughed as I grabbed a beer and went right past him. He chuckled before joining me on the couch. This was just like old times. The harmless flirting, the cuddling and the one person who enjoyed my company was back at my side. Just like the old times.

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