I'm in love with an Outlaw

~Andy’s POV~

The next morning when I woke up, Ashley wasn’t in the bunk beside me. I wonder if he even got home last night...I really hope he didn’t go and fuck some stupid whore. I silently got out of my bunk and pulled Ashley’s curtain back, there he was, sound asleep. No one else was in the bunk with him so I just climbed in beside him, wrapping my arms around his waist.
I think I fell asleep because when I woke up, Ashley was pressed against the wall, away from me, he looked scared...no that’s an understatement he looked petrified.
“What’s wrong sweetie?” I asked, cautiously, keeping a soft voice.
“I-I-I-I... it’s nothing.” He whispered, still keeping his distance.
“It doesn’t seem like nothing...”
“Don’t interrogate me!” he shouted all of a sudden.
I stared at him taken a-back. He looked surprised as well with his sudden outburst. I sighed and shook my head, “We’ll talk about this later then...” I muttered before getting out the bunk.
I closed the curtain behind me and stayed outside, listening to Ashley’s breathing, which soon turned into muffled sobs. I hope he’s okay...he looked really shaken up, maybe something happened last night, maybe that’s why he didn’t come back to the bus.
But I can’t question him right now because he just shouted at me...I might get Jinxx to help me question him, Jinxx is really good with stuff like that, plus his voice is a lot softer than mine and probably more calming.
I left him alone, walking through to the living area and plopping myself down on the sofa. They guys all looked at me; they most likely heard Ashley shouting at me in the bunk room.
“What was all that about?” Jake asked.
“Well...he came back, probably last night when we were asleep. But he got into his own bunk, so this morning I woke up early and got into his bunk beside him...and fell asleep again. But when I woke up, he was pressed against the wall of the bunk, trying to put as much distance between me and him as he possibly could. He also didn’t like me asking him what was wrong...”
“Maybe something happened? He’ll probably tell you later though; maybe he isn’t ready to tell us?” Jake reasoned.
I sighed and nodded before standing up again, “I’m gonna go to the bathroom...”
Jinxx got up as well, “I’m going to...get...something from the bunks...”
I shrugged and made my way to the bathroom but when I walked in, Jinxx followed me.
“I came in earlier, and Ashley’s clothes last night...his pants were stained with dried blood and some...other liquids.” Jinxx said quietly, closing the door over.
“What? Why would there be blood? Also what other liquids?”
“Uh...I’m pretty sure that it was cum...But I’m not sure...”
“Do you think he went out and fucked someone behind my back?” I asked suddenly, becoming worried, more for my sake.
“Possibly, but let’s not jump to conclusions like that , I think something really bad happened, if he was, like you said, pressed up against the bunk wall, staying away from you.”
“I-I guess...wait...are you saying that someone might’ve...?” I didn’t want to say the word; the act of rape was disgusting and horrible, and traumatising for the victim.
“Maybe...I can talk to him if you want...?”
I nodded my head quickly, “Please...”
Jinxx nodded and smiled sadly at me before exiting the bathroom and leaving me to do my business. I felt a little sick now, what if someone did?! How dare they hurt my Ashy!
I had made my way back through to the living area, and I was currently sitting on the sofa playing on my phone. I was on twitter, reading what the fans had said about me and Ashes relationship.
Most of them were really supportive but there was the occasional snide or nasty comment about homosexuality. But I don’t care about what they think, I’ve got Ashley and that’s all I need. I don’t need their ignorant comments bringing me or Ashley down.
Jinxx came out of the bunk room after a while, heading to the kitchen, so I followed him.
“Did he say anything?” I asked quickly.
“No...He doesn’t want to talk about it; he denied anything I said about rape. He just said that he went out to the bar and there were a couple people that said some rude things to him but that was it.” Jinxx shrugged slightly, biting his lip ever so slightly.
“Mhm...Well if he says so...maybe we’ll find out another day. We can’t pressure him into telling us.” I mumbled, my voice cracking slightly at the end.
Jinxx pulled me into a hug, “Don’t cry, Andy. Ashley will be okay, I promise.” He whispered, knowing that I was very worried about Ashes.
“You promise?”
“Cross my heart.”
I smiled faintly down at Jinxx; he returned the gesture before returning to the living area. I however made my way to the bunks, heading for my own so I could charge my phone and play on it.
I glanced into Ashley’s bunk to see that he had his eyes closed and headphones on, blocking out all other sounds. I smiled faintly before climbing into my own bunk. I plugged my phone into the wall, watching as the bar at the top of the screen turned green, signalling that it was in fact, charging.

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