I'm in love with an Outlaw

~Andy’s POV~
I had been crying to myself in my bunk. I was freaking out over the fact that people were going to hate me because of the fact that I was gay. I was thinking that I’d be kicked out of the band. I may have over-reacted but I don’t know...I was close to a panic attack, which is why I had tried to smother myself.
Ashley had pulled the curtain back and asked what was wrong, I was rambling. I knew I was, I didn’t want to tell him. I was too scared, especially when he was the one that I loved. Eventually he had gotten it out of me, and I was still waiting for his reply.
His face at first had showed shock, but then something else that I couldn’t decipher and now jealousy, jealousy? What could he possibly be jealous of?
“A-Andy...” Ashley finally whispered, breaking the silence. “You’re gay?” he sounded shocked still, maybe even disbelieving. I’m not sure.
I nodded hesitantly, “Y-yeah...I am....”
“Why did you never say...?”
“W-well it doesn’t really tend to come up in conversations....” I laughed nervously, he didn’t seem angry mad or disgusted, so I’ll take this as a good thing.
“I guess not....but still, I’m your best friend, aren’t I?”
“Yes! You are my best friend...I guess I’m sorry for not telling you....”
“No, don’t apologise...but is there anyone that you are currently, crushing on...so to say?”
Oh god, no please no. Don’t ask that, you bitch. “I....” I couldn’t tell him, I didn’t want to. “No...Not currently.” I said, straightening up a little.
I swear I saw disappointment flash across his face but it was gone as soon as it appeared and he smiled, “Well I want to know if you do crush on anyone~ kay?” he nudged me in the side, winking at me.
I felt my face flush red and I nodded quickly, “Yes sir!”
He chuckled and gave me a short hug before jumping down, “Don’t cry, it’s okay~ The guys won’t hate you. We all love you, and we sure as hell won’t leave you over sexuality. So yeah, don’t worry~”
I nodded and lay down in my bunk, curling up a little, he reached up and wiped away a few tears and smiled softly before getting back into his own bunk. I closed my curtain and let out a long breath. I’m glad that he isn’t homophobic. But I know that I’m going to have to tell the guys soon, they have to know as well, I can’t just tell Ashley and no one else.
I woke up to the smell of bacon and sausages. Someone can cook nicely. I sat up and blinked quickly, my sleeping patterns have been constantly changing, sometimes I sleep all day and stay up all night or I sleep all night and stay up all day, which I guess is what’s supposed to happen.
I slid out of my bunk and pulled on some batman pyjama bottoms and a black oversized hoodie. I shuffled through to the kitchen, yawning sleepily as I looked around. Everyone was up...why didn’t they wake me? Oh well, it doesn’t matter. I sighed quietly as I took the only seat available, one beside Ashley and Jake.
“Morning Ands~” Ashley cooed, ruffling my hair a little.
I blushed a little and nodded slightly, “Morning~”
Jinxx looked over to me from the oven. “You hungry?”
I nodded quickly, he smirked and served me my food, which I ate quickly, I was starving to be honest.
Once I was done, Ashley nudged me a little, I looked at him, and he mouthed ‘Tell them’.
I shook my head, fiddling with my hoodie sleeves.
I heard Ash sigh and then announce, “Guys, Andy has something he wants to tell you.”
This caused everyone’s eyes to turn to me, I glared at Ashley, and then looked at the guys. I gulped nervously, and laughed a little due to nervousness.
“Well...I guess I do...I uh...just promise me that you won’t hate me...?” I asked this first, rambling due to nervousness.
They all answered with something along the lines of, ‘We would never hate you.’
I nodded and coughed a little, why did Ash make me tell them...”I’m uh...gay...?” It came out as more of a question, which I didn’t mean to, do.
The guys smiled, “We’ll support you, with whatever choice you want to make Andy~” Jinxx, who was the first to speak said.
I nodded again and smiled a little, “Th-thanks...”
I could feel my cheeks heating up rapidly, I had just told them, and they didn’t hate me. That was a relief. I glanced over to Ashley, he just smiled at me. I smiled back and shivered a little. I want to watch a movie, but show time soon!
----Time Skip----
We were all running around the bus like crazy trying to find the war paint, it had disappeared. It wasn’t where I usually kept it. Fuck, I could literally scream right now.
“Guys found it!” I heard Jinxx screech from somewhere in the back lounge, he ran through to the bathroom with it, where I currently was and we both started to put on our war paint, ours doesn’t take very long, well it shouldn’t but my ADHD made me wander off and do other things. I was half done and I really wanted to have a cig so I turned to walk out of the bathroom before Ashley pushed me back in and made me sit on the toilet with the lid down.
“Stay right there, Andy. I will finish it for you and then you can go fuck around, okay?”
I nodded quickly, staying quiet. He seemed a little stressed right now, oh well...
I sat completely still for Ashley and he finished my war paint in record time before shoving me out of the bathroom and starting on his own, alongside Jake. CC would be doing his last, I don’t think his takes very long either.
I by a window in the bus, sucking on the cancer stick as the smoke poured down my throat and into my lungs. I should probably stop smoking, I don’t think Ashley would want to kiss someone that tasted of cigarettes. Oh well, I’ll stop another day. Not like I’m gonna die any time soon.
Soon enough we were all stood backstage, I felt a little nervous as I paced back and forth waiting to be told to get on stage. I could hear the chanting of the BVB army, ‘Black Veil Brides!’ over and over again. This soothed my nervousness slightly but I continued to pace back and forth.
“Guys get on!”
I jumped at the sound of Jon’s voice as he yelled at us. One by one we ran onto stage, me last of course.
“HOW ARE ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS DOING TONIGHT?!”
The crowd replied by screaming.
“Great! This ones called The Legacy!”
CC started the drum solo at the start and then the guitars started, I walked around the stage, my nervousness fading quickly as I started to get into the music, and my starting point was coming up.
“Racing faster, Escape disaster...”
The concert seemed to pass extremely quickly, I was exhausted as we ran off stage and headed to the dressing room to rest before meeting the fans.
I collapsed on the sofa, sprawling out a little. Ashley sat beside me, shoving his hair out of his face. I glanced over to him and he grinned at me, I grinned back of course.
After around half an hour we were led through to a room with a long table and were sat on chairs behind the table. The fans started to come, giving us gifts and things to sign. Requesting hugs, pictures and stuff, I of course didn’t deny any of them. They were my fans and if I didn’t have them then the band would be non-existent.
I received a lot of bat man stuff as well as candy. That was fun, we were walking back to the bus now, Ashley and I were holding hands, swinging our arms back and forth, as stupid as it sounds, I am not fond of walking in the dark, outside. Someone could try to kidnap me. So I took a precaution and asked Ashley to hold my hand so I don’t lose him.
We entered the bus and I dropped Ashley’s hand, thanked him and then headed to my bunk. I stripped down to my boxers before climbing up into my bunk and curling up, falling into an Ashley filled sleep.

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