I'm in love with an Outlaw

Still Andy’s POV~

I had apparently fallen asleep because I found myself waking up to the feeling of someone shaking me roughly, practically screaming, “Andy wake up! Food’s here!” I swatted them away as I opened my eyes to glare at whoever had disturbed my slumber. It turned out to be CC. I should have guessed, he was probably told to be gentle but whatever, not like it matters, I’m up now anyways.

“I’m up CC, you can get off now.” I muttered. And removed his arms from my shoulders.

“Okay! We got pizza!” he yelled in my face before running into what I presume was the kitchen.

I sighed as I stood up and glanced down at my stomach, I was actually ridiculously skinny, and anything I ate seemed to just disappear into thin air. Oh well, I trudged through to the kitchen and sat down in a seat beside Ashley. I helped myself to a few slices of pizza before starting to slowly eat them. I glanced round at the guys trying to figure out what they were talking about, I decided to just keep quiet though because I really had no idea.

I found myself yawning after I had finished my pizza, I felt tired...even though I had slept quite a lot today. I leant into Ashley, resting my head on his shoulder with my eyes closed. He started to pet my hair as I sat there, I smiled faintly to myself and yawned again slowly drifting off to sleep.

~Ashley’s POV~

Andy is so adorable! He just fell asleep from me stroking his hair. His hair is really fluffy I just want to run my fingers through it while I kiss him- better not have any of these thoughts...it won’t be good if I get a hard on and then the guys see.

I looked at the guys who were still talking amongst one another, occasionally casting us sideways glances. Sighing, I stood from my chair and picked Andy up, walking out of the room and down towards the bunks, he’s been sleeping a lot lately but that’s normal for Andy when we’re on tour. He seems to get insomnia during the night and sleeps all day instead. It’s weird but we all have weird problems with ourselves while we are on tour. Like I usually bring home random girls from bars to bang, but that’s only to take my mind off Andy and to make the guys think that I’m totally into girls.

CC tends to sleep all night and day as well as eating a lot whenever he’s up on tour. Jinxx sometimes doesn’t shower for around a week or two simply because he can’t be bothered. And well Jake? I’m not sure to be honest...all he ever seems to eat is pizza but he’s like that all the time so yeah, whatever.

I lay Andy down in his bunk and smiled softly, watching him. He looked so peaceful and happy in his sleep. I kissed his forehead gently before pulling the curtain over and walking out of the bunk room and back into the main area of the bus. The guys had moved into here from the kitchen and were playing a video game. Black Ops II to be exact. It was a pretty cool game to be honest so I sat down beside Jinxx and watched them play it while he played on his phone instead, he does that a lot as well. Phone, phone, phone. All day and all night, I swear he must be addicted to it.

After a while the guys turned the game off and started to head to bed, I couldn’t be bothered to move though so I ended up falling asleep on Jinxx who was already asleep.

The next morning I could hear voices squealing or something...and flashes of a camera but I didn’t care, whoever I was lying beside was warm and comfortable and cuddly. They had their arms around me as I had mine around them. They were smaller than me though, so it wasn’t Andy yeah, whatever.

I guess that I’d fallen back asleep because I woke up again, in the same position sorta but the person wasn’t cuddling me anymore, they were already awake and on their phone. Wait what?! Phone! I opened my eyes quickly and looked at whoever I had slept with on the sofa with the night before, Jinxx.

“Morning, Ashy~” Jinxx mumbled, glancing at me from behind his phone.

I blushed lightly and quickly let go of him, “Heh...morning Jinxxy~ sorry for falling asleep on you last night...”

“It’s fine~ I like having someone to cuddle while I sleep so you were a good substitute~” he poked his tongue out at me.

I laughed a little, “Okay then~! You’re welcome~” I sat up and rubbed at my eye looking around the room. The guys were all sitting on the floor, watching the TV. I’m surprised that they didn’t try to move me...or Jinxx didn’t move me.

I grabbed my phone from the coffee table to see that I had a lot of notifications on Instagram and twitter. Well I usually do...but more so than usual. I went on my twitter to see what it was all about and there was a picture up of me and Jinxx sleeping on the couch, cuddling. Oh...damn that’s what the guys were doing earlier.

People had commented things like, ‘OMG that’s so cute! Xx” and ‘OMG I ship it! #jinxxley’ I felt my face flush red at this, I mean yeah, Jinxx is good looking and all but I loved Andy.

“You guys are dicks.” I stated, glaring at them all. Well them all being CC, Jake and Andy, who were all up, surprisingly.

“You’re welcome.” CC said, rather loudly, turning and grinning at me.

“No! Now everyone’s gonna think that me and Jinxx have a thing going on...” my voice got quieter towards the end.

“Sowwy Ashy, you just looked adorable like that~!” Andy cooed. His gay was showing...but we’re all a little gay inside.

I felt my face heat up even more, “Um...thanks I guess...” I mumbled, embarrassed. Does he know that I like him? maybe that’s why he said that...no...it’s just my imagination.

After a while the guys decided that they would go out, but Andy didn’t want to go and neither did I. So we stayed back in the bus while they went shopping. We had a concert later, so yep. Fun!

Andy and I were sat on the sofa, well when I say sat I mean lying down. Me behind him, and sorta spooning him while he played on his phone, he’s gonna turn into Jinxx if he plays on it for too long. Oh well~ he’s adorable so I don’t care.

I nuzzled into the back of his neck, and I’m pretty sure that he shuddered or something, I’m not really very sure.

“A-ash...what are you doing...?” he whispered.

I shrugged a little, “You’re warm, and cuddly~”

He nodded slightly and shifted backwards towards me more. I smiled at this and cuddled more.

He was still playing on his phone as I played with his hair a little, as well as nuzzling him and just doing cutesy shit for no reason. Well there was a reason but not that he would know about.

I really wanted to kiss him, and everything that couples do, but I knew that I couldn’t because he’s straight, which is horrible. Occasionally he flirts with girls and it hurts. I just want to walk up and kiss him, and spill everything. About how much I loved him, about how I think that he’s beautiful and gorgeous...just everything and it kills me that I can’t say it.

After a while the guys all came back, and Andy and I had moved to our bunks considering that it was late, yet again. We had eaten curry or something for dinner, I’m not sure what it was, but it tasted okay. I was lying across from Andy’s bunk and I’m pretty sure that I heard him talking to himself.

I couldn’t catch what he was saying, I just heard my name once or twice, but I don’t know why he was talking about me. Eventually I slipped out of my bunk, I had to be really quiet cause all the guys were in their own bunks, probably asleep.

“Andy...?” I whispered, pulling the curtain back slowly.

Andy was lying there, with his face buried into a pillow and his body was shaking softly.

“Andy? What’s wrong? Are you okay?”

He shook his head and lifted it from the pillow to show that his eyes were red and a little puffy, and his nose was running a little, and his cheeks were wet and red. He had been crying, I don’t know what over yet, though.

“I-I-I’m scared Ashy...” Andy mumbled shaking his head and curling up even more.

“Why are you scared, Ands?”

“B-because...everyone’s going to h-hate m-me...”

“No they won’t. We all love you, no matter what...want to tell me why you think we’re all going to hate you?”

Andy nodded a little, “C-can you come up h-here...?”

I nodded and climbed up into Andy’s bunk sitting beside him, “So...?”

“W-well...I recently discovered something about myself...and I...I feel like everyone’s going to get mad at me and be disgusted...”

“What is it? I’m sure no one will be mad or disgusted.”



“I...I’m gay, Ashy...” he mumbled, hiding his face in the pillow again.

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