*Nyx P.O.V.*
I was still a block or two from the house when someone's hand snaked around my upper arm. I was about to scream as they turned me around but I saw it was just Jinxx. I raised my other hand to slap him, but he caught it. He was the only member of the band I was taller than.

"Where the fuck have you been?" He hissed. He let go of my hand arm and I tipped my head back and poured the rest of the Rockstar down my throat.

"Calm down Mama Jinxxy. I am fine." Jinxx pulled out his phone and called someone.

"Yeah, I got her. Get everyone else and call Andy and meet me back there." He locked his phone and shoved in his back pocket. I turned around and started walking. "Where are you going Nyx? You are coming with me to your house." He said grabbing my arm again and dragged me across the street.

"Mama, I can walk home on my own. I do know where I live."

"Yes but I am not going to let you walk alone." He took me the short way, cutting through peoples backyard. I sighed and let him pull me along. As we came to the backyard of my house I heard Andy yelling. I stopped walking and pulled against Jinxx's hold.

"Maybe I should wait a little bit...." I trailed off.

"No no no. I have been dealing with this all night, all of us have, except Ashley, he disappeared like you. So what does Andy think? Nyx and Ashley are making babies!!" Jinxx started yelling. I cringed, Jinxx was never mad like this. He didn't even get this mad, even when Sammi left. The sliding glass door opened, and Jinxx was still yelling at me.

"JINXX. Let her go." Jake warned. Jinxx dropped my hand and I ran around the pool and pushed past Jake, interrupting the argument CC and Andy were having. Andy walked to me anger in his eyes. He raised his hand and quickly brought it across my face. My mouth quivered, trying to go into a frown. Tears fell out of my eyes and everyone gasped at Andy.

"Hand me your phone, Nyx. Then go up to your room and don't come out until I tell you can." Tears rushed down my face at a faster pace and I handed him my phone. "Cut the crying shit, Nyx. Go to your room, I don't want to see you."

"Andy this is uncalled for!" CC yelled at him.

"No... Its fine. I deserve it anyways." My voice broke multiple times trying to say just seven words. I walked around Andy and headed up the stairs choking on my own tears. I went to my room and shut the door softly. I got on my hands and knees and crawled under my bed,curling into a ball. I listened to the yells of CC, Jake, and Andy. The voice in my head returned screaming at me to die.

"GO AWAY!!!" I screamed filling my room. I crawled out from under my small bed and went to my desk. I ripped open the drawer. IT wasn't there. I screamed again went to the wall pounding my head against it. I clawed at my skin with my nails.

You're so pathetic. I can't believe you.

"GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT!" I screamed and tore through everything in my room. I heard foot steps coming up the stairs. I sobbed still searching for IT. "WHERE IS IT!!" My door flew open to Jake, CC and Andy. Jake came towards me and I shook my head screaming. CC stayed on Jakes heels. I sobbed and Jake grabbed my arms and held me still. I fought against him and CC stepped in. Andy walked towards me. By this point Jake and CC had my lifted off the ground and I was kicking my legs out violently towards Andy. "Go away! You will just hit me again!" Andy flinched and stopped. He pulled IT out from his vest. I snapped my arms out hitting Jake in the face, causing him to lose grip of me. With half my body free I lurched forward to grab IT from my brother. He pulled his hand back and I growled.

"Why do you want this so bad anyway?"

"Thats IT. Not this. IT is the only thing that was here for me. The sleepless nights, the emotionless mornings, IT was there to bring me back."

"IT isn't real. IT is just a pocket knife, one that you will never see again." I hissed and lunged for him, but CC pulled me back. Andy left the room leaving me with a bleeding Jake and a frightened CC.

Look at all this. This is all your fault.

With my free hand I clawed at my face and held my forehead clenching my eyes shut. "NYX!" CC yelled. He had let go of my and I was curled into a ball on the floor my hands clenching my head.

"I'm okay... You should go..." I said quietly.

They left my room leaving me in a ball on the floor. I cried myself to sleep shortly after they left.

~IN DREAMLAND OR WHATEVER~

I stood in the corner. Yet, at the same time i was laying on the floor. I came closer, and saw my body was covered in red. No, no, no. I wasn't dead. I was right here... Wasn't I? Someone knocked at the door.

"Mom?" They called. It sounded like a small child. The door opened and a small girl entered and let out a bloodcurdling scream. I reached to pull her away and hug her, but I couldn't touch her. She fell to her knees. "MOMMY!" Loud footsteps came from the hall. Ashley and Andy entered, and both of their faces turned dark. Andy ripped the girl away from me and Ashley picked me up.

"DON'T LEAVE ME! I NEED YOU!" He rocked me back and forth and screamed. He laid me on the ground and started to give me chest compressions. I bit my hand to keep my sobs in. Andy returned, and pulled Ashley from me.

"SHE"S NOT COMING BACK!!" Andy screamed.

"I'm right here! Look at me!" I sat in front of them. I wasn't dead... I couldn't be.
~Reality~

Someone was shaking me. my eyes fluttered open and I looked out my window. There was nothing but black outside. It was Andy. I flinched and pressed myself into the floor. "Nyx, I am sorry. I won't hurt you. I talked to Ashley and Alex, I didn't know, I am sorry."

"Just go away..." I said and he complied standing and exiting my room. I stood and changed into leather pants and a white tank top. I grabbed my sweatshirt and combat boots and put them on quickly. I opened my window and crawled out. I jumped from the roof down to our front yard landing with a soft thud. I ran to my motorcycle and slipped in my helmet. I rolled the motorcycle down our driveway and down our street a little bit before mounting and turning the bike on and racing down the street and headed for the highway.

Notes

I just discovered Nightcore... I think I died.

Also, don't ever drink Rockstar, or you will become addicted like me.
Where is Nyx going? I don't know I haven't even written the next chapter. OH WELL.