Waking up to the sound of shouting i pushed back my duvet, going through to the small cupboard i picked up one of Jake's guitars, placed it into an amp turning it up to the maximum then begin to glide my hands along the strings at random. Hearing the argument stop i place the guitar down and walk through to the main kitchen area. Witnessing the scene before me i begin to shout, "Look you guys woke me up and i don't give a rats tooth why you are arguing but just shut up!" with that i left the room. Seeing that Veronika had fallen asleep in the back lounge i picked her up and carried her through to my bunk. She looked so peaceful in her sleep and it just frustrates me to know that she had to put up with what she did. Running a hand through her snowy hair, i pulled my covers around her then closed the curtain. Taking a seat in the back lounge it wasn't long before Jake joined. Asking me if i was the one who played his guitar earlier i said yes to where he asked if i wanted to learn guitar properly. Nodding my head vigorously i went and got changed then joined Jake back on the couch. Placing a guitar on my lap i cradled it like it was a new born. Letting my hands find all the strings i was told to play anything i knew. Knowing very little about playing guitar the best i could do was play a few single notes but apparently that was great for a beginner.

Four hours had passed and i was taught how to play the start of saviour as i was apparently a natural but i think it's all down to Jake's teaching. He was the type of person who wouldn't get frustrated when i kept on messing up with notes which i did a lot but helped me improved by being patient. Seeing as i was now 2 in the afternoon we emerged from the darkened bus and out into the bright outdoors.

Meeting Veronika outside i introduced her to Jadiee and we set off to watch SWS preform. Getting into a great space we began to jump to the music when i saw a guy pushing into Veronika. Anger rattling through me i grabbed him by his shirt pulling him back "Look douche that's my sister your hurting now back off!" Giving me a sneer he turned away. As if you can't hang began to play i got Veronika on my shoulders which made her beam. Once the concert was over i dragged both of them away to go see BVB play as i wanted to start playing match maker. Flashing my pass to security i got them back stage. Walking over to the guys i introduced Jadiee to all the guys but just as i had imagined Ash was all over her. Stepping aside me and Veronika took a seat behind where CC's drums are situated on stage, not being able to be seen by the fans. Oh and before i forget to tell you, Austin had to leave early which is rubbish but we only have 2 weeks left of warped so i will see him soon. Anyway back to me an Nicky's conversation.
"Hey Cassara" Veronika said.
"Yeah little one?"
"Do you really class me as your sister?" she asked.
"Of course as soon as i saw you i knew you where family"
This made her tear up and give me a big hug explaining that she had never had a sister. Hugging back with extra force i told her that i hadn't either. We then spoke about anything and everything until the lights dimmed indicating that the show was about to start. Hearing the familiar music to shadow's die burst through the amps Dad passed us jumping onto his drum kit, revealing himself to the fans making the audience roar. One by one Jake, Ashley, Jinxx then Andy entered earning more screams. As the show went on me and Nicky had made our way to side stage to find Jadiee who told me about how sweet Ash was and all that fluff. Hearing Fallen Angels finish off Dad then stepped of his drum kit making his way to beside Andy. Pulling the microphone off of the stand he begin to inform the crowd that he had some people to show them. Feeling myself and Veronika being pushed onto stage we walked over to CC however my stage fright making me not able to look into the audience but only the ground. Pulling us into a side hug his mouth opened again, "Guys these are my beautiful two Daughters Cassara and Veronika!" Seeing Nicky's mouth drop as she registered that she now had a home all i could do is smile as a chorus of happiness but some boo's radiated off the BVBarmy. Escorting us off stage Ashley sent Jadiee a wink as me and Veronika began jumping around knowing that we where now real sister's. Pulling out my phone i took a pic of Nicky and I, uploading it to twitter as we headed back to the bus as the set finished. Going to my home page i saw that i had gained over 5 thousand followers, my jaw dropped however not for long. Scrolling through my tweets i noticed almost all the tweets where hate saying that i was probably just a slut and that i was fat and ugly. Feeling tears prickle at my eyes i ran to the bathroom. Reading through more i found some from Chase and the bullies at school who where now spreading rumours:
@Chelseapromqueen : @CassaraATL Your just a ugly fat slut who deserves to die.
@Chasethegreat; @CassaraATL Wow looks like by banging band members you've got yourself adopted.Well done!
@Bethanyrachel: @CassaraATL Bet they only adopted you for publicity. No one loves you!
@Brock121: @CassaraATL: I'm missing my punching bag are you just too scared to come to school Cassy?

Tears now running freely down my face, my once nice make up completely smudged. Curling myself into a ball, rocking back and forth i realised that everything they said i was true. I'm not special. I'm just a no body. Sobbing my heart out i began to feel light headed. Hearing the banging of everyone at the bathroom door i didn't unlock it. Looking in the mirror the voices now coming back calling me fat/ ugly and everything in between i crashed to the floor. Hearing the door click open i soon felt a pair of war paint covered arms around me. Looking up i came face to face with my Dad. Crying onto his shoulder as he picked up my phone, scrolling through the hate he began whispering into my ear how none of it was true. Still crying despite the comforts of my Dad i felt my throat begin to close up making my breathing struggled, black splodges appeared in my vision making it blurred. The last thing i saw was the chocolate eyes of Dad filled with concern as the dark took over.

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Waking up to a constant beeping in my ear the sight confused me. Scanning the immaculate white room i soon caught on to where i was. Sitting up from the hard white bed, ripping out the tubes attached to my arm set off an awful ringing which sent a group of about 10 nurses flying into my room. Placing in the tubes back into my slim arm i got a glare from a chubby nurse as they left. Letting out a sigh, i lay back down when a small balding man entered the room holding a clip board with Dad and Andy trailing behind his white coat. "Ahh fantastic your awake now!" he spoke a thick posh English accent clear in his raspy voice.
"Yeah... how long was i out!" i asked curiously.
"Two days" Confused by that response i had no time to ask before i was thrown into a small bathroom with my clothes from 2 days ago being told to get ready as i could leave. Muttering swears under my breathe i threw my hair into a bun and left. Giving a small smile to Andy and CC we made our way out the front door and into the car.
"What happened?"
"Well you had a severe panic attack then passed out so we rushed you to the hospital to find out that you also where dehydrated and not enough food in your body, the doctors are now scared that you may suffer from frequent panic attacks and collapse at any moment for the next few weeks so no more concerts" Andy retorted. Away to argue that that wasn't happening i was soon cut off my Dad which was unusual saying that it wasn't happening and that i was going no where near the concerts. Letting out a grunt as we left the car park i stuck in my head phones clicking on some pierce the veil knowing that i would have to break some rules in the next few days.

Notes

Sorry if any of them twitter names are yours but i just made them up. Anyway i have exciting news..... me and my 2 friends are getting to meet BVB! I know i'm freaking out!!!

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