Our pain will shine our light to, those who understand

What even happened yesterday, i mean one minute i was speaking to who i thought was a friendly man the next he was kissing me, not on the cheek but full on my lips. I've begged Andy not to tell anyone but i know the press will post it somewhere. Why can't nice things happen to me. I know i shouldn't dwell on the fact, i know i shouldn't feel bad as it wasn't my fault and i did everything in my power to stop what he did to me. Well i suppose i will just read some fanfiction so i can live in the world of cute stories and love, i mean who doesn't want to read one billion different of you're OTP falling in love. Clicking onto tumblr i began scrolling though multiple stories all not succeeding in fulfilling my needs i decided to just scroll though my dash. Supernatural gifs, destiel, some anime that's taken over the internet, grumpy cat memes all flashed past my eyes as i scrolled. OOh link to new All time low interview, don't mind if i do. Clicking on the link i was quickly brought to rocksound where a horrified gasp left my lips. NO NO NO NO NO. Oh i'm dead, Andy's dead Dads' gonna kill him, Oh shit Austin - what will he think. Scrolling through the paragraph and pictures my heart sunk that fucking bastard...

A heated make out session beside the bathrooms at last nights Rocksound award show concerning the adopted daughter of drumming sensation Christian Coma from the legendary Black Veil Brides, Cassara Coma and the hansom Brit Blood of Roses lead singer Chris Kemp. The two where spotted lips locked, Miss Coma's back against the wall when an annoyed Andy Biersack broke the pair apart. From there on punches where flown which resulted in Chris loosing a tooth, a black eye and multiple bruises, once Andy felt content in his assault he guided a weeping Cassara out of the venue to which they never returned. After contacting Chris he says, "Cassara and I have been going strong for a few months now and we were just about to tell her family about our relationship. Looks like Andy wasn't very happy, i hope that doesn't stop me and my Baby girl from seeing each other." Our hearts go out to Chris in this matter, more about this event will come soon.

A picture of me and Chris was at the bottom followed with Andy and his fight, myself in the background tears choking me while a horrified face was planted on my face.
"ANDREW DENNIS BIERSACK WHAT THE HELL IS THIS! I TOLD YOU TO LOOK AFTER MY DAUGHTER!" Boomed through the household causing my ears to perk up as i scrambled out my room.
"Look CC i can explain, but i don't think it's my place. Please Chuppy just listen to me you know i want the best from Cass you don't think i'd let some no good bastard kiss her after everything that's happened and not do anything." Now at the bottom of the stairs i found CC clutching his ipad the article brought up in one hand and Andy's shirt in the other, their noses almost touching. Andy's face portraid a look of nervousness most likely from CC's angered expression. "Dad let go of Andy, you know him do you really think he would let me out of his sights for long especially with your threats if something happened to me hmm?" At this Dad let go of his death grip on Andrew, a look of relief ghosting over Andy's face. By now everyone in the house was gathered down stairs, desperate too see what all the commotion was about. As CC's mouth opened to speak i held up my finger shushing his with my eyes, "Now this is the real story of last night and not some shit made up from the press of that fucker Chris Kemp..."

"So he like kissed you for no reason." Veronicka confirmed from her spot in the corner, her blue ipod clutched in her hand, one earphone in her ear while the other hung.
"Yes that's right, Any more obvious questions?"
"Andy did you break him?" Veronicka piped up once again causing a smirk to ghost over Andy's face as he chuckled shaking his head. Laughing along a thought struck my skull, how will Austin react he might think i'm cheating oh crap, oh crap.
"Hey peasants can someone please take me to Austin's before he takes a fit since it basically says i'm cheating and dating the English prick!"
"Cassara you have really got to quit swearing but yeah let me get my keys, anyone else wanting to go?" Dad muttered as he got up stretching his back out as he moved.
"OOOH MEE!" Ashley squealed, "Let me go get my pants then we can leave." With that the boy ran up the stairs as me and Dad went to the car, myself getting shot gun. The drive there consisted of Ashley whining about being in the back seat and listened to three cheers for sweet revenge myself getting very excited when helena began.

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this waaaaaaay DAD TURN IN HERE
Things are better if I staaaaay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight STOP HERE!

With that i jumped out of the vehicle laughing as you could hear every lyric Gerard sang from 10 feet away. Saluting to the guys who where aggressively singing in the car i chuckled as i knocked on the door of Austin's home eager to explain everything. The door soon swung open revealing Austin mother June who as usual was barely able to stand, swinging side to side. "Ahh Cassara i haven't seen you in ages" she sung puling me into a tight grasp. "As i have you, how are you June coping well?" i asked helping her to the couch making sure she was okay i made my way to Austin's room. You see after Austin's' dad abandoned her and Austin for her sister in a fiery aggression, June went into a deep depression. Drinking and leaving Austin for days with no one only returning in the middle of the night leaving him money on the mantle piece. Since then after years of loneliness one night she returned back claiming that she missed her son and was stupid for throwing him away so with that she left for another year in rehab. Since then she is now loopy her medication knocking her out for hours, and making her very forgetful and so Austin is still alone in the world and i have always been there to comfort him and he been there for me. Pushing open the door the smell of Austin that i love so much hit me like i a school bus. However my moment of love was quickly discarded when two figures caught my attention. Sat on Austin's bed was Austin and some blonde girl, lips locked there bodies pressed against each other as if they had been glued together. As horrified as i was a fiery anger burst out of me, banging on his door making my presence well know they both flew away from each other in shock. The shock in Austin's eyes was enough to set me off, a single tear slide down my cheek but my anger soon won dominance. "How could you."
"Cass i'm so sorry it's not what it looks like," he spoke making his way over to me.
"Are you sure cause it looks like you where on your way to fucking a girl and if you where fuckin' any girl it should be me. Cheating on me, how could you mean after everything we went through together. All my life i was on your side and you do this to me." Throwing my hands up in fury i stomped down the creaking stairs, "I thought we were forever, but no just like always everything i love gets blown up right in my face. I can't believe i actually came to apologise terrified in case you thought i was cheating because of the press but no i find the man i love on his road to fucking some whore."
"You love me?" he whispered his hand clamping on my hand as i made my way to the door.
"Seriously? that's what you pick up on no apology no nothing. You know Austin i thought i knew you but no i was fucking wrong wasn't I. How long have you been cheating i want to know!" i exclaimed my eyes boring into his fucked up soul. His eyes flicking around the room, his mouth not speaking a word i exploded. Throwing the door open i stomped towards the car when he spun me around his emerald orbs leaking with salty tears. "Please don't leave me wild flower."
"DON'T TOUCH ME! Don't you dare 'wild flower' me AUSTIN RIAN BLACK! Twice. Two times i have caught you kissing another girl and i'm done. You should of thought about how i would feel when you where kissing her but why should i hold you up. You can go back to fucking that slut in your house. " Pulling my arm away i turned my back on the man i had given my heart too, the man who meant most to me in the world, the man who had been there for me when no one else was. Getting into the car i began to sob my heart out, all the pain settling in.
"Cas are you okay? Did Austin hurt you? I swear i will kill him." Ashley asked scooping myself into his arms, not saying a word from all the tears Dad began to drive back to the house, away from Austin.

As Ashley lifted me out of the car, my tears still racking my body i saw the pain on Dad's face as he watched me cry my heart out. Himself not being able to do anything. In the house i was placed on my feet, taking off towards the living room where i heard the others i ran to the only person who understood my pain at that moment. The only person in this house who openly spoke to me about his past. The only person who could relate to the emotions i was feeling at that moment..





Jinxx.

Notes

Now the chapter is fixed! and not repeating it's self ! I don't even know how that happened maybe it was to do with the fact that i was doing it through my phone but whatever!

So how do you feel now about Austin? - Em xx