Our pain will shine our light to, those who understand

Switching on the shower i stepped back letting the water heat up instead of stepping into an icy coffin of coldness. Once i was certain the water was perfect i stripped down and jumped in. Twenty or so minutes later i was clean although my voice was slightly hoarse from me singing at the top of my lungs. After feckering around with my hair and make up for a good 40 minutes i pulled on my oversized PTV jumper, some jeans and my famous combats then bolted down the stairs. Despite my burning hatred for mornings today i felt not as sluggish to be honest it may be the fact that its a Friday but whatever. Once i had shovelled a good amount of lucky charms down my throat it was nearing that time again. The time to go to school. With a small check-list in my head of what i had to do that day i began my journey. After walking only 3 blocks i was shattered but that's when my hero came. Seeing my best friend skid into the neighbourhood i raced for the car. Opening the door i slide into the passenger seat, the familiar song of Dance with the Devil by Breaking Benjamin blasting through the speakers.

The day progressed, as usual i had to use some of my comebacks which included;

Oh i heard your spreading rumours about me but i guess its okay because your actually spreading something else than your legs.

Me: Can i go to the bathroom
Mrs Ferguson (biology): why?
Me: To open the chamber of secrets then slay the basilisk.

Did it hurt when you fell from the slut tree and banged every guy on the way down?

Roses are red, violets are blue, i have five fingers and the middle one is for you!

Since Veronicka was going over to her friend Evelyn's for a sleepover tonight i told the guys not to bother picking me up as i will probably catch a ride with Austin. This my friends is true. Slipping into my usual seat in the front i pulled on my seat belt because it's better to be safe than sorry as Austin pulled away from hell. The ride to my house was filled with casual chit chat and supernatural gossip because that how cool we are. Pulling up to the gigantic house the engine was cut when Austin turned to me. Staring at one an other his face soon inched towards mine, despite wanting to lean into his touch i knew i couldn't. Seeing the sadness wiggle into Austin eyes my heart broke as his face turned. I knew i had to ask the million dollar question.
"Are we gonna speak about what happened the other night?"
"Um... yeah sure!" The awkward tension which now loomed over us was one i had never experienced with Austin.
"So...." i began when i was cut off.
"Was i wrong?"
"What?"
"Was i wrong for kissing you i mean i have liked you since we where like 6 and i just can't stop these feelings i mean your beautiful and funny and nerdy and my best friend. The day you left the adoption home i almost felt empty knowing i couldn't always come and save you in 2 seconds when you had nightmares. I know this sounds childish but i need you in my life way more than you need me or may think."
Too say i was shocked was the understatement of the year i mean what are you mean't to do when your best friend who you have known for years and is super hot making you have a slight crush on him confessed that he likes you. Wait did i just admit that i have a crush on Austin? I'm so confused and conflicted right now. Ugg what do i say... he's looking at me. Have i left it too long what do i do OMG OMG PANIC MODE ON! Do i say i like him to? i don't want our friendship to be ruined.
"Okay then i guess that shows how you feel, Obviously not the same as i do." Austin whispered his emeralds swimming in tears. "See you later Cassara." With that he closed the car door and drove away. When did i even get out of the car? What have i done? i just made my best friend cry and it's obvious he's slightly annoyed or else he wouldn't of said my full name he would of said Cass or Cassy or one of them ridiculous names like Sweet Cakes. I'm so stupid!

Clutching my backpack in my hand i trailed through the door small tears now spilling down my cheeks but for what reason. Was it because i felt bad or did i just muck up? Stomping up to my room i threw my bag on the floor. Closing the door i slide down it like my hot tears which trailed down my face. Placing my phone to my ear i began to call Austin but to no avail which made me cry harder. I had never in my life upset Austin and to be honest i didn't know what to do. Hearing a slight knock on the door and the concerned voice of my Dad i slowly backed away. Wiping my eyes i opened the door letting him in. Once explaining that i was fine despite his protests he soon left. Laying down on my bed i gazed at my room, my eyes scanning my posters and pictures until my eyes landed on a picture which brought a smile to my face. It was a small picture which lay in a silver frame. The photo was of me and Austin at an fancy dress school dance which we had to attend. I know i know lame but whatever we actually had a great time after we messed about putting ghost chilli powder over all the food and drinks. Any way, I was dressed as Alice from Alice in Wonderland while Austin sported the Edward scissor hands look making us stand out from the crowd of overdressed dressed 13 year olds....

"Really Austin Edward Scissor hands?"
"Hell Yeah Cassy who do you take me for, do you really see me dressed like some douche i have to look awesome."
"And that you are my friend." Grabbing my hand i was soon dragged through the hall of short skirts and tight tops to the photographer. The man was obviously bored out of his mind and so only gave a slight nod when we arrived.
"You know how it works i will count to 3, then your photo will be taken."
"OKAY!"
My feet soon lifted off the ground i was cradled like a baby in Austin's grasp making me laugh and grip onto his shoulders as if my life depended on it. Seeing the bright flash of the camera we soon rushed into a pose which made us fall over.. Minutes later the man returned with a copy of the photo. Handing it over i began to splutter with laughter at it. The picture was taken just before we fell where i was still clutched in Austin's arms, my face grinning like the Cheshire cat while Austin was gazing at me with a smirk on his face.
"I love it!"
"Yeah me too."

Quickly making up my mind before it was too late i rushed down the stairs in urgent need for someone with a car in which Dad and Andy agreed to take me. Bounding out the house we where soon on the road, me barking directions to get to the house. Passing a small lay by in the road just before you turned into Austin and my old neighbour hood i spied his car. "STOP!" Pulling to a halt i left the car heading towards Austin's while Andy and CC went to the near by corner shop in need for milk and what not. Making my way towards the familiar car my heart began to flutter knowing what i was about to admit. Since the car was facing away from me i had to circle it to get to the drivers side when i found that the door was open. Moving closer i came to a stop my heart ripping in shreds by the view in front of me. Pressed to the seat was Austin but what shocked me was who he was with. Knocking on the door not caring about my tear stained eyes the hatred and sadness was fuelling me. Pulling apart Austin sent me a shocked look while Chelsea simply smirked making me burst. Pulling my fist back i slammed it into her jaw which resulted in her to fall of the car, her having a death grip on my hair. Slamming against the car i sent the fake bitch to the floor to which she soon scurried away. Turing to face Austin, my tears making a hot trail down my face i began to shout.
"What the FUCK! YOU TELL ME YOU LIKE ME THEN WHEN I COME TO SAY THE SAME YOU ARE KISSING HER OF ALL PEOPLE! YOU KNOW WHAT SHE HAS DONE TO ME!"
"I promise it's not what it looks like. I do like you and only you"
"Sure! i'm pretty sure you and her here sucking each others faces off in the front seat." By this time Andy and Dad where making there way over. Pulling me into a hug saying sorry repeatedly when i soon pulled away, "GET OFF ME!" i screeched my voice going all hoarse from all my crying in which hot tears where still trailing down my face.
"What's going on here?" Dad questioned as i was pulled into his warm embrace.
"Nothing." i croaked as i tried to pull him and Andy away not wanting them to get involved. As angry as i was with Austin i didn't want him to be shouted at by his idols for breaking there daughters heart. But as everything in my life goes it didn't turn out well as that's when Chelsea decided she wanted more action. Stumbling over in her 6 inch heels she pinned Austin against his car, pulling his t-shirt she began kissing him but he pulled away instantly beginning to shout at her to get the F away. Spinning on her heels she whipped her manicured hand over my face making a mark instantly. As instinct i hit her back which resulted in an uproar by the guys who then began to shout at Austin once they had put the pieces together in their heads of why i was there. It happened so fast. The shouting began as both Andy and Austin argued, Andy obviously protecting my feelings while Aus defended his. Hunched in my Dad's arms crying my eyes out completely baffled by the sensation i looked up when i saw him. Across the street staring holes into me. Luke!

Notes

I feel this chapter was a roller-coaster of emotions .

School has recently started up so my updates may slow but you can defo count on updates on friday's and weekends also weekends if i have time! I love this story way to much and obviously the support it gets to stop updating so i will carry on updating ASAP!

QOTD: How do you honestly feel about this story and what do you want to happen?


Have a good weekend - Em xx