Our pain will shine our light to, those who understand

"Right well..uh i guess i will start with my birth, i was born in October 1998 making me sixteen this year in... somewhere in the US, i'm not exactly sure where though. My biological mum was called Jessica and i believe my biological Dad was called Jim. We lived in a little house outside a small village until i was two when i got a sister."
This sent a gasp around the room as questions about her flew about the room asking why i never told them. Ignoring everyone i continued " We then moved into some town in Alaska but with me being so young i don't remember much from that house but what i do remember that ever since i laid eyes on Danielle, my sister, i just knew i had to protect her in every way possible. Umm.. when i was about 4 or so Jim got into drugs making us have no money and have to move out of this amazing 2 storey house into a dirty shitty 2 room apartment in a completely different town. We began getting into terrible debt which led to me, a freaken 4 year old having to care for a 2 year old while my mum went to work all day and night only returning at like 2 am with some food. I had to cook and clean and do everything for Danielle but i knew nothing different than being alone. It was April 5th 2002 when she never returned, and with my Dad only coming back completely drunk and/or high i didn't know how to defend myself. The next day i found out that committed suicide and left me, a simple four year old to look after a 2 year old, defenceless. It was then when the abuse started. Jim would come home expecting food and a clean house but with no way of getting money or food i had to pay." Taking a deep breathe as the images flashed before my eyes as i remember cowering in the corner my body covering Danielles making me become the target. "Just a month or two before my fifth birthday , i was home alone as usual when someone was at the door. Opening that crooked door was the worst mistake i ever made. A tall man covered in dirt and stains pushed past me demanding money. Money i never had. I can remember his harsh voice shouting at me as i ran behind the broken couch. However this is when my life took a turn for the worst. Out came Danielle dressed up in some of my clothes and of my shoes holding her little rabbit teddy i gave to her when she was just weeks old muttering about wanting to be a princess. The man who i later found out was named Luke grabbed her, pulling out a gun from his jacket. Her scream soon filled the room as he shot her. HE SHOT MY BABY SISTER." Tears now running down my face Dad came to give me hug but i pushed him away. "I ran to Danielle clutching her small body as the light in her moss eyes drained away as if it was water going down a drain. I screamed her name praying for her to come back not caring about her blood that forever stained my clothes. She was so young. So bright. So innocent. And she died, because of me." I fell to the floor as that horrid memory played on repeat in my head, a water fall of tears falling. Feeling myself being picked up by an also sobbing Dad i grabbed handfuls of his t shirt claiming that i was all my fault. Trying to soothe my sobs that took over my body telling me that it was in no way my fault i knew that i had to continue. Getting up i took a sip of monster as i wiped away my smudged make up sending Dad a look showing that i was okay. Taking one look around the room i soon saw that i was not the only one i tears but everyone was, a look of disbelief on their face. "After that i was taken out of the apartment and thrown into a van. I never did return back to that house but was taken up into a wooden shack hidden in the hills. As soon as i set foot in that dreaded shack my appearance changed, he cut my hair and dyed it platinum blonde, i had to wear brown contacts so no one would recognize me despite not able to leave the house. I was tortured and abused in that shack, Luke making me cook, clean and everything in between. If i wasn't doing his dirty work i was thrown literally into a basement getting only two small meals a day, not even able to see the sun. I was stuck there for a whole year until i escaped, it was just before my sixth birthday. I remember every single second from the moment i broke the lock when Luke was out to the miles of running, getting lost in thick forests. I wasn't stupid so when i left i was able to grab about $10 and, a small portion of food and a bottle of water. It was a day before my birthday when Austin found me. I was sitting beside a small lake in god knows where when he approached me. I was then taken back to his parents house to where they managed to get Luke locked up for life and then put me in the adoption centre down the street from their house. I was finally as happy as i had been ever, i had a home and a best friend who cared. That was until i went to school, i had never been to school so for a while i was known as the stupid kid although i soon caught up and got A's. Austin's parents, well changed but that's not my story to tell. Aus and I gave each other happiness because we actually understood each other, i knew everything about him and he knew everything about me and my past. We both accepted one another. Everything was good, not great but good up until middle school when the popularity contests began. Austin being my only friend i was never popular, i was the girl with no parents, the outcast, the girl who listened to the satanic music, the loner. Music was the only thing which gave me strength beside Austin. We managed to help each other whether that being with school, bullies, depression, everything. If i never met Austin i would most likely be dead.If it wasn't for music i wouldn't of managed. Years went past where the bullies continuously got worse, even in the adoption home but i became more positive and confident in myself and stood up to them but even though that did lead me to get a lot of punches at least i stuck up for myself. You guys then adopted me, well CC did but you showed me really happiness in life. Andy you showed me that i should never give in. Jake you taught me that if i put my heart into something i can accomplish anything. Ash you gave me confidence in myself. Jinxx helped me be more trustworthy and Dad well you taught me to rock on, never let anyone put me down." As i spoke to each member of BVB i looked them right in the eye meaning every word. "You guys, everyone in this room and Austin are the reason for my happiness and i couldn't live without you. Veronika i told you i never had a sister but that's because i didn't really, Danielle was taken from me before i could be a true sister. But with you i can now do what i never did." Looking around the room i felt loved tears where stained to everyone's cheeks. "I love you!" i finished. Jumping up from her spot at the door Nicky gave me a big hug telling me that she loved me and that i was the best sister ever. Letting her go i scanned the room as everyone got up having a big group hug.
"I know you don't want sympathy Cassy but if you ever need anything or you know i'm always here"
"Thanks Jinxx"
"i'm here to" everyone else began to chorus. A smile now glowing on my face i felt a weight being lifted off my shoulder knowing that everything that i had bottle up for 10 years was now out in the open with everyone i love. "Wait why where you crying earlier" Andy questioned.
"Um.. well Luke's out of jail somehow and phoned me yesterday. I don't know how he got my number but he has and i'm scared."
"Don't worry Cassy he won't get you over my dead body i will have him back in jail." Dad replied. Feeling relieved Jon was soon contacting the police getting a restraining order and a court case set up. After a few moments Jon was back baring news. "The police are out on the look out for Luke but they promise they will get hime back in the cells without a court case needed." Jon spoke making me let out a relieved breathe i didn't know i was holding. Despite the sad story of my life i just told the happiness radiating around the bus was contagious.

"Wanna watch a film" Jake asked as he began to pour some popcorn into a bowl.
"Sure"
"Can we watch Bat.."
"NO"everyone shouted at Andy as a small pout was now placed on his face. "PJ POWER!" Dad screamed. Running through to my suitcase i pulled out my pajamas then ran to the bathroom volting over Ashley so i could win. Oh yeah your probabaly confused well PJ POWER is a game we all made up where if we are gonna watch a film we must have on our pyjamas so if someone shouts PJ POWER that means we all have to get ready and the first person ready picks the film. It's a stupid game but its what we do. Coming second as Jinxx won as he changed in his bunk he picked the film. Despite being second i got the best spot on the couch but was soon squished between Dad and Jake while Jinxx occupied the single seat and Ash and Andy lay on the floor grumbling about wanting to get on the couch while Veronicka sat on the bean bag. Settling into the leather seat i grabbed some popcorn as the opening credits of nemo began.

Notes

Some of you may be like "what i've already read this chapter" but that's because i'm an idiot and accidentally deleted it. Also that last 2 chapters haven't been getting that much views and no one has commented and to be honest it's kinda sad. I love it when you guys comment even if its's just one or two words as it lets me know how you feel.
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