Feeder.

*Kia’s POV*
It’d been a week since I dislocated my ankle. I’ve been in absolute hell. My ankle is still killing me && I cant really walk more than a few feet. Also, Ella is still here. Which means all of the boys have been feeding more regularly, with the exception of Jake who has taken to feeding from Ella && Ashley who refuses to feed from me.
He’s been in a terrible mood, && has been avoiding me like the plague. Tonight was my first night with him since the argument, because on his night last week Andy ‘punished’ him for his insolence && ‘wasn’t allowing him to feed’. Everyone, even Andy, knows that Ashley doesn’t feed from me, so he was just being a dick.
Ella was nice enough, she’s tried to make small talk && I humored her, for jakes sake, but on the inside, I couldn’t help but hate her. She was choosing this hell. Giving herself over to be fed from && even though she was with Jake, who is incredibly kind, there is a level of abuse && dominance exerted over all feeders. She had all the freedom in the world && could leave anytime she pleased, && yet she stayed. I don’t know if anyone has told her how I got here or how I am being forced to stay or about the abuse Ive endured, but I would hope if she knew she would change her mind, while she still could.
We’re all sitting in the living room watching E.T, waiting for the pizza to arrive. I didn’t really want to be here but considering I have to be carried pretty much exclusively, I didn’t have much a choice. Ella && Jake were cuddled up on the big couch with Jinxx sitting on the other end. CC sat in his typical chair && I sat on the smaller couch situated between Ashley && Andy, like always. Ashley was very obviously un comfortable being this close . Im horrified of aliens && even E.T. manages to give me chills, so instead of watching the movie, Im scrolling though Ifunny on Andy’s phone. He lets me get on this App as he can monitor anything I look at && he has a pin number set up so I cant direct message anyone. I scrolled across a photo, just a beautiful image of a New York sunrise. I stared for a few minutes, feeling home sick && empty. Ella, the oh so great Ella, noticed my sadness && spoke up.
“Kia, are you alright? What’s wrong?” Everyone looked at me. Andy craned his head to look at the phone && upon seeing the picture he rolled his eyes && snatched the phone putting it into his pocket. I looked at Andy irriated, before Ella spoke up again, “Kia?” I turned my head to her && nodded.
“ Im fine” I snapped at her. “Jinxx” I said, my voice kinder while speaking to him.
“Princess?” He nodded at me.
“Can you help me? Im cold && I wanna change”I looked down, pulling at the edges of his sinister shirt he had given me the night before. I would’ve much rather asked Ashley, but he obviously wasn’t eager to carry me anywhere.
“Sure” He said with a smile. He walked across the room to me && scopped my up from the couch, carrying me bridal style into the hall. “Where are the cloths you want?” He asked waiting to be told which room to go into to.
“Ummm” I thought, rubbing my fingers to my sore head “I just want to sleep pants, so I guess it doesn’t matter” I sighed, he nodded && walked to his room. He put me on the bed && pulled out a pair of flannel sleep bottoms.
“What was the picture?” He asked, walking back to me. I shook my head, looking down into my lap.
“A Manhattan sunrise” I sighed , smiling sadly.
“Oh. ” He said, he handed me the pants && I slipped one pant leg over each leg before extending my arms to him, he wrapped his arms around my waist && lifted me up, allowing me to pull the pants up over my bottom without putting pressure on my ankle. “You know, LA sunrises are pretty great too” He tried, as he hugged me.
“Yeah, Im sure” He swung my legs up into his arms && we walked back into the living room, the pizza had already arrived && had been divvied up, my box of cheese sitting in my place.
“ Put me on the floor” I whispered right into his ear “ Please”. He looked at me && nodded, placing me gently on the fake lion skin rug right in front of the couch. He walked to his place && instead of sitting down he grabbed his pizza, then turned && grabbed mine. He sat down on the floor, diagonal from me but turned slightly so he could still see the TV, && smiling he handed me my box. I was pleasantly surprised, && also kinda worried, any deviation from routine seemed to really irritate Andy && I didn’t want Jinxx to have to deal with his shit. I smiled back at him before he turned, taking a slice of pepperoni into his mouth as he resumed the movie.

I laid the box next to me && opening the lid I examined the pie in front of me. I hadn’t been eating much lately, I’ve had EDNOS my whole life && it has been pretty bad during my stay. I tried, however, to at least make it look like I was eating. Andy && CC were very mindful of my health, which I can understand. If I get sick or too weak, they cant feed. The energy transfer would make them sick, not to mention if I’m not healthy enough the bloodletting alone could kill me. I picked at some of the burnt bit on a piece of crust as I watched ET lay sick in an iso tent. Minutes passed && Andy nugged my thigh gently with his foot, He nodded firmly at the pizza && I looked down at it, gulping hard I managed a quiet ‘OK’. I took the smallest slice && took a bite, chewing 50 times before swallowing hard. It took me 30 minutes to eat 1 slice of pizza && the stares grew increasingly uncomfortable with every tick of the clock. They all knew I didn’t eat && they watched every night as I struggled to.
“You’re down to 85 pounds now. Do you have a goal weight?” CC moked me.
“It’s not like that.. I just cant..” I tried to explain. As I struggled for the words to explain myself, anger started to bowl in me. How dare he judge me? After all he’s done to me. How dare any of them? && the look on Ella’s angel face right now. I could kill her, I don’t need her fake sympathy. I looked around the room, looking at all the faces. Jinxx looked away when my eyes met his. CC face was hard && cold, a smirk on his lip, as though he was joking with a friend. Ella looked concerned, sad almost. Jake looked away from me && held Ella’s hand tight. As If I didn’t matter at all to him anymore. Andy looked angry, at me or CC or himself, I don’t know. Sweet Ashley && his brown eyes, he looked like he wanted to cry, but no one else would notice. His bangs covered most of his face as he pretended to be uninterested in the conversation. I watched them all watch me && I lost control. “You know what, CC? Fuck you.” I spat “I don’t have to explain anything to you.What do you care anyway?! You’d be relieved if I starved to death. One less problem for you to deal with. ” He stood up && so did Ashley && Andy. Andy placing a toned yet thin arm in between me && CC. I was too Angry to be scared. “What?! Are you gonna beat me again? Tie me up && throw me down the stairs? Come one, I’ve got more ribs to be broken! Oh && Andy, spare me. “ I said throwing his arm away from my body && turning so I was facing both Andy && CC. “As if you hadnt beat me till I’ve bled.”I spat, venom in my voice. No one moved or said anything. CC was steaming, staring && if looks could kill, I’d be dead. Andy looked off into the kitchen growling in his throat && biting the insides of his cheek. I could see the stress in the room && as I looked at everyone Ella’s shocked face made me laugh out loud.
“ Don’t look so surprised, Cinderella. They aren’t what you think. I’ve been here over half a year against my will. They killed my friend, took me from my home && treated me like dirt. So, I hope you know what your getting yourself into. Playing little miss blood bag over their. “ I rolled my eyes. She started to tear up.
“ That’s enough, Kia” Jake said. His voice stern but steady, like my fathers used to be.
“No, it’s not, Jake.” I mocked. “Tell her, Tell your sweet little girl friend how you wiped my blood up off the floor && left my friend dead behind the bar counter.” I hissed “ Tell her how you did nothing as I rotted in the basement with broken ribs! Tell her how you listened to me scream && didn’t lift a finger!” I screamed.
“Dont act so innocent in this!” Ella pipped up suddenly. “Jake told me how they found you! Sauntering like a slut into some bar! I see you walk around wearing nothing && let them all carry you around && I watch you smile && flirt” She said. That was it. I stood, ignoring my pain && began walking to her, stopping when I felt two strong hands pull me back, one belonging to Ashley && the other to Andy, I was inches from Ella’s face. Jake stood strong, putting himself between the two of us.
“You don’t know anything.” I hissed, the words ripping my throat on the way out. A tear finally escaping my eye lids “But you will. You’ll see. I mean, they can’t let you leave now. You know their dirty little secret. “ I smirked. Panic rose in her face, && she looked from Jake to me to Andy && then around the room. I had said what all of the boys were thinking.
“Hush Kia” Andy spoke thru gritted teeth.
“No, You know it’s true. You wont let her go. Tell her! Tell her what you told me. That she’s just a buffet on legs, a meal with a pretty face” I quoted the words he spoke when he’d finally explained to me what purpose I served them. He’d said it all with a smirk.
“KIA” He yelled yanking my arm back so I turned to face him. The sudden pain woke me from my angry haze && I realized all I had said && done. I looked at his face && then to CC, who stared back intently. Ashley still had my arm, but looked at the ground. Ella’s face was a miss of shock, fear && confusion. I replayed the last few minutes in my head && realized how far I’d pushed them. I felt an over whelming sense of guilt. Perhaps in his own way, CC had been genuinely concerned && Ella despite her harsh words didn’t deserve what I’d just dished out. I gently slipped my arm from Ashley’s grip. && walked to Andy, I wrapped my free arm tightly around his side && with my head dug into his chest I started to sob out an apology.
"Im sorry Andy..” Tears stained his shirt. “ I just got upset.. I shouldn’t have said any of those things” I tried to steady my breathing && as Andy’s fingers tangled into my hair && his other hand rubbed small circles into my back I allowed him to fully embrace me, for the first time ever, He kissed my head && mumbled in my ear. I only caught the last word ‘CC’ && I knew he wanted me to apologize. I slipped out of Andy’s arms && walked to CC, I was panicking inside, I was afraid he’d beat me when I got within his reached, but as I leaned in to his broad tall chest, He allowed me to embrace him && even with his teath clenched, he closed his long arms around my waist. He hug was short && He released me. I leaned up && kissed his cheek && as I did I heard Andy tell Ashley to take me to bed.
He took a few steps toward me && scooped me into his arms. The pressure being relieved from my ankle caused instant numbness in my foot. He carried me past Ella && Jake. Ella’s eyes leaking tears as Jake rubbed her arm lightly, whispering something in her ear. We left the living room, && walked down the short hall. We reached his door && I heard Ella crying. She was yelling, demanding she be taken home. Pain shot thru me as I fully realized what I had just done. I, I hadn’t just offended her or Andy. I hadn’t just angered CC. I’ve just trapped her here

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