Belive You Me

Ashley’s POV

Oh how the time flies. The last two years have gone fast. It seems like just yesterday I woke up from my coma but it’s been two years. Currently, we are recording and editing Black Veil Bride’s fourth studio album. It’s been a lot of fun and I’m excited for the fans to hear it. We used the songs I wrote two years ago.

Personally, the last two years have been full of ups and downs. I have a small scar from where the stage thing fell on me, and the scars from the cutting remain. The ups have been nothing but great. The band has won several awards, we did warped tour (’13) and I’ve started my own clothing line and have been very successful.

The downs have been terrible. Kina and I’s relationship is on the rocks once again. She is constantly doing something I don’t approve of anymore. The girl I once knew is barely there anymore. She’s had a lot of plastic surgery and dyed her hair bleach blonde. She is someone I don’t recognize anymore. I thought I loved her but I’m questioning it now. Sighing to myself, I started playing a random song on the acoustic guitar that was on my lap.

CC walked out of the recording booth and sat down next to me on a barstool. “Boulevard of broken Dreams?” he asked. “Yeah it just feels like one of those days.” I answered. He looked me in the eye and said, “ I know things between us in the last two years have been strange but I still care about you Ash. Maybe deciding to forget what happened wasn’t a good idea because no matter how much we run from it, its not going away.”

“I know C, but its not as simple as it was there.” I said looking at the ground.

He sighed, “people are more understanding now than they were then. Gay marriage has been legalized. Times have changed and so have we. You know you’re not happy with Kina. You’ve said it a thousand times. I loved Lauren, I really did but she ended our relationship. She knew that something went down between us at some point or another. I started to fall out of love with her and she fell out of love with me. I love her like a sister.”

“I’m sorry she ended things with you. I really am. You two were cute together.” I said softly.

“We may have been cute but we argued more and more towards the end. She wasn’t happy,” he said remorsefully.

“What are you trying to say CC?” I asked.

“We dated then, I liked what we had. If you’re willing, I want that again.” he said shyly.

I was stunned. He wanted us to be together again. “I was a girl in that reality CC. If you haven’t realized, I am a man in this one.”

“And that doesn’t change a thing about how I feel.” He said interrupting me.
“How can you like me? Kina doesn’t like me. She complains that I look too female, that I’m a freak.”

“If you’re a freak, I’m freakier for liking a freak.” He said.

I shook my head. I was stunned. “ I need some air. I’m going for a walk. Tell the guys I went on a coffee run. Text me if they want anything.” I said as I after putting my guitar in the case and gabbing my keys, wallet and phone.

Walking out, I ran a hand through my hair. I looked at the traffic and decided to walk to star bucks, I needed the air anyways even if it was smog filled. The walk to star bucks didn’t clear my mind like I hoped it would, instead it jumbled my thoughts more. Going in, I ordered a Teavanna Chai tea and sat down while I waited. Going through twitter I read what people said about me.

People called me a manwhore, a slut, a freak of nature, and my new personal favorite: dickless faggot. That’s the other reason I’m afraid to be with CC, I don’t think I could handle the hate from that as well. I act like what people say doesn’t matter to me but it does. Andy is so strong and I’m weak compared to him.

I’m a coward, I’m a pathetic waste of space who cant do anything right. My phone notification went off saying I had a new text from Andy.

ANDY

WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK? IT’S BEEN ALMOST TWO HOURS ASH. CAN U AT LEAST BRING ME A COFFEE PLEASE? J


Sighing, I asked what he wanted. When he put in his order along with everyone else’s, I told him to transfer 20 dollars to my bank account. I’m not letting him not pay me back for the coffee runs. Once I knew it was there, I got their orders and returned to the studio. Not even moments after I got there, Jinxx told me he wanted to talk to me about a bass part and shuffled me off to a side room to talk.

Notes

new story. lol its actually a sequel to : bed room walls are my only friends. this is a CC/ Ash pairing. and dont read if you dont like boy/ boy. no homophobic people wanted here. so if you have nothing nice to say, please leave. i'll hold the door for you but everyone else is here for the ride ^.^

love you darlings! sleep well, keep running, sing it for the boys, sing it for the girls, set the world on fire.

~Ash

* and hey congrats to BVB for winning best fan base award at the apmas