She hates love..... He loves hate

After I calmed down I looked up to see jinxx staring down at me with a sweet smile

"Scarlet, that's everyday this week I've seen you throw up in the morning... Do you think this could be......…" He asked as immediate fear filled my thoughts.

"No no no.. For me to have morning sickness I would have to be.." I couldn't even say the words. There's no way I could be....Is there?

Then I started to think.. maybe that's why the voice in my head was becoming more commanding, maybe that's why I felt so obliged to listen to it. And maybe that's why I was constantly puking all the time yet wanting to devour everything.

If it was... If I was... Who's is it...
Darren's?....or Andy's?

Immediate disgust filled my mind and body, I was so disgusted with myself I wanted to throw up again...... I never thought I would have to think about which would be the father of my baby

If I was pregnant and the baby was Andy's.... I would loose someone I love! Darren!

and Andy's...well…..I love him to death (both ways speaking, friend and lover) but he's Andy! He can't care for a baby! He's gonna be on tour, at the studio, he's never gonna be here! And he's not ready! While Darren is, a mature adult... He could handle the baby.

At this point I wanted to stab myself a million times.....

I can't believe I did that with Andy...even if I kinda knew what I was doing.. I loved Darren....but I also loved Andy!

Fuck!

If its Darren's... Then I drank while I was pregnant! But if it's Andy's, I didn't. Oh fuck it I don't care!! It has to be Darren's!!!!!

I looked up to see jinxx wide eyed and a dropped jaw.

Oh damn... I spoke aloud.... not again.

I really need to stop thinking about things in front of people.

Notes

Omhergawd... What do you think? Will there be a little scandy? Or a little darrlet?