She hates love..... He loves hate

He pressed his lips to mine and I could have bet on my life there was a spark in my mind.

Then it all came back.... He was my best friend. He was my first kiss. He was my first love. He was the one who saved me from suicide.... But yet again. He was the one who bullied me. He was the reason I tried to end my life in the first place. It was all him. It was all Andy.

I pulled away as the memories filled my mind. Tears were now streaming down my face. And I could only barely see them on Andy's. I dried my eyes and Andy did the same. We both just sat there staring into each others eyes

"Scarlet.... I'm so sorry" he said as he took my hands in his

"Can we please start over?" He begged and I could barely speak

"Y-yea..." I said shaking

"Thank you so much!" He leaned in and hugged me tightly, I flinched and moved back, now that I had all the memory, I felt weird to his touch.

I looked at him and saw sadness in his eyes, so I looked back down at the floor.

"Scarlet...look at me" he said as he cuffed my chin and brought my eyes to his.

"I will never hurt you ever again.... I promise" he said and pulled me into a hug.

Was he speaking the truth? What if he's just going to hurt me again?

"(Sigh) scarlet, if I ever hurt you ever again, I want you to kill me.... Because I couldn't live knowing I hurt you a second time" he said and gazed at me with saddend eyes

Fuck I really need to stop thinking out loud!

He chuckled. And looked at me with a smile

"I said that out loud too.... Didn't I?" I asked and he just nodded.

"Andy I forgive you, and I'm hoping we can be friends again" I said and the smile he had when I accepted his apology quickly faded when I said the word friends

"Defiantly..friends" he said with a fake and painful smile

"So why were you eves dropping on me?" I asked returning to the subject as to how this whole mess started

"Well I was going to ask you if you wanted to come see a movie with me and the guys?" He asked and I quickly nodded He smiled widely and we both got up and walked towards the door, but Andy stopped me

"And scarlet... We all care about and love you." He said and I smiled and got a weird feeling in my chest.

Is this what it feels like to be wanted by more then one person?

We walked into the living area, and all the guys came and pulled me into a huge hug

"Scarlet we do love and care about you a lot" jinxx said and they all mumbled in agreement

"Were you guys eves dropping on us?!?" Andy and I asked slightly angered

"Yes and no..yes, because we were, and no because.... I got nothing.. We heard everything.." Ashely said and I felt myself blush a bright crimson red

Well this is embarrassing, Damn! If this is what it feels like to have people who care about you I wonder how it feels to have a family..

"Why are you embarrassed? Scarlet we all love you, and we will always be here for you, even after this tour is over, we are your family" jinxx said and I blushed even brighter I really need to stop thinking out loud!

"Ugh! I hate all this mushy stuff! I love you guys too, but can we get to the movie now?!?!" I asked and they all chuckled

"There's the scarlet we know and love" CC said and pulled me into a hug from behind.


Wow.... I have a boyfriend... Friends...and now a family? I guess life isn't always a bitch... Or something really bad is going to happen and life is just giving me something to take away....

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