Recollection

Ashley and I spent the night together. We didn't sleep, nor did sex enter the picture.
We laid in each other's embrace in his tiny bunk, softly talking.

We kept apologizing to each other every chance we got. The scratches on his belly were a reminder. We cleaned them out and I kept running my fingers softly over them, trying to keep the sobs at bay.

I never in my right mind imagined doing something so horrid to someone I cared about and loved. Ash was in total agreement.

"Will you say it again please?" he asked.

"What?"

"What you said earlier?" he searched my face. "Did you mean it?"

I locked eyes with him.

"I know I've never said it before now. I always kept it hidden, so afraid of what would happen if I did."

"Babe.."

I placed one finger up to his lips to silence him.

"I love you!"

I moved further into his embrace and I laid my head down atop his chest. We laid there in silence for a few minutes before Ash spoke again.

"I love you and Punk more than anything. I'm sorry I was such a dick this past week. I know there was no excuse for my actions, but believe me Aut, I am sorry!"

"I know you are and I'm sorry for being a bitch."

By this time, Punk awoke. We left his bunk and went to tend to our son.

Despite his disapproval, I still told Ash I was leaving and it was for the best. I'd see him in a little over two weeks once the tour ended and he'd fly back home.

He was down emotionally as we all headed to the airport. He held onto my hand and cradled Punk with a death grip as we pulled into the short term parking in front of terminal two.

It was time!

We all disembarked from the bus. Once CC collected our bags, we attempted to make our way into the terminal.

We never made it!

It all happened so damn fast!

All I can remember is holding onto Ashley's left hand and having Jinxx directly behind me.
Ashley was holding Punk up in his arms for him to view the world around him and we were smiling at the wonder on our little boy's face. I barely remember being forcefully pushed by both Ash and Jinxx and the screeches of tires. But I can surely remember the sights of Ashley, Jinxx and my little boy all strewn about the roadway.

There was blood everywhere. I can barely recall if I was screaming or not, but I remember trying to crawl to them but a strong grip held onto my body. Tears were ever present!

People flew in like crows. I tried moving my head to see, but my view was blocked. Questions were rapidly fired at me, but I ignored them. I needed to get to them!

"Ashley! Hunter! Jinxx!" I cried.

I tried and tried to crawl to them. Soon enough I felt a tight grip on my arms and something cold flush over me and all I saw was darkness.

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