They Don't Need To Understand

Sherri's POV

I was trying to finish planning a wedding to a man that obviously doesnt trust me. How am I meant to put all of myself into this when he doesnt trust me? I didnt and would never cheat on him! I actually started to properly fall for him. Maybe this whole 'lets fake a relationship to save you from looking like a liar/stop a stalker' thing was a bad idea and even worse to decide to try start up a relationship with that going on.

Wedding planning on hold while Ella and I went to another photoshoot on the day Andy and Lilly were due to come home. I havent spoken to Andy since the phone call because I just need thinking time. Am I meant to react like that if I hear about him seeing one of his ex's? Anyways so Ella and I have a new photoshoot to go to, I drove me and Ella there with the radio playing. As we drove the band I least wanted to hear came on the radio. Black Veil Brides - In The End.
"Sherri, are you okay? I heard you crying last night..." Ella said breaking the silence between us and the song.
"Im fine. He obviously doesnt believe that I wouldnt cheat on him, but whatever. I jst dont know what to do. If he doesnt trust me then why are we getting married you know? Everytime the press writes something about one of us, is the other meant to freak out like that?"I asked with a single tear running down my face
"No but remember Andy does get very jealous. And what they wrote really didnt help matters...Its not like he tried to hit on you was it?" Ella asked and I shook my head.
"Alex is a old friend. That's all... There was time where we were more but not anymore," I explained, "I just want Andy to know that I want to be with him. Not Alex! Its stupid. Ella what am I going to do?"
"Well we'll get this shoot out of the way. Go shopping and then we will go back to the house and hope they arent back yet," Ella laughed, "oh wait they come home at 9am....I'll tell Jake to take everyone to ours,"
"Thank you Ella," I smiled, "You're such a good sissy in law,"
"Oh I know," Ella laughed. So we did just that. Shoot, Shopping, Back to my house.

"That shoot actually was really nice. I love how they did my hair and makeup," I smiled and me and Ella brought the shopping bags in.
"Same but you look like one hot mama!" Ella laughed and pushed me through the door.
"You creepy little woman!" I laughed and walked into the kitchen to see the band, Lilly and Andy stood there waiting for us.
"Mommy! Auny Ellwa!" Lilly shouted and ran into me
"Hey baby! Oh my god I missed you so much," I said and kissed her forehead.
"Mommy, Daddy got me stuff!" Lilly laughed
"Oh did he? Why dont you, Aunty Ella and Aunty Sammi, Uncle Jinxxy, Uncle Jakey, CC and Ashy go get them?" I said and they all got the hint.
"i'll race you!" CC said and started to run to get them
"no way! We'll beat him come on Lils," Ashley said and picked her up running off with her.

Once the room cleared out, it was just me and Andy. He stared at me for a minute. But I couldnt look at him. As the silence thickened i got the balls to say something.
"I dont even know what to say to you anymore..." I said quietly
"Babe, im sorry," Andy said and walked towards me trying to hold me
"Dont touch me. Why would I do that to you? You knew how I fucking felt about you!" I began to raise my voice.
"Felt? What dont you anymore?!" Andy started to shout
"I dont know anymore," I crumbled and sat on the floor with my head in my knees and crying," You thought I would cheat on you. Thats the last thing I would do and you know it. Why would I do that to the person I love?"
"It wasnt you I was worried about. It was him, I know guys like that and he would have wanted you. If it was the other way round I know I would have..." Andy started, "I dont even know why I thought that. I had so many people questioning me and I had just came off stage. Our little girl was there asleep and all I could think was how her mommy didnt want me, I wasnt enough anymore. I had enough of feeling like that. I went through the how relationship with juliet and she was cheating the whole time! What was I meant to think?"
"You should have listened to what I had to say first. I thought you knew that?"
"I do. Look Im sorry. I thought the worst. I was stressed, I thought that I dont know what I thought," Andy admitted, "I was a idiot I know you would never do that to me,"
"Its fine," I muttered as he sat beside me I still hid my face.
"Babe? Sher? Sherri, look at me!" Andy started to raise his voice again.
"What?" I asked and looked at him
"Stop crying... " Andy said and wiped the tears off of my face.
"sorry. To be honest I have been questioning all day whether we should still get married," I said, "But i guess moments like this between us is why. We cant stay mad at each other. I hate you at times but doesnt mean that doesnt make me love you more. If you realise Im actually upset you try to make it better,"
"You want to call off the wedding?" Andy asked looking at me with clear pain in his face and then the door opened.
"We are going over to CC's urm come over when urm you want to," Ella said not letting Jake in the room, "I'll bring Lilly home later if you two dont show up. Sherri call me if you need me okay?" After I nodded Ella shut the door and everyone left.

Andy went for a smoke and I went upstairs to sort my face out. Removing smudged makeup and replacing it as best as I could. I got changed from the pre-shoot outfit of leggins and a wooly jumper. But as if on que Andy showed up as I was half dressed.
"You look different," Andy said walking in and siting on the bed like usual.
"Really? I havent changed much..." I answered and walked over to find a top to cover the black laced bra I had on and to go with my super tight grey skinny jeans.
"You just are...When did you get a tattoo?" Andy asked examining me
"The day before everything fucked up. I was gunna show you when you got back," I said and walked in with a black sort of see through blouse in my hand
"It's pretty..." He said as he stared at the anchor with a shell, rose, star and two tiny bird either side of the anchor covering in patterns.
"thankyou. Andy I dont want to fight anymore. Promsie that you will believe me next time?" I said about to put the shirt over my shoulders.
"I promise," Andy said, wrapping his arms around my bare waist and pulling me into him.

Andy leaned down to my lips stopping a inch before his lips toughed mine,
"I missed you so much. All I could think of was the moment that I got back to you so that I could kiss you, hold you, I just wanted to be back with you. Sherri I love you," Andy whispered
"I love you too..." I whispered back and melted into him. As our lips touched I felt the spark I never realised had been there before. Suddenly I could stop myself going back for more. Kiss after kiss, my body tingled. Move after move, my body craved more. We ended up on the bed and as he layed me on the pillows and started to kiss me, I had to stop. Ella might bring Lilly back any minute. They were waiting for us. As much as I wanted this...Needed this, I cut the make out session with Andy short.
"Babe, we should stop..." I said letting my lips escape his and instatly regretting it.
"Sorry...I thought that this is what we both wanted," Andy said
"No no no I do. Just not today. I was so mad and I havent seen Lilly and," I said and noticed his face full of guilt,"Andy, I promise you that we will finish this off later," I winked and bit my lip
"I'll hold you to that," Andy laughed and kissed me one more time, "Come on beautiful. Lets go see everyone,"
"I still need to get dressed, where did you throw my shirt?" I laughed as he still leaned over me
"Urm....its over there but I think you should wear that in the bag over there?" Andy smiled "What why? What's in the bag?" I asked and Andy got up and brought it over. When I saw it all I could do was smile
"Your leather jacket?" I laughed
"Look on the back!" Andy demanded. Oh my god! The moment I turned it over, I nearly died. It was signed by Steve Tyler from Aerosmith!
"Oh my god! Andy!" I smield and hugged him tightly, "I didnt even mention them to you!"
"But your dad did. So I asked him to sign it for you and he was happy to do so," Andy smiled. "You're great," I smiled and then got dressed and put the jacket on. Maybe Andy knew me better than I thought.

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