They Don't Need To Understand

Andy's POV

After the show Sherri pulled me aside. Something was wrong I knew it. I could tell from the look in her eyes...It was like she was scared. What could she be scared about?
"Andy look I need to tell you something. Its hard to say this because I dont want to fuck what we have up," Sherri started as we stood in the empty corridor a bit further down from the dressing room.
"Just tell me babe," I smiled and hugged her, trying to take the uneasiness away.
"First you really stink of stage sweat," Sherri giggle. It was such a nervous giggle, now I know something is up.
"I know im sorry I should have showered before this," I smiled
"Okay im just gunna say it, I love you. This isnt fake for me anymore. I actually want to be with you. And I know that uts weird to get married and then start dating but I really really have fallen for you over the past few months and I really really genuinly love you Andrew," Sherri admitted and refused to look at me in the eye. I cant believe this is happening...
"Im glad you said that...because I feel the same," I couldnt help but stand there and smile. She likes me back. I feel like I was a teenager again!
"W-what?" Sherri asked finally looking me in the eye. I paused for a moment, hearing footstep approaching so I have to watch what I say. But wow. I cant get over this feeling. I felt like I was on top of the world. Nothing could top how I feel right now.
"I have fallen in love with you. Why do you think I wanted to do this? I love you so god damn much and I want to make you and Lilly happy. I want to be your family. And I want to be Lilly's dad. Babe I am head over heels for you! I love you so much," I admitted and then held Sherri. As the footsteps got closer tears started to fall again my bare tattoo covered/warpaint splattered chest, "Dont cry baby please dont cry," I tried to comfort her by holding her tighter to me.
"Well I am gunna miss you you jerk face!"Sherri cried and lightly hit my chest.
"I am gunna miss you so much you dont even understand. But listen, me and Lilly will be home soon and then we can do this whole mommy and daddy thing right," Andy said and lent in and kissed my almost wifey. Thats when the footsteps stopped. As I was about to rip my lips away from Sherri's I heard the click of a camera and I realise it was just the tour photographer. Since he had his earphones in, I felt a bit more assured that our secret was safe. God bless the person who invented earphones and loud music.

Sherri and I ended up talking for longer than I expected. If this conversation was anything to go by, she had been having these feelings for a while.
"You better call me all the time you arent on that stage, even when you are...Im sure the fans wont mind, you can tell them I say hi and stuff," Sher said trying to make it better and less painful for herself
"I dont think the tour manger would be too happy with that so maybe not," I had to laugh some of the things she comes out with will always amuse me, "I cant wait to marry you," "Well the sooner you get home the sooner we can. I love you Andy," She smiled. Man she was perfect. How did I ever used to hate her?
"I love you more," I said and couldnt help myself from stealing another kiss
"Get a room!" Jinxx laughed as Sammi and hinmself walked by
"We have one! Get out of it!" I said refusing to moving his lips from my girls
"No thats a hallway, go get a room!" Sammi laughed "
No Im good here," Sherri said with a giggle mixed in as she pulled away.

It was getting late and Sherri had to go with Ella and catch a flight back to America tonight. "Do you have to go?" I asked with my little Blossom starting to drift off in my arms
"Yeah, I really really dont want to though," Sherri looked at the ground and grabbed her bags that she brought to the bus with all of Blossom's stuff and also Ella's twenty suitcases. "How about you just stay with me and you're a photographer kinda you can take them her and email them?" I was starting to sound like her now!
"I can't I want to keep this job a little while longer," Sherri smiled, "Right I gotta go, the cab is outside,"
"Ella cabs out front," I said and Blossom began to move around at the sound of my voice, "Lilly, say bye to mommy,"
"Bbye mommy...wuv wu lot," Lilly mangaged to mumble out
"Bye baby, look after Daddy for me," Sherri said and kissed her forehead, "I love you so much Lilly,"
"I'll look after her I promise," I said and hugged my fiance with one arm since our little lump was in my other arm, "I love you, call me the second you are off the plane,"
"I love you too and I will I promise. Andrew look after her okay? She's my little girl and I want her home with me already," Sherri said
"Sounds like Andy's loved," Ash winked
"shut up stupid, he is really but if Lilly doesnt come back in one piece, all of you guys are getting it cut off!" Sherri said. We know it was a joke but for a short woman she is so scary sometimes.
"She'll be fine Sher, I promise," Jinxx smiled and kissed her cheek goodbye.
"Okay, I feel a bit better now. I love you lot. See you soon. Andy I love you so much!" Sherri said and kissed me goodbye. I can tell, I am going to miss those kisses for a while.
"I love you too now go or you'll miss your flight!" I said and CC and Ashley and Jake took their cases to the cab. And then they were gone.

In the morning Lilly woke up and started to call me. Since I was on a bottom bunk, I gave my daughter that bunk and I slept on the sofa not far down form the bunk area.
"Come here, shh, everyone is sleeping," I said and helped Lilly walk over to the kitchen. "Where mommy?" Lilly asked rubbing her eyes, her dark wavy hair starting to stick out in all directions
"Mommy is going home for a little while so you and daddy can have some fun together while mommy goes to work and spends some time with Aunty Ella," I expained
"When she back?" Lilly tilted her little head and crawled onto my lap, cuddling Mr Stuffy.
"We are gunna go home and see mommy," I said and kissed her forehead
"Soon?" Lilly asked
"Very very soon, I promise," I smiled at Lilly and she started to giggle
"Daddy, hungryyy," Blossom moaned so I carried her to the food bit we had. I made sure that when Lilly came to stay with us I got some toaster pancakes and some strawberries. As I made her breakfast, she (and Mr Stuffy) were sat watching me and when it was ready we went to the back room and started to watch one of the many disney movies that Sherri had packed her with. This one was the new one with ice and singing and a snowman. Blossom was really into this film when CC entred the room and started to sing along to the movie. All me and my daughter could do was laugh.

The day went on and we had travelled during the night so I got Lilly dressed in her mini BVB top and some jeans, thick socks, a wooly jumper, her black and white coat (that was furry inside), gloves and little ugg boot things. Sammi said it looked fine so I guess it was alright. After I brushed her soft hair, helped her clean her teeth and got ready myself, we went out to explore the new part of the country we were in. England was so different to the states. I was so cold out here! Lilly's little nose was starting to go red, so I picked her up and carried her into a coffee shop to get warm. Lilly and I had a juice and I needed to smoke so bad but with this littlen about, that was a big no way. As Lilly and i skyped mommy, a few fans started to notice us. So many wanted to get a picture of me and lilly so I was cool with that for a while then it was time to leave. I found a disney store place that Blossom was instantly inlove with. By the end of it, I ended up buying her most of the store! This place was pretty great. As we went back to the bus, Lilly was in my arms...yet again.

"Daddy?" she asked
"Yeah Blossom," I said back and kissed her cheek
"Why you far away for long?" Lilly tilted her head. Like always when she was confused her little face begins to scrunch up together
"Because Daddy sometimes is gunna have to go away," I said to her, "Remember how daddy sings to you at nunight time?"
"Yeah..I like daddy songs," Lilly laughed and her big blue eyes smiled at me
"Welll daddy has to go and sing songs with Uncle Jakey, Uncle Jinxxy, uncle Ashy and Uncle CC. So sometimes that means I have to go away from you and mommy for a little while. But I always come back as soon as I can,"
"Can you stay? Jinksy, Ashwee, Jakey and CC go?" who knew explaining tour to a two year old could be so difficult
"No...I have to sing and Jinxxy plays and guitar with Uncle Jakey. And CC plays on the drums and Ashley plays a different type of guitar to Jinxxy and Jakey," I replied
"oh...me sing too?" Lilly gasped with a huge smile on my face
"Do you want to? You want to join Daddy's band?" I laughed. With a enhausiastic nod, I stopped to take a picture with my little girl. Both with big smiles I captioned the picture: Daddy's girl, and the BVB's second singer!
I got floods and floods of comments saying about how cute Lilly was and then I got notication from Sherri. She had reposted the picture and captioned it:
Missing my two rock star already! Hurry home! x
"Blossom, should we go show the boys the new toys and clothes we brought today?" Lilly was now holding my hand and walking down the road with me.

Skipping along we ended up back at the bus to be rushed out to sound check. Her bag was full to the brim with snacks, drinks, a change of clothes, wet wipes, toys, her pj's and blanket. Lilly was happily dancing along to the music while her and Sammi sat on the floor and watched us singing on stage. Of course I toned down my language a lot when she was with us and watching the show but I made sure that I continued to be the Andy Biersack I was on stage than the Andy Biersack I am now as a father. All I cared about was the fans had a great time, Lilly was safe and enjoying herself and the band and I were happy with how the show went. My little Lilly loved every second. She is such a Daddy's girl.

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