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From Shapeless To Breakable **COMPLETED**

Chapter 39: Heart Shaped Paper

Rebekah's P.O.V
“What do you mean? You know, sometimes I wish I could be in you head to know how it works inside...” I chuckled,
“No, I don't think you would like it.” I sighed, no he would definitely dislike it, I knew it, because I personally hated to be in my head!
“Please, tell me more about Cindy?” I asked, I couldn't help but feel curious about her, who was she? What happened to her? Why was she 'like me'? I heard Mr. Campbell sighing softly.

“Cindy had always been an happy child, but around fourteen she started to change. She got farther and farther from us, refusing to tell us how she thought. We ended up by calling a therapist, he said she was suffering from severe depression. She was always crying, or yelling at her mother and I. The only moment she seemed happy was when she played guitar, just like you.” I saw tears forming in his eyes and he played with a photo frame.
“If only I could have saved her...” he sighed again.
“But I failed her. About three years ago she killed herself. She didn't say a word, she just did it, leaving us behind, destroyed. I knew she wasn't okay, but I didn't know how to help, she didn't want my help anyway...”


I looked at him, he seemed so melancholic talking about his daughter. I wondered if anyone felt like this about me... But still I didn't see why I was 'like her', I wasn't depressed, nor always crying! Silent maybe...
“And I decided to give myself another chance. By saving you Rebekah. It's not because I don't ask that I don't see.” he took my hand in his.
“One day you will be okay Rebie, no matters what happened to you. It will get better, I'm not saying that just to say it. I believe in you, you're good deep inside. Even if you broke my walls. And if you ever need to talk to someone, then I'll be there. Ever.” I felt tears building in my eyes, I really liked this old man. He seemed to understand where others couldn't, and that was normal as he knew the pain of death!


I opened my mouth to reply but at this moment the bell rang. He released my hand and wished me a good day. I quickly put the guitar back in its bag and walked to my locker. I took my things for the next period still thinking about Mr Campbell's words. He wanted to 'save me', but was it still possible? The violence deep in me was so...
I closed my locker to meet a tall girl. She was in the popular group of girls, so I guess in the 'bitch of the school'?
At least she wasn't painted as a stolen car... She was a bitch without make up? Weird! In anyway she was tall, making me feel how short I was! I used to feel short with Andy or Ethan or with any men... But with a female my 1m63 (5 feet 4 approx) felt like a bug!


I looked at her, she was cute, but it didn't tell me why she was there in front of me!
“Are you with him?” she asked suddenly biting her lips. I gave her a puzzled look, who was she talking about? Andy? I didn't know myself what we were! But if she wanted him I would be really mad! Because she was cuter than me... And I bet: less complicated!
“Ethan.. Are you his girlfriend?” Ooh! She was talking about Ethan! She must has been in his crowd.. Or, maybe she was the girl I noticed a few times looking discretely at him..
“I know he had a crush on his friend, but I see you two together a lot. But if you don't want to tell me I can understand. I know you decide when you want to talk and don't talk easily to strangers. And..”


“We aren't together.” I replied blankly, she wasn't talking about Andy and he was the only guy I actually cared about seriously! She looked at me so hopefully it was even cute!
“Re.. Really? Oh my God thanks!” I bent my head to the side, she loved him? I thought she would be the kind of girl to take a guy she would want no matters if he had a girlfriend!
“Never! If they are happy together than I would never even tell him how I feel!” oops I said that out loud! I looked at her, she seemed sincere.
“That's good to know. You would be cute enough for any guy to forget their girls.” with that I just walked away... I had art class!


Ethan's P.O.V
I noticed Rebekah has been daydreaming and drawing more than usual, she seemed to be thinking more today. And it was to tell, because this girl seemed to always being thinking about God know what! I didn't know what she was drawing, she was always so secret! And of course sometimes she just disappeared, I think one day I will just go and ask her! Because I was deadly curious about it!


After art class I walked to my locker and opened it. I automatically put my sketchbook in to take the one for the next period when I saw something falling from it. It was a heart shaped piece of paper, I took it in my hand, there was nothing written on it... Certainly a mistake! I put the paper in my pocket and walked to my next period.
Arrived to my usual place I noticed another heart shaped paper, this one had a scotch tape fixing it to my table! One mistake okay but two? I was the only one siting at this place, behind me was Rebekah and before two other girls... I don't think a guy would send pink hearts!


Time skip to the next day, still Ethan's P.O.V
I walked to school, still wondering who was sending the pink hearts, I received seven yesterday! I softly touched my jaw, yesterday my dad was hardly drunk too...
I Sighed as I walked in, as usual I got some girls around me. It was weird for me, and to be honest I didn't really like it.. But it wasn't as bad as being bullied! Or beaten by my father when he was drunk.. So I smiled at them as they were talking about... Wait, what were they talking about? I tried to listen to them, they wanted me to make an Instagram account? Well I would think about it later, for now I only wanted to know who was my secret admirer.
Yes, I knew it could sound stupid, I had plenty of cute girls around me and I was thinking about one I didn't even know what she looked like... She could be ugly! But I didn't know why, I didn't care. I liked this kind of attention!


This girl took time to make heart in a pink paper, then achieved to put them on places I and only I would see them. All of that without me knowing who she was. Plus she wasn't in the 'crowd' around me, as I find some paper when they were around. She was a discrete person, whoever she was!
They finally left me when I told them I would do the Instagram thing and I arrived alone to my locker to find another heart, I took it and smiled. She really took her time to make these? For me? I just couldn't help but smile!
I took my things then wrote on the little paper, 'Who?', hoping she wouldn't stop I added ':)' on the heart. Then I took some scotch tape and fixed it on my locker's door.


I was purely and simply daydreaming during my first period, I didn't even know in what class we were, just to tell you...
Suddenly I received a mini paper airplane, I looked at my right there was only Rebekah. She seemed innocent, very innocent... Too innocent! It must have been her! I shook my head, then opened the sheet.
'What are you thinking about?' I smiled, then looking at her she gave me an angelic smile... Too angelic for Rebekah Ferguson!
'Nothing in particular why?' I wrote down then gave it to her, she chuckled and wrote.
'So I guess you spent half an hour daydreaming about 'nothing in particular'? Then what class are we in?' when I read this I felt my cheeks burning and in the same time she was trying her best not to laugh out loud and it didn't help!


'Ok ok. I don't know. I'll tell you when this period is over Okay?' she read it then nodded, putting the sheet in her bag. I finally understood that we were in science class and that I should certainly listen if I didn't want to fail my exams!
When it was over I quickly took my things and walked to my locker. I opened it as fast as I could to find my little heart, there was a message on it.
'I'm scared of your reaction if you see who I am', my reaction? Why? How could I react? Did I know her?
“I guess the period is over now..?” I turned around to see Rebekah, her back against the wall and suddenly I didn't know how to tell her...

Notes

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Comments

@I am your Shadow..
when the cutting happened

punk dancer punk dancer
12/3/14

@punk dancer
Urm.. Where are you in the story? I'm kinda lost with this comment o.O

you don't have to apologise for a part of life...it's gruesome, yes, but life isn't all rainbows and butterflies

punk dancer punk dancer
12/2/14

my name is Veronica too cx anyway I love the story I finished it in 2 days xb

@xI_am_your_shadowx
Its true