Rebekah's P.O.V
I ran for I don't know how long, I ran until my legs couldn't run anymore, until my lungs where burning more than fire. A feeling I've felt a long time ago.. I was somewhere not to far from home.. Should I go? No! Not now! Not like this!
I sat on the floor, crying, I took a cigarette and smoked. I put on some music, I was sad, I was hurt. The same questions were spinning in my minds 'Was Jinxx right?' 'Was Andy just playing with me?'..

It was the second time in less than a damn day since I cried. What the fuck was wrong with me? And it was both related to Andrew Dennis Biersack... Was it what people called love? Then Johnny was right! It was like prison, making you dependent on someone. Depend on someone? Not for me! This person earned the ability of hurting you... Yes, it was like prison, but this one was hurting, breaking. 'It turn you into a breakable person' yes! Once again Johnny was right. And he knew better, as he visited 'normal' prisons a few times!

Johnny was a twenty six years old 'thug', one of the 'bad people' Mrs. Taylor talked about. But he wasn't bad deep inside, even if when you looked at him you wouldn't believe it... He was black, covered in tattoos, smoked weed. He had a tattoo shop, the one where I was working in. He was always swearing, saying the worst word I ever heard but always gave me the best advice! He was one of my favorite person during the time I spent there, and I missed him badly! Even if he had killed someone -and he actually did-, I loved him like a big brother. He always wanted to protect me, from the really bad persons, from turning into a bad person, from the reality of life.. But sadly it was already too late. When I first met him, I already knew how life was unfair, how you should never trust anyone... At least he could protect me from others now!

If only I could have met him before, before my parents died, before I knew life was unfair, before my hell... Then maybe today I would still believe in life, I would still believe in love, in people around me. But it wasn't, at least I met him, he taught me how to defend myself, how to kill... Yes it sounds scary said like this, but it's the reality of things. I do know how to kill, but I won't show you, or else you'll be dead... Anyway! He taught me how to tattoo, how to count money fast, how to hide and the most important: how to disappear when someone is looking for you... For killing you.

Thinking about this good part of my past made me feel better, but I stayed here a bit more, ignoring the calls, texts... I didn't want to hear from anyone, even CC. Sorry, but I needed to stay all alone! I cried, remembered, smoked for a long time not realizing how late it was.
When I finally felt like going home it was already 11PM! I hoped they wouldn't annoy me too much, I was already upset!

I walked home, I still couldn't stop thinking about Andy and his bitc.. I mean Juliet. I walked in and suddenly the light was turned on. Sammi and CC seemed reassured but Jinxx was mad...
“Oh my God Rebie! Where were you? We were so worried!” Sammi and CC hugged me, but I didn't feel like hugging back..
Jinxx turned to me and yelled at me
“What the fuck were you thinking? Where the fuck were you? Couldn't you just call us? Or at least answer your damn phone? You're always like this! It's exhausting!”

I looked at him, without a word, he yelled again. I blinked a few times, then just walked to my room. 'If you don't like me, you should just have let me in my orphanage...' I thought to myself as I walked, ignoring them once again. Jinxx was yelling at me again while Sammi tried to calm him down. I heard CC following me and Jinxx asking him if 'he also wanted something with me' CC just said no and walked to me.

When we -yes I didn't achieve to push CC out- were in I sat on my bed, I didn't feel like crying anymore, I was just tired, empty.. Oh! Yes, I forgot to eat dinner!
CC sat next to me and asked:
“Do you feel better?” I nodded, sighing.
“I guess I understood what happened right?” I nodded again. He pulled me into one of his famous hug then said
“Promise me that the next time you feel like this you'll call me.. Okay?
-I'll try” I said, realizing my voice was shaking and sad. I cried too much!!
CC hushed and rocked me back and forth. It was the first time Jinxx yelled at me, and I felt terrible. Andy was fucking who ever she was, making me feel... Terrible!
That was all because of love! I started to love them, Jinxx, CC and Sammi as friends and maybe family. Andy in a weirdly strong and hurtful way.. Something I've never felt before. Johnny was definitely right! 'Love turns you into a breakable person'. I fell asleep on CC's lap.

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