Roslyn's P.O.V.

I woke up then next morning and my neck was killing me I tried to turn but pain shot through my body "whats wrong babe" he mumbled "m-my neck" I cried when I said that he instantly shot up "let me see" he demanded, I took my hand away from my throbbing neck and Andy's face turned serious "h-how bad is it?" I questioned "Its pretty bruised but nothing too serious" he said with a reassuring smile I smiled back and he brought me in for a hug "I-I'm scared" I said quietly he looked down with a questioning look "about what?" he asked tightening his grip on me "th-the baby" I said quietly he hugged me tighter "everything's going to be fine, I'll be with you in the delivery room" I just nodded and snuggled closer to him.

A few hours later every one was up Ash was still giving me dirty looks I don't know what I did but he seemed pretty pissed, When I got the chance I talked to him "Ash what wrong, why are you pissed at me?" I asked him tears brimming my eyes threatening to spill over "why am I pissed at you... WHY AM I PISSED AT YOU... MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOUR 19 AND FUCKING PREGNANT THAT'S WHY I'M PISSED AT YOU!!" tears were now falling freely from my eyes "Ash I-" I started to explain but he cut me off "DON'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME ROS, I AM BEYOND PISSED AT YOU, YOU JUST FUCKED YOU LIFE COMPLETELY" there was a moment of silence then I spoke again "well I guess that's what I do, I go around fucking every thing up like usual... I fucked our family up, I fucked the relationship I had with my brother up, yeh he said it was MY fault our parents died... but now that I look back on it it was my fault, EVERYTHING'S MY FAULT I CAN'T BELIEVE IT BUT YOU'RE RIGHT, I- I FUCK EVERY THING UP, I SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HEAR, I WISH THOSE COUNTLESS TIMES I'VE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF WOULD HAVE AT LEAST HAD ONE VICTORY, THEN I WOULDN'T BE HEAR TO FUCK YOU'R LIFE UP ANY MORE. I WISH I WAS DEAD!" I screeched before running off the bus, and collapsing in tears behind it. My brother... my own brother thinks I'm a fuck up... I mean I would expect that from Zack but not.,, Ashley he seemed to sweet for that... well I guess not, I was crying and holding in sobs I reached into my pocket for my razor "wow" I breathe quietly, I haven't used this for 2 months I looked at it and slowly drug it across my arm 'no one wants me, no one lives me, i'm better off dead' I said to myself as I made the cuts, I lost track of what I was doing until I heard a familiar deep voice "what are you doing?" I cringed at the voice I new automatically that it was Andy, I didn't even look up I just continued to cry I felt his arms wrap around my waist I cried into his shirt he pulled away and started to clean up my arm, he gave me a sad look "why?" was all he said and I proceeded to tell him.

Ashley's P.O.V.

I was just about to leave to go to some club with the rest of the guys when Roslyn pulled me over to the side I glared at her shes throwing her life away to Andy, I mean not that Andy's a bad guy its just hes 23 and shes 19 "Ash what wrong, why are you pissed at me?" she asked through silent tears thats when I lost it "why am I pissed at you... WHY AM I PISSED AT YOU... MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOUR 19 AND FUCKING PREGNANT THAT'S WHY I'M PISSED AT YOU!!" I sorta blue up in he face she started to speak again but I didn't let her finish "DON'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME ROS, I AM BEYOND PISSED AT YOU, YOU JUST FUCKED YOU LIFE COMPLETELY" I roared tears brimmed in her eyes and then she spoke "well I guess that's what I do, I go around fucking every thing up like usual... I fucked our family up, I fucked the relationship I had with my brother up, yeh he said it was MY fault our parents died... but now that I look back on it it was my fault, EVERYTHING'S MY FAULT I CAN'T BELIEVE IT BUT YOU'RE RIGHT, I- I FUCK EVERY THING UP, I SHOULDN'T EVEN BE HEAR, I WISH THOSE COUNTLESS TIMES I'VE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF WOULD HAVE AT LEAST HAD ONE VICTORY, THEN I WOULDN'T BE HEAR TO FUCK YOU'R LIFE UP ANY MORE. I WISH I WAS DEAD!" She screamed as she let the tears fall then she ran off the bus, no way in hell i'm loosing her again, especially after what she just said to me, I ran off the bus to try and find her...

I looked around for 3 hours and I couldn't find her, I was literally shaking a hole bunch of scenarios were playing through my head, what if she jumped off the bridge, what if she jumped off a building, what if she got hit by a car, Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god! if I loose her it will be my fault, if shes dead how will Andy take it... shit Andy loves he... SHIT THE BABY, I hadent even realized that I was crying until some one asked if I was okay I just nodded and continued walking I was raging with guilt, I was so scared that she was dead I didn't realize my phone was ringing
"He-hello?" I spoke trying to hold back tears "Ash we need to talk" it was Andy he sounded pissed off "okay... what about?" I questioned waiting for the answer "Roslyn..." shit shit shit, this is all my fault I hope shes okay, I ran as fast as I could back to the tour bus it was hard with tears blurring my vision, I ran on to the bus breathing heavily and I see Roslyn sitting there with tears falling silently down her cheeks Andy was beside her trying to talk to her but she kept pushing him away. I coughed a little and there heads turned to where I was "hey Ash..." Andy said quietly "wh-what happened whats wrong" I asked behind a shaky breath Roslyn kept looking down she wouldn't even make eye contact what happened "now Ash I know your mad at Ros, but right now she needs your full support.. okay?" I nodded in agreement "no matter how bad this is I need to know you wont blow up at her" he continued "I wont just tell me whats going on with my damn sister" I stated, he looked over at Roslyn and grabbed her hand "you ready for this hun" he whispered to Ros, she hesitantly nodded and gripped Andy's hand tighter, she slowly looked up at me, the word that she said next put me in a state of shock because it was my fault "I-I cu-cut again" she said through tears, the look on her face was heart braking, Andy wrapped her in a hug and rubbed her back then he mouthed 'I need to talk to you outside' I nodded and with that he took Ros to the back of the bus.

Andy's P.O.V.

I was furious the fact that Ash told his own sister that she fucked up her life just got me on the edge I wanted to punch a wall when Ros got done telling me what happened, as we were waiting for Ash to get back all I could do was stair at Ros's arms, ho could someone so beautiful go through this much, have her life so fucked up, just then Ash ran on the bus his eyes red and puffy, and he seemed out of breath I encouraged Ros to tell him what happened so she got up and stood beside my gripping my hand tightly as she inhaled a shaky breath "I-I cu-cut again" she whispered through tears, I looked over to Ash who looked like someone just shot him in the heart, I wrapped my arms securely around Ros and hugged her tight as she cried into my chest I mouthed 'I need to talk to you outside' to Ash before I took Ros back to our room on the bus.

I get back to the front of the bus and Ashley is already waiting out side, I get out there and before he could even blink I started one him "DO YOU RELINE WHAT YOU HAVE JUST PUT HER THROUGH! SHE WAS DOING SO GOOD AND YOU JUST GO AND OPEN YOUR BIG FAT MOUTH AND NOW SHES BACK TO WHERE SHE STARTED!" I blew up at him "I know I fucked up but-" I cut him off "THEIRS NO ''BUT'' ABOUT IT SHES FUCKING CUTTING AGAIN BECAUSE OF YOU" I have no clue what came over me next but I punched him square in his jaw I watched as he stumbled backwards but griped the bust for support "Listen I know I fucked up and i'm sorry, but you cant take all the blame out on me shes the 19 year old pregnant not me" his voice was getting deeper but he didn't scare me "If your going to be pissed at anyone be pissed at me, I'M the one who got her pregnant" I said to him I could feel my face growing red with anger, the look in his eyes changed from pissed to guilty then he sighed "you know how bad Zack was and you fucking yelled at her, it made her so scared that she told me she doesn't feel safe around you now how does that make you feel?" I asked him he sighed again "I feel like shit" he breathed, and with that I walked back inside to check on Roslyn.

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