Help Me Save Me *Compleated*

Andy's P.O.V.

I've never scene anyone so bad before, she was flailing I was trying to hold her arms down and calm her down but it wasn't working nothing was... at one point I heard her murmur "I love you too" I didn't know what she was dreaming about but it wasn't good, all of a sudden she just stopped and went limp "what just happened?" Jinxx asked quietly I just sat there holding Roslyn in my arms I looked down on her lifeless figure "Ros?" I choked out shaking her a little my heart sped up and my eyes began to water,, I thought we had lost her but just then she sat up screaming with tears streaming down her face every one in the room looked relived to see she wasn't dead "Ros are you okay" I asked she looked at me in mortal terror then clung to my shirt, she let out tiny choked sobs while clinging for dear life on to my shirt "shh its okay your hear with me now you'll be okay" I told her hugging her she just clung tighter to my shirt, after she calmed down a bit I asked he about what happened "I had the worst night mare ever" she said tears streaming down her face "what was it about?" I asked her, she took a deep breath and sighed

"all I remember was waking up you asked me a question, and i didn't want to answer it, i couldn't breath then, because of what happened I R-Ran away, you found me at a Starbucks but then my brother came back because he escaped from jail, an-and he shot me I died in your arms" she said her face paling as she spoke.

Roslyn's P.O.V.

I told Andy about my dream and how much it scared me, he just looked at me with sad eyes and hugged me tight as I silently cried on his shirt as he rubbed my back and made shushing noises, I parted from the hug and Andy gave me a look "Ar-are you and Juliet-" I couldn't finish the sentence but Andy knew what I meant and just nodded "I-I'm sorry" I said quietly "what for?" he asked surprised "for ruining your relationship with Juliet" I said looking down, he looked at me shocked "you,,, didn't ruin anything, it was Juliet's jalousie that ruined our relationship, so don't ever think for a second that it was your fault okay" he said bringing me in for a hug, I just nodded in response, then Ash came in "hey can we get some food now?" he asked in a kiddish wining voice Andy chuckled "yeah, where do you wanna go?" Andy asked "PIZZA" we heard Jake yell from the front I just giggled "hey Ros you want anything?" Andy asked me "No im okay" I told him hoping he would leave it like that, but he didn't he gave me a skeptical look "no you're getting something" he said before he got up,

So we arrive at pizza hut and I ordered one piece of vegetarian pizza "that's all you're getting?" Andy asked I just nodded "like I said im not that hungry" I lied "okay", we went back to the table and Jake had a hole small pizza to him self, and ash occasionally tried to take a piece Jake of coerce smacked him for it, and wen I sat down all the rest of them asked if that one piece was all I was having and every time the answer was yes,
when we got back to the bus I felt awful I could feel the fat of the pizza digesting into my stomach I excused my self to the washroom and stuck my fingers down my throat forcing the contents up, thank god I was alone on the bus so they still don't know, I threw up a little more then my phone went off and showed I had a notification on facebook 6 unread messages


Marry: wow you fat slut I heard you ran away with a band probably pregnant already

Lizzy: oh yeah especially with 5 guys on a bus someones bound to get knocked up!!

Marry: Ha ha yeah but the thing is whose the father????

Lizzy: I honestly hope it dies, who would want to be the child of a psycho person in a band

Marry: I hope for the sake of humanity she isn't prego

Lizzy: HA I know right, what ever, Emo just go DIE!!

I just sat there I didn't know what to say I looked down at my stomach one last time and threw up again I took my razor in my right hand and slid it 6 times across my left arm I just sat there crying, then I heard a knock on the bathroom door "Ross you okay" Ashley's voice filled the silent room "uhh umm yeah ju-just give me a minuet" I said with a shaky voice but he didn't seem to get the "one minuet" part and came in "oh my god.... what are you doing?" he practically yelled, my phone started to go off again

Marry: oh wow did she actually do it?

Lizzy: hopefully no one wants her..

Marry: lol she usually responds buy now

Lizzy: don't tell me you feel bad...

Marry: NO! of coerce not it's just weird

Lizzy: who cares...

I just sat there with tears streaming down my face I went to reach for my phone but Ashley got it before me. he started to read the messages and his face was growing with anger I tried to secretly grab my razor but he saw and smacked it out of my hand "you need to stop you're hurting your self" he said getting down on his knee and lifting my head up to look at him "I... I can't, you don't understand I cant" I cried he looked at me with sympathy "yes you can you just need help with it" he said softly "p-please don't tell Andy, you weren't even supposed to know, no one was" I said looking down at the ground "Okay I wont but you do need help" he said sadly, I know im not going to win so I just stopped arguing

Ashley's P.O.V.

I walked in on the most horrible thing ever Roslyn was sitting there with torn up wrists tear stained face and her phone near buy, I looked at the messages and was instantly pissed I saw out of the corner of my eye that she was pulling the blade back to her wrist I got down and slapped it out of her hand "you need to stop you're hurting your self" I told her getting down to her level lifting her chin to look at me "I... I can't, you don't understand I cant" she told me while crying "yes you can you just need help with it" I told her "p-please don't tell Andy, you weren't even supposed to know, no one was" she said in a worried voice "okay I wont, but you do need help" lying about the first part, of coerce i'm going to tell Andy he loves her and she needs all the help she can get.
I walked out of the bathroom and Ros went to her bunk, I was sitting on the couch in the main part of the bus when Andy walked on "hey" he said as he walked on "hey I need to talk to you... its about Roslyn" his attention then snapped my way "what about" he asked concerned "out side now" I said to him and he followed me out there "whats wrong?" he asked still concerned "she... shes cutting herself" his face went pale and he had to grab the bus to keep steady then ran inside.

Andy's P.O.V.

Ashley just told me that Roslyn cuts herself no that cant be right, I walked into her bunk aria and saw he curled up into a little ball "Ros?" I asked quietly she turned to ace me her eyes all puffy her cheeks flushed "y-yeh" she said "Ashley told me something that got me worried" I told her, then he expressin got pissed she stood up fast and I herd her yell "I FUCKING TOLD YOU THAT I DIDN'T WANT ANYONE KNOWING AND WHAT DO YOU DO YOU GO ANT TELL THE ONE PERSON I TOLD YOU NOT TO TELL, DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW TO KEEP A SECRET ?" then I heard the door slam I got up and went after her "ROSLYN WAIT" I yelled after her she stopped and turned around "Ros this isn't healthy" I told her she shook her head "No you don't understand... no one would care if I was dead, no one loves me the only guy who ever loved me a little was my dad" she said tears brimming her eyes, "I... I love you damn it" I told her and before she could answer I kissed her.

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