Zaria/Alexandria's P.O.V
Date: January 8th

I stared up at the ceiling of my new room not wanting to get out of my bed just yet. Last night, after I threw my baby fit, I said I wanted to go to bed but not a single one of them would let me and we soon found ourselves playing all different types of games and soon we watched one of my favorite musicals, Rent. While everyone was trying to figure out what was going on in the movie I hummed along to it. It was very hard not to just bust out singing but I wouldn't dare let the people who made money on how good they could either play or sing music here my voice.

Eventually they let me go to bed around three o'clock in the morning and that's why I now hear CC banging on my door trying to get me up. My hand reached out for my phone on the nightstand and when I looked at the clock it said that it was 12:56 p.m. I let out a huge groan and yelled at CC to go away. The only thing is though he did the opposite.

"Get out of my room," I groaned but instead of listening to my demands for the second time he sat at the edge of my bed. So I threw my pillow at him.

"Hey!" he exclaimed as the pillow fell from his face. "That wasn't very nice and just think I was bringing you breakfast."

He made a pouty face and for the first time I noticed the plate that was in his hands. As the smell of the sausage and pancakes hit my nose making my mouth watered. I reached for the plate of food but CC moved it away.

"Not till you say you're sorry," he mocked.

"I'm sorry CC," I said in a babyish voice then reached for the food again.

"You didn't do it right." CC moved the food even further from my hungry self. He than sat the food down by his foot and put his hands on his chest acting all dramatic. "You gotta go like this, 'CC, you are the coolest, funniest person in the whole world and I'm sorry for being a meany pants and throwing a pillow at you.'"

I almost growled but knew that wouldn't get me food. So instead I clamped my hands together, put them on the side of my face, and said in the cutest baby voice I could muster, "CC, I'm sorry you're not the coolest and funniest person in the whole wide world and I'm sorry I didn't throw the pillow harder." I smirked even though I knew I wasn't getting the food now.

I thought that CC would just pout some more but in two seconds flat he had me pinned to the bed with a cocky grin which had my heart beating faster than I ever thought possible.

"Now that was not at all nice," he said in a heavy voice. "Now you'll have to do something else for me to give you all that yummy food before I decided to let Mace and Fuffy in to eat it all."

I was wondering where my puppy was. I guess either Juliet, CC, or Andy came and got him to let him out while I was sleeping.

Pushing that aside I focused on the man on top of me and I felt my breaths come out short and my heart race. Dammit body, stop feeling like this!

"What do I have to do?" I glared at him hoping to hide my bodies reaction to the close contact.

CC stayed silent a minute thinking over what he should have me do. "How bout a kiss?"

Okay, I was not expecting that. My eyes grew wide as my face heated. I'm also sure that he could hear my heart beating a million miles per second. But why, it's not like you don't want to kiss him. Hell, he's one of your fucking celebrity crushes. One kiss wouldn't hurt, or would it? What if he was just teasing you to get a quickly? Andy would surely kick his ass for it though, right? I mentally groaned.

Then he started to laugh. Fucking laughing.

"I'm glad that was your reaction," he leaned down and whispered in my ear. "I love it when you blush and be all innocent." He then released my hands and climbed off me. I lay there a few seconds trying to process everything that just happened. "Now are going to eat my amazing food or just lay there?"

I shot up and glared at him. "I hate you, you jerk." I then pulled the covers back and walked to my bathroom.

I thought that he would stop me before I left the room but once I was behind the door to the bathroom I realized how stupid that situation was, how my reaction was, and my stupid ideal fantasy of love was. Sighing I pushed myself off the door and walked over to the bathtub. That's what I really needed and wanted, a nice soak in the warm water. Oh, and I could add bath salts and bubbles but when I went to turn on the faucet I reached out with my left hand and remembered. I can't do any of that because of the stupid broken bones. Now I just wanted to scream and punch a wall but instead I just sat on the toilet and started to piss. When I went to wipe I finally found out way I was so emotional these past few days.

"That's just fucking great," I mumbled to myself.

I forgot that the last time I got my birth control renewed was a few days before the accident. When I first told my dad I wanted it he flipped and said I only wanted it because I was sleeping around but when I told him about how heavy my periods normally were he shut up and called the doctor not really wanting to have that conversation with his youngest. I felt a sharp pang in my heart. He wasn't my dad and I wasn't his youngest. Tears threaten but I quickly shook them away and reached for the pads underneath the sink. Sometimes I felt like the only girl that had a problem with sticking something up their vagina, but hey, I am a freak.

After washing my hands I left the bathroom to find my room empty. On my nightstand though was the plate of food CC had. When I walked up to it I noticed a little note beside it.

Zaria, I'm sorry for doing that to you it was probably uncalled for but I just needed to see what you'd do because...never mind forget I said the because. I just needed to see your reaction and trust me you passed now you just need to figure out what you passed. -CC

I crumbled the piece of paper up and threw it away. Like I care what I passed, it doesn't matter to me one pit. I knew I was lying to myself but all well.
*** "She's finally up," Andy teased when I came down the stairs to put my plate in the sink. He was all dressed up and had melting snow on him.

I was about to stick my tongue out at him when two people walked in from the cold outside world. I couldn't see who they were from the angle I was at, but I did hear them come in.

Shrugging it off I continued to the kitchen. When I got in there I saw shopping bags upon shopping bags. I knew that we needed some food but this is overkill.

Water ran over my plate as I tried to peek at what was in the bags. All I saw was a shit ton of food and a little bit of essentials that we haven't gotten yet. I wonder if there was any snack food, cause right now I could go for some BBQ chips. Yes, I know I just got done eating breakfast but I don't give a fuck.

When I turned around I heard the clanking of nails on tile and barking filling the air. I instantly knew that my puppies wanted to see me. Mace was the first in the room and I leaned over with my arms spread wide.

"Mace," I exclaimed and he came running toward me. I picked him up and started to pet his soft fur as he licked my face. "I missed you too." Right then Fuffy came around the corner but she was come faster than she thought and slid right pass the opening. "Poor Fuffy." Mace gave a bark. "That's not nice. You really shouldn't make fun of her." He gave another series of barks and I then put him down because Fuffy finally recovered and was trotting toward us. "Hey there pretty lady. How are you?" I bent over and patted her head and she gave her pants back as her answer.

"Alex," Andy's voice called from the living room and interrupted our little get together. "Come here I have some one I want you to see."

I groaned but followed his orders anyway. When I got into the living room the two figures that came through the door and were visible now and one of them came running up to developed me into a hug.

"Hi honey," Amy said as she let me go.

"Hey Amy," I looked past her to Chris. "Hey Chris. What are you guys doing here?"

"We wouldn't miss our daughters birthday week, now would we." Chris came over and hugged me. "Hey kiddo. Sorry we couldn't be here yesterday work wouldn't let Amy or I off."

I smiled up at him. "It's no big deal, yesterday was pretty uneventful."

"Uneventful," Andy mocked hurt. "If your calling Fuffy and Mace uneventful I'll just take them back."

I ran up to Andy screaming no. "No, don't do that I already love them, and plus Fuffy is CC's not mine."

Andy scoffed. "We all know that CC said what he said because you wanted Fuffy also but were afraid to ask for two dogs."

"Is that so?" CC entered the room and for a split second my heart raced but then I remembered how the whole scene ended, so, I crossed my arms and started to pout.

"Yep." Andy gave a cocky grin and plopped down on the couch.

"Andy," Juliet yelled when she joined the party. "Don't sit down. You know we have to be leaving." Juliet walked over to the door and grabbed her shoes, then sat down next to Andy and started to put them on.

"Where you guys going?" I asked confused. They didn't mention anything about going anywhere.

Juliet smiled warmly at me. "We have to go to a check-up for these guys," Juliet put both hands down on her tummy. "With the due date being next month the doctors want to make sure they're doing okay and that means a check-up."

I gave a ah face as Amy said, "And while there gone were gonna have fun here."

I almost gave a groan at the thought of not being able to spend the day in bed like I thought I was going to but when your parents flew in for your birthday it's better to spend time with them instead of being lazy.

CC's P.O.V

"Awww," I cooed as I looked at the one of the few baby pictures that they had of Zaria. Who would have thought that they would of had any pictures of her but they took tons of them before she was taken. Right now we were looking at a picture of her laying down on a blanket holding both of Amy's and Chris's wedding bands.

"She looks so cute. What happened?" Zaria instantly punched me in the arm. I loved teasing her it was so much fun. The bridge of her nose would do this adorable twitchy thing that was, like I said, adorable.

"I am still cute," she argued. "Wait, no, you were right I'm not cute," she paused and I was about to do a victory dance. "I'm fricken' sexy!"

I slumped my shoulders as Amy busted up with laughter.

"I can't believe how alike you guys are," Amy laughed. "I would almost think that it's you guys who are suppose to be siblings and not Andy."

I had to bite my lip before I yelled that I there was no way I would be her brother, because if I was then I would be into incest.

Amy pulled out another photo and this one was all of them standing in front of a fireplace. Andy was sitting and had baby Zaria laying against his stomach. Chris and Amy were sitting behind Andy with one hand one each of Andy's shoulders and the other hand on Zaria's arms. They all, except baby Zaria who had a grumpy chubby face, were smiling like there whole life was happy and complete. It made me sad to think that just in a few day that everyone of there faces would soon look like baby Zaria's. Maybe baby Zaria knew what was going to happen and was prepared for it.

I looked over at Zaria and saw her just starring at the photo. She raced out to grasp it and I saw the shake that resided in her hand. When it was in her hand she brought it up to her face and examined it closer.

"That was taken the day before you were taken," Chris said from the other side of Zaria. "We decided that we wanted to take a photo as a whole family and we hired a professional. We took tons of photos and this was one of the last ones we had taken and out of all the other ones this was the only one where you looked grumpy. In all of the other photos, even the ones after this one, you were smiling and loving life. We had no idea why you were grumpy in this one but you were and when we went to go get them a few days after you were gone we decided that this was the one that was best suited for a picture in the living room."

Zaria stay silent for a few seconds processing what she was just told. "Why are you just now showing them to me?" Her voice came out a little higher than a whisper and she never took her eyes off the photo.

"I was wanting to show them to you on Christmas," Amy started to explain. "I spent all day the day before looking for them but no matter where I look I couldn't find them." She reached for her glass of tea and took a drink of it. "I looked in the attic, the basement, even under our bed, but I couldn't find them. I thought that they had gotten lost until I was cleaning up the bedroom you stayed in the day after you guys left. I went to put something in the closet and saw boxes were on the shelf and when I got it down I found them. Plus your baby book, baby blanket and pillow, and you first pair of shoes. I forgot to grab them when I was packing but I didn't forget the photos." Zaria gave a slight smile and started to handed the photo back but Amy pushed her hand away. "No honey, I made a copy of the photo, this one is yours."

Zaria pulled her hand back to herself and stuffed the photo in her hoodie.

Amy clapped her hands when the room grew silent. "Well, I'm going to go start dinner." She pushed herself off the couch and walked into the kitchen.

"I'll help you." Chris chased after his wife and left Zaria and I alone.

We sat there for a few minutes then Zaria got up and walked toward the stairs mumbling something along the lines of wanting to put the picture in her room. When she was was out of sight I decided that I wanted to follow her.

At the top of the stairs I noticed that she was standing outside of her bedroom door with her head against it. I heard a sob come out of her when I was about to ask her what she was doing.
I very silently made my way to her and when I was directly behind her I put one hand around her waist and the other across her shoulders. I felt her stiffen when my hands touched her but I didn't make a move to leave, in fact pulled her back into my chest and nuzzled my face into her hair. Not wanting to have her back to me anymore I made her turn around and I saw the the tears that made their way down her beautiful face.

I rubbed the tears away with my thumb only for them to be replaced. "Zaria," I whispered quietly not wanting to scare her. "I wasn't wrong when I said that you were no longer cute." Her eyes widened and she made a move to pull away but I wouldn't let her. "No, you're not cute at all, you're fucking gorgeous." My hand cupped her face and I moved my lips to met her forehead and placed a soft kiss there.

When I looked back into her eyes my breath caught. They were sparkling with something that I could only dream of seeing. In her eyes I saw love and she was looking straight at me. I then felt the need to kiss her overtake me. My hand moved to the base of her head to cradle it, as my other hand snaked around her waist and pulled her closer to my body. My head ever so slowly moved toward her's and I watched as her eyes fluttered closed. I've wanted this moment to happen since New Year's Eve but I didn't want to push her, I wanted her to be the one that kissed me so I knew that she felt the same and that she just didn't feel compelled to kiss me back. That's why this morning I told her to kiss me, and she was going to do it, she was shocked at first but there was no doubt in my mind that she wasn't going to do it. But last minute I pulled away. I didn't want our first kiss to be like that.

My lips finally met her forehead again. I just realized that I didn't want our first kiss to be like this either. Not why she was crying, not when she was sad and I felt like I was taking advantage of her.

I quickly pulled away from her and mumbled an apology. Then I bolted down the hall to my room and quickly locked myself in sinking to the floor. You're such a fucking idiot CC. You shouldn't have done that. What were you thinking and now that you've run away from her she'll probably think that you don't want her and are just messing with her feelings.

I pulled myself off the floor and flopped onto my bed. How can you be so stupid? I let out a sigh and rolled onto my back and stayed there even when Zaria came to my room telling me that dinner was done. She told me in such a small voice that it took everything I had not to burst out of this room and comfort her but I stayed not being able to face the downward spiral that was facing me when it came to my feelings for Zaria.

Notes

I was going to put pictures up of both the house and the dogs but the stupid thing wouldn't let me so I just updated with a chapter. Hope you enjoy! Oh, I was planning on updating on Thursday but school was canceled for me and I normally go to my grandma's after school because of musical practice and she has internet, which is how I have been updating, and seeing as there was no school I wasn't able to update.