Cutting courage*On hold*

Skylar~~

As I was walking to work I was thinking of all the possible ways I could kill my self I could jump off a building, I could take a full bottle of pills, I could slice my wrists.... but the best one I have though of yet was tying a noose and hanging myself, all my thoughts were cut short when I arrived for my shift Marry was just finishing with the last customers thank god I only have a half day, I went up to the counter and started taking orders and this girl... Katie I think it was, yeh anyway she was helping me by getting the Coffey all I had to do was take orders and cash them through, it was getting close to closing and the three bitches plus the dick were still there, I went to wash up and when I came back there were five more guys there, grate... I walked in with my head down then I heard Katie "don't worry about me I'll be fine, you go on home" I smiled at her and caught a look at who was standing there it was... Andy.... what? I was about to go over and say hi when I got pushed onto the ground by Britt "heyy little bitch, you ready for school tomorrow? do us all a favor and don't show up kay? no one wants you" she said as she pulled me up by my hair ''let go of me'' I cried, she let go and poured what was left of her latté all over me then she pushed me again making me fall into Andy luckily he caught me "Just kill yourself bitch" was all I heard from Britt as she left "hey are you okay?" Andy asked "ye-yeh" I said as I turned around to face him his eye's went wide "Sky? is that you?" he asked shocked I just nodded my head... Britt was right, I should die.,... and I will tonight.... "I... I have to go, I'm sorry for bumping you" I said walking away quickly as I heard him call something but I didn't turn I kept walking.

I made it too my house and started to wright my note...

Dear... who ever.... I know no one care's and I know every one will be happier once this is over and done with, so hear are the goodbyes to people who... like me? First person is... Addie... I'm sorry that I'm leaving you with out a sister, I know you don't understand right now but you will when your older.... I really hate to do this to you and I truly do love you and don't ever think I don't ever think I don't because I do, and the only other person who,.... Cares? about me would be Andy, but I know you'll never be able to read this because my parents won't let you know, but just encase... I'm sorry I'm doing this to you, I know were best friends and I should come to you with this stuff... in fact I remember the day you said 'if you ever feel like hurting yourself in any way please come to me, because I don't wan't to stand at my best friends funeral when she hasn't even reached the age of 30, I laughed and said I would, but when the time came of when I first drug the mettle across my skin I could't bring myself to tell you because I knew you have the band to worry about and.... this will bring more stress, oh god why am I such a fuck up? I just... I'm sorry okay... bye... I love you both with all my heart... oh and Mom and Dad...GO FUCK YOUR SELF...

When I got done writing the note I taped it to the outside of my door and began on the noose, it took about half an hour until I was completely done and then I went and took a shower...

Andy~~

As she was walking out I realized her I pod was on the ground I tried calling for her but she kept walking, I went and sat over with the rest of the guys looking through her I pod to see if I could get any info from it,then a reminder popped up it read "good bye good bye, remember what your doing tonight... dying" my heart sunk when I red that, I looked more and more and then I found where she lived, I sprung up and ran to the door the guys yelling after me, as I was driving I was praying that she was alright, I couldn't loose her, as soon as I pulled up to her apt I leaped out of the car and in to the building looking for apt 6C, as soon as I found in I walked right in "Sky?" I asked... no reply my heart rate picked up until I heard the shower turn off and a door open and close I walked over to her door and saw a note on it and what I read was horrible.

Skylar~~

As I was getting dressed I heard a knock at my door.... shit, I looked over and thank god it was locked the knocking got louder and faster then they called my name "Sky?.... Skyler please open up" it was... Andy? the fuck?, I sighed but didn't answer, I climbed onto the chair and put the loop around my neck, then I think he started to knock the door down "ANDY STOP" I yelled but he didn't stop, I was about to tip the chair when the door busted down, I stop and look him right in the eye's "good bye Andy... for ever" I say before I tip the chair, the last thing I saw was Andy's face drain all of its color and him run for me, I felt his arms around me and then I slipped in to the darkness.

But then I was filled with light again and I was on the floor wrapped in Andy's arm's, he was crying and hugging me tight I heard him whisper "Please don't die" and then darkness again.

Notes

so this is my first story comment? Ideas? how did you like it? any constructive criticism? please let me know :)