Nothing else matters

"Uh Andy, baby hi!" Juliet laughs nervously.

"Yeah hi, what do you not want to tell me Belle?" Andy asks completely ignoring his girlfriend.

"What? No nothing." I say puzzled shaking my head. "Nothing right juliet?"

"Yep nothing at all." She says giving me a pat on my back. "Nothing at all."

"Do I look like I was born under a rock?" Andy asks.

Is that a trick question, your girlfriend cheated on you! "No...oh look at that something, I mean someone is calling me." I mumer walking away but andy caught my wrist.

"I know you are lying, that face when you make. Its cute and yet I know that smile, what are you hiding from me Isabelle?"

I turn to Juliet who shook her head, looks like she wants to puke and cry at the same time.

"Uh, juliet wanted me to keep a secret, sorry juliet but I have to tell him," I say with a sigh. "Juliet wanted to surprise you."

She took a deep breathe of relieve and nod. "Busted." She whispers.

"You really think I would fall for that?"

"To be honest yes." I say dryly. "Because its the truth." I spat out removing his arm from my grip.

"You cheated on me a again juliet?" My eyes grew wide and fear spreads over me. 'Again?'

"No, she is not cheating on you, I mean come on she loves you!" I groan not wanting to say that words but I have to. I don't want Andy to be sad.

"I love you, I learned my lesson angel." She says biting her lower lip.

The tension between I and Andy are magnetic, I can't stay away from him, its like a force pushing us together. But yet again I change my mind like I change my sheets.

"Belle! Guess who's here!" Max yells jumping up and down.

"If you will excuse me." I say running after Max.

We came to our tour bus and my heart stopped. "Daddy!" I jump in his arms hugging him tight.

"My sweet Rebel, I missed you."

"I missed you to daddy."

He let's go of me and like usual he eyed me up and down. Can a dad sense that his daughter is not a virgin any more, I practically have a sign on my fore head saying 'alex gaskarth fucked me in the ocean!'

"You look good, something different."

"Dad I am growing duh?" I say dryly.

"Let's catch up, I wanna see you perform on main stage." I nod and grab I and my father a monster.

•Andy's P.O.V•

"I need to break up with Juliet!" I yell startling all my band mates as we just sat in our bus.

"Huh?" Jinxx asks confused.

"I need to break up with Juliet."

"That's a good idea." Jake agreed giving me a weak smile.

"And why is that a good idea?" CC gasps.

"Because of Belle." I say.

"Oh well, yeah break up with Juliet." Everyone mumer's.

Ashley came in with a heavy sigh and walked to his bunk. A few seconds later he came with a letter handing it to me.

"Letter for Andrew Biersack." He mummers.

"This date was issued five months ago?" I ask bedazzled.

"Oh uh yeah, you were so happy with Juliet I did not want you to spoil the 'fun' you had with her, so when this," he points to the letter. "Came I decided not to give it to you."

"Why?"

"Because it was from Belle."

"What!"

"Chill Andy, I did you a solid. I am sorry its open but I read it and for the first time I cried, I wish I was you." He breaths sitting on the sofa.

"Why would you do that? Invading my privacy!" I bellow.

"I don't care what u think, when I saw it was from Belle I needed to read it. And FYI Biersack that's not just for you. It was for all of us."

"So what are you waiting for Andy, read it!" CC screams.

I open the letter and sat down.


"Dearest Jeremy, Ashley, Christian, Jake and Andrew.

Its been five months, five months of touring and what not. Everywhere I go I see your faces. Its like a bad dream, but not want to escape because I know I am seeing you.

For several years I have come to notice what persons u really are, Smart amazing human beings you all inspired me. But what you did inspire was for me being happy. As time goes by I always just see you when I see a band perform. Thank you for being with me. Even though we have butted heads once in a while.

That time you hugged me saying 'everything is going to be alright' for that moment my life and problems were out of sight. Giving me meaning to wake up, because every morning you said to be 'your are never alone' and I know you will never let me turn to stone. All because of you I learned to enjoy life and turn to this grey knife. Thank you for being my friend, and not made me bend, I will see you soon maybe some day in heaven and we will play fallen angels on the moon.

Everyone one of you touched my heart. How was I so stupid for leaving you?

I remembered every single detail that I have been with you guys. From Jake and I eating banana ice cream, to Ashley being naked in front of me. Jinxx and CC singing one direction and justin bieber. Fuck I miss all of you.

When I died for a few minutes all saw was you guys. I melted by the pain when I saw a text and knowing I could not reply. But I will promise you that I will see you again.

Its hard to believe this but I actually am doing this for you. I am doing this for you and you have to just believe me. Every single day I think of you, knowing what I have lost and knowing what I did not gain. The love of rock stars.

Thank you all for being with me. I love you all. Your little Ulrich. Isabelle"

I closed the letter seeing everyone in tears.

"I uh need to lay down." I whisper.

Without replying to me I walked in lying on my bunk. I grab the letter and open it again.

Dearest Andrew.

I have loved you for a thousand years. I have lost all hope and fears, even though I still cry many tears.
You brought me back to life with just one touch Even though in my head just one touch is not enough I miss your kiss, I miss your heart I just wish we can begin at the start Where we met and you just gazed at me Not knowing you will be the one for me. I never wanted to let you go it was not my take to say goodbye I would of said no. not to the goodbye but to your love. I would never say no to your love

I look at your photograph all the time, these memories come back to life and I don't mind. I remember when we kiss, I can still feel it on my lips.

I remember those simple things, I remember till I cried but the one thing I wish if forget, the one thing I need to forget, is goodbye.

I always say that my biggest regret, the one thing I want to forget is saying goodbye.

I love you, and I will always love you.

Forever your Belle.

I notice the letter was soaking wet. "I can't do this anymore."

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