Nothing else matters

"Hello boys." I whisper eyeing the people who is gazing at me.

"No." Jake mumbles.

"Yes." I answered.

"It can't be." Andy mummers.

This is a getting a little over sinister for me. "Guys, its really me, my dad wanted me to stay dead but I can't just leave you. I was dead well I think I was I mean I not sure-"

I was cut off by two strong arms around me. "I will never let you go ever again, if I do I will kill myself." Jake says hugging me tighter and tighter.

"Jake, you are a suffocating me." I groan. But to my surprise CC came in, so did Ashley and Jinxx.

"Don't cry please."

"I can't contain it." CC stiffen's wiping a tear from his eye. "You scared us."

"I know and I am so, so, so, so sorry. I never wanted this. I never wanted to hurt you so bad that you went into a downward spiral. You are my best friends." I begin to sob as well.

Finally they let go, i turn my head to Andy and he just sitting there gazing at me. "Please say something."

"Andy, baby I am up." The same girl in the picture who Andy's kissed is now next to him. And it feels I want to die again, next time I will take the easy option and grab my father's gun.

"Oh you busy with a fan." Juliet grins towards me giving me a half wave.

"I uh need to go." Andy grumbles stumbling off his chair running to the parking lot.

"Andy?" Juliet begin to paste a jog but Jake suddenly interrupted her.

"Na.a Simms, he needs time."

"I will go talk to him." I spoke up.

"That's a good idea." Jake smiles giving me a quick kiss on the cheek.

"He needs time but he can talk to a fan?" Juliet snaps at Jake but indirectly its to me.

"Why don't you just shut up." I spat out pushing her out of the way running after Andy.

A few minutes of searching for Biersack I finally spotted him between two busses. I glanced over seeing its Asking Alexandria's tour bus and Sleeping With Siren's.

"Andy." He twirled around with tears in his eyes.

"Your dead, its my fault!" He yell practically making me jump.

"I am not, its not, I was in a coma."

"Coma?" He says testing the words. "A coma, so did you lose the capability to send a freaking text message when u woke up!"

"Stop screaming and let me explain okay!"

"No I won't stop screaming because I lost the one I love, she was presume dead, committed suicide, her name is Isabelle Ulrich, this," he points to me shaking his head side to side. "You are not real! Leave me alone. My one and only are dead go to fucking hell!"

Does he not believe me! I run up to him grabbing his face, tears beginning to drip on my hands. "See I am here, live and in the flesh! I can touch you! Feel." I whisper pushing his hand to my chest. "Hear." I sigh heavily "and taste." I brushed my lips to his. Andy shaking from tip to toe. "I am here, I am not dead."

"You don't love me." He says resting his head on me.

"I do, I do love you." I proclaimed.

"Why did you say that to me?"

"Because I know there will never be a 'we' a 'us' a 'together' just a 'you' and just a 'me'. "

"Run away with me than, I can leave the band we can go anywhere you want."

"I am moving to England." I whisper.

"England, great lemme pack my bags." He says all excited. He let's me go but I quickly grab his arm. "I am moving to London, you are staying here."

"You leaving me again?"

"This time I am not dead, just in another country."

"Please don't leave me." He begs going on one knee, what's wrong with him??

"Don't make it harder than it is, I need to say goodbye and I did my part. Its either going to England or be dead. I chose England. So please stand up and look me in the eyes." He pulled himself up but fall down again. I grip my arms around his waist and pulled him up.

"I need to, I want to leave with a clean heart. So let's don't be mad at each other."

"I can't say goodbye." He whimpers.

"Than don't, just say later."

"I can't."

"You can, please."

"I will get you Belle, one way or another even if I have to kill someone." My throat clogged up and with nothing to say to that statement I crash my lips to his one last time, knowing it is the last time.

I released him and walk backwards giving a wave. "See you later Andrew."

"See you later Isabelle." Yet again my heart was break into pieces but I think this time It can not be mend.


~fifteen minutes.~


I sat on the bonnet of my mother's Impala, trying to contain my tears. I could not break the news to Jake, or the other guys so I did the selfish thing and I hid so my mother could speak to them.

"Hi!" My mom yells skipping towards the car.

"How did they take it?"

"We need to go now." She says pointing to the venue. "Jake is searching for you."

I nod and jump of climbing in the car. My mother climbed in pushing the gas pedal making us go like the wind. The sound of ACDC back in black blasted through the speaker but I shut it off.


I love andy. I really do love him. "I can't do this, I need to go back mom."

"You know that's not possible."

"Than tell me how is it possible that I can make my life whole again, whole again with Andy, Jake and everyone!" I bellow.

"I have an idea," she smirks. "But it will take time."

"Mom?" I arch my brow.

"Trust me?"

I nod. "With all my heart."

"One year, I need one year."

"Than what?"


She turned me and grinned. "Oh no." I begin to jump up and down in excitement.
"Baby, get ready for the toughest year of your life."

"If this is what takes to get my life back I will."

"That's what I wanted to hear." She grabs my hand kissing my knuckles.

She smiles and turn up the volume loud.

"Let's start a band Isabelle."

Notes

sorry I as MIA this few days.
I have been submitted in the hospital and still is.
reasons being me trying to kill myself again.
three hours ago I gain consious, being on adrip sux
but yeah I needed to update. tell me what you think
of this chapter. u guys. #bvbarmy is the only thing
that can make me happy the way I am feeling now. thanks to al

love
sharon. (H)