Nothing else matters

"Did you let Jake know I am alive?"

My mom turned to my dad with an anger expression. "No, they think you are dead." my mom mummers.

"Than give me the phone let me call them." I say holding out my hand.

"Maybe you should stay dead, for everyone's sakes."

"What? Oh my god dad why would you say something like that!" I yell stumbling out of bed but to surprise I am to weak.

"Why did you try to kill yourself? Because of Andy. No he will send you back to the grave and I won't allow that."

I scoff grabbing the telephone. "Don't temp me Isabelle Ulrich, I will lock you in a cell." My dad warns.

"Really? You keeping me dead!" Tears sprung in my eyes. "I want to call Jake!"

"No!"

Jake's P.O.V

Been two weeks, two weeks of mourning. Andy is just in his bunk not wanting to come out. I feel his pain we just lose someone so close to us and we are were even welcome at her funeral.

We caught Andy a few days cutting, it was shocking for all of us. He really loved Belle, now he can't say it to her.

Warped tour is here, and to be honest we and PTV are not really in the mood. What I want to do now is climb into my bunk and just sleep. I should've tried harder to let her stay. If I adopted her maybe things would not be like this.

Five shows canceled, five shows because every time Andy performed Love isn't always fair he burst in tears, never the less he burst in tears on every song.

"Are you okay?" I turn to see Andy finally out of his bunk.

I shrug and nod. "Yep."

"Its better to fall asleep and than to disappear." I say to myself tears dripping down my cheeks.

"I can feel her you know, like she is here with us." Andy spoke sitting next to me. "I know she meant a lot to you."

"She was my best friend Andrew, I don't know how to live." I admit.

"At least you know she loved you, Belle did not love me she told me before she left."

I chuckle shaking my head as Jinxx, CC and Ashley crashing on the sofa. "Remember when Belle use to clean, like every single sticky mess?" Jinxx says with a smile.

"Not to mention when she walked into the bathroom seeing Ashley naked, she screamed so hard she fainted." Andy mumbles. We all bust from laughter remembering her face expression.

"Oh my god Ashley, how could you be naked!" Ashley yells.

"What did you say to her?" I ask thinking of Belle's smile.

"Should I was in my clothes? She burst from laughter and begin to cry. Just realizing she saw a man's penis, poor girl."

"Ha! God how I miss her."

"Vic called me, he knows why she did it." CC spoke biting his lower lip.

"Why?" I ask eagerly why my best friend took her own life.

"She really loved you Andy, the phone was in the corner. Photo of you and Juliet with the caption 'the love of my life'"

My face turned red ready to punch Andy. "So its my fault
she's dead?" Andy asks confused.

"Yes." I say crossing my arms.

"No, of course not Andy, Belle was not happy it was just not you why she actually committed suicide."

"I wish I could just hold her one time telling her everything is going to be alright. But no. You ruined it. If you will excuse me I need to sleep my sorrows away." I mumble standing up walking to my bunk.

Belle's P.O.V

"You sure angel?" I turned around and grinned.

"Yes." I smile pushing my now black short hair back. My hair was dyed after the accident and cutted to the length of my shoulders. I removed all my piercing's and got tattooed. I was a new girl. I was someone I did not recognize. I was the real Belle Ulrich.

"Are you sure about this mom?" I ask twirling around.

"I won't tell if you won't. No one really knows what happened to you."

"So?"

"So," she sighs jumping of my bed. "You my dear are going to Warped tour and you are going to see Jake."

"Dad won't know?"

She shook her head side to side kissing my chin. After the accident, well that's what I call it I became afraid of water and became pale as one of that twilight vampires.

"No, and he won't ever going to know, you have to say goodbye to them. And I think its better to do it in person."

"They will freak out!" I laugh nervously.

"Yes they will." She muter's joining in.

"Get ready I will be in the car."

I decided on my red skinny jeans, black converse and my Mitch Lucker shirt. "I am doing this for you Mitch, thank you." I whisper to myself eyeing my reflection the mirror. "Let's live once." I say walking out grabbing my jacket and walked out the door with a huge grin on my face.

~Warped Tour~

"So! Where to first?" My mom asks jumping up and down, yes I am at Warped tour with my mother. Best decision ever. She wearing a black Suicide silence shirt and black shorts with her combat boots. She looks like a eighteen year old and I did not say that, the boys eyeing her is saying it.

"I want to go to Pierce the Veil first." I whisper.

"Okay, let's hit it. You got your VIP pass?" She asks.

"Thanks for this mom." I say waving my pass to and fro.

"Perks of being an Ulrich don't you think?"

I laugh and nod. "Yep."

I show the man the pass and he let us through to the parking lot where the busses stood. "How do I handle this?" I ask my mother.

"Be yourself, hell angel you walked pass Ashley and he did not even notice you."

"Mom, Ashley eyes were red from crying. Do you think its because of me?"

She shrugs and said nothing.

"I will wait for you, gonna take a smoke."

I nod and notice the door is open. I slowly push myself up and walked up the door seeing the guys in a circle.

"God, thank you for yet another year. Thank you for us for being alive. We will do our best and make Belle proud as she watches over us in heaven, amen."

They all said their prayers and turned around. "Hey guys." I whisper.

I removed my glasses and smile. I was expecting yelling, in fact I got tears. "Belle." Vic whispers.

"Can I get a hug?" Tony crash on the sofa closing his eyes tight.

"Its not a dream."

"How?" Vic asks tears in his eyes.

I grin and point to my shirt. "He did."

"Please can I get hug." I beg. They all came in suffocating me, the same when I hugged them when I met them.

"Why the fuck did you not call us!" Tony startle us all.

"Its a long story, I just wanted to come say goodbye."

"Where u going?"

I laugh tapping my finger on my nose. "I love you guys, I can't wait to see you perform, bye." I say kissing Vic on the cheek. "Take care." I took a huge sigh and walked out.

I place my sunglasses back on my face and walked away with a smile on my face.

"How was it?" My mother asks giving me a cup of beer.

"Better, I left them in a daze. So yeah."

"You sure u want to say goodbye?"

"Better for everyone don't you think?"

"No, its not." She admitted.

I turn to my mother confused. "Its better for everyone mom, I really don't want to be the walking dead zombie."

"Sweetie you are not a zombie," she giggles. "You survived death, you were in a coma but you came back, came back to me, your father, to Jake and to-"

"Andrew." I whisper.

"I was going to say barbie dolls and television." I laugh and shook my head.

"Thanks for keeping me calm mom, but now I am here." I whisper eyeing BVB doing a signing. "They look happy."


"You know there is a thing called a mask angel, that over there," she points them. "Are masks, dark deep black masks, hiding their sorrow for their fans, if they don't look happy how would the fans feel. Their personal life is blocked now-"

"Because of me?" I ask tears begin build.


"Because they think your dead, because your father was a dick, because he does not want to see his little girl happy. Now for just once in your life think about yourself, think about what u want and what you want is Andrew Dennis Biersack, you maybe just a random fan girl to them, but remember baby you are a Ulrich, and a Ulrich gets what she wants. So go get em, you gotta risk it to get the biscuit."


"I love you mom."

"I love you too."


I took a huge breath and walked over to them.

I place my CD in front of my best friend, none of them looking up. They are sad I can see it.

"Who should I make it out to?"

"Isabelle Ulrich." I say so they all can hear.

All their heads shot up.

A huge grin on my face spreads. "Hello boys."

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