Nothing else matters

"You want me to choose between you and Andy!" I practically yell at my father with hunger of punching him.

"How can you be so selfish!" I scream with tears in my eyes. "Fine I choose Andy." I snap.

"See what you did Lars!" My mom gritting on her teeth.

"Mr. Ulrich." Andy sighs shaking his head.

"I will go get my stuff." I whisper walking out the dressing room with tears in my eyes. I can not believe my father made me choose!

I packed in my last stuff and sling the bag over my shoulders, I jumped off the bus seeing Jake waiting for me.

"I think this is the part where you help me." I giggle nervously. Jake nodded grabbing my bag.

"Are you sure Bell?"

-no-

"Yes." I mumble following him to the bvb bus.

We walked in the bus just seeing Andy pacing up and down with his head in his hands.

"Andy?" He looked up jogging up to me giving me a huge hug.

"I will give you two some time." Jake says walking to his bunk.

"So about that kiss." I raise brow shaking my head. "What was up with that!" I slap his arm hard.

"Uh instinct." He replied biting on his bottom lip.

"What are you a damn animal going on instinct?" I could not help but laugh.

"I guess." He mummers grabbing my hand. "Are you sure about this?"

-like I said no-

"Yes." I whisper rapping my arms around his neck. "Friends forever, even if you kissed me." I mumble in his neck.

"Yeah." Was all he manage to say, his tone stank of disappointed and sadness.


•a week later•

I have been living on the bus with Black Veil Brides for over a week. Yes they are a mess and yes they are men, what did I expect. For me being a 'germephobe' I always clean up. Its frustrate the guys but oh well, I hate messy, dirty thing.

I haven't heard from my father, nor my mom. It kills me that they just ignored me like that. My god father James sends his love every now and again. I truly missed them, even though I am on my dream, I still want to go home dreaming about one day that I will meet black veil brides and fall deeply in love with Andy. One part of my dream has come true, the other won't. 5 reasons why I will never call Andy Biersack my love.

Number 1- Andrew is 23 me I am 17, he is six years older than me. Its like a bad written book.

Number 2- I may love him, but I am not sure if its love or just infatuation.

Number 3- he is famous I am not.


Number four- he will never see me as his 'girlfriend' he will just see me as a 'fan' who got a lucky break. And to be reasonable with my self is that is so true. And I will never see him as my 'boyfriend' just the guy that saved my 'life.


Number 5- and how can I forget about my father. Even if he forgives me or I am. There will be no future non the less than me having my happy ending and riding off in the sun set with my dark night, and my dark night is a prince saving people with his magic wand, some calls it a microphone I call it a wand.


I want a second chance in life even if its for a week maybe even a day. I just want my life to normal, but what I am doing now? Sitting on a bus with five guys, no that's not normal, that's INSANE. Leaving my family for this, I was either stupid or really smart, either I am fucked, because nothing else matters.

"Hey!" I swiftly turn around seeing Andy with a huge grin on his face. "Dude you gotta stop cleaning."


"Yeah you should stop Belle, imagine you having sex that's gonna be dirty as well." Ashley stated crossing his arms leaning on the doorjamb.

"Seriously?" I ask confuse. Yes I was and is a virgin. I had no idea sex is dirty.

"But its a fun dirty." Andy spoke up eyeing Ashley.

"Yeah fun whatever." Ash chuckles shaking his head side to side.


"Hey Bell interview with Bryan Stars, you wanna join us?" Jake asks kissing my temple wrapping his arm around my waist.

"Uh I think I will pass." I linger picking up a empty can of Monster.

"No passing!" CC yells almost tripping in the entrance of the bus.

"Come on Bell! You are our assistant manager!" Jinxx laughed.

"Since when?" I snap sitting on the sofa.


"Since Jon's wife is pregnant and he had to split." Andy whispers.

No way.

"No way." I say holding up my hands.

"Fine than Ashley is going full frontal." CC groan.

My eyes grew wide. "No! Okay fine I will do it okay!" They all clapped jumping up and down.


I was alone on the bus as BVB went to a meet and greet, after is a interview with Bryan stars. So with that I decided to plug my Iphone in and picked up Jake's guitar and begin to play with the sound of my fathers band, my all time favourite song bleeding me. I close my eyes and let my fingers slide with the strings.


"I am digging my way, I am digging my way to something better, I am pushing to stay with something, Oh!" I played the guitar solo likes its depending on my life tears begin to build up.


The next song was until it sleeps, I began to sing loud and dance up and down or more like jumping. "And the dirt stains so wash until I am clean!" I sang loud twirling around shocked that BVB guys and Bryan stars staring at me.


"Uh?.."

Notes

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