Nothing else matters

Ever since I could remember I always wanted to be a princess, live in a castle throwing parties, having a ball, I came to my senses when I turned seventeen, I was never going to get my castle or my knight in shining prince, this has been the worst birthday ever, and its only 3pm, the first stop was Chicago, sold out concert. I should be excited right?

No you guess wrong, what I want now is a bucket of ice cream and watch old black and white movies with my stuffed Unicorn.

“We are going out for lunch.” My god father says as I lay down in my bunk staring at the blue ceiling. “I just want to die.” I whisper with sadness. “He is a busy man Belle.” James sighs shaking his head. “I know.” I mummer dryly pushing my red hair out of my face, “So lunch?” I shook my head closing my curtain

. “She is really torn up Lars, maybe she really like this guy.” I hear James say to my father. “He is a rock star that’s what they do.” Dad responded. “Can you stop it Lars?” James snaps angrily at dad. I don’t hear a reply, wonder why my dad is so against Andy, maybe he sees him self in Andy, that could be a reasonable explanation. “I don’t like this James, it was your fucked up idea in the first place, if my baby girl gets hurt I am going to rip off you head.” Lars groans. “I don’t want to argue with you now, leave her be, when she is ready she will join us.”

With that the voices fades. What were they talking about? Did Andy forget about me, just like that? After what happened? What did happen? He just said he wanted to ask me on a date but my father scared the shit out of him, did that made him changed his feelings towards me? Oh god what am I talking about, don’t think like that belle.

My phone buzzes seeing it’s a message from Jake, wow okay.

*text conversation*

J- I am so sorry! Happy birthday Bell!

B- Really Jake? I thought you were my friend ):

J- I am ):

B- Than why… you know what? It’s okay my birthday was ruined anyway, and PS; Tell Andy to go fuck a goat!

I shut my phone off, why am I so mad! Why am I so over emotional? I should have known this was going to happen. Rock stars? I am going to stick with nerds or better yet be a damn nun, which would make my father so happy.

As my phone is off I grab my laptop and log into twitter, oh new message. I clicked open to see its from Andy, shit. That ‘fuck a goat’ was pretty harsh.

*Private twitter mesage*

Andybvb- I wrote a song for you.

-What? Wait he wrote a song for me? Is he kidding with me?-

BellUlrichbvb- Okay.

-Okay I know that’s a little bit fucked up, just an okay?-

Andybvb- Are you okay?

-Am I okay? No I am not okay I am pissing myself off now, I am not just mad at you but at myself as well-.

BellUlrichbvb- Yeah I am fine, you wrote a song for me, aww that’s sweet what is it called?


-God, now I remember I am stupid, sarcasm does not work on texting or twitter, shit.-

Andybvb- Love isn’t always fair, I have to go. Have a good day Bell.


~Andybvb has logged off~

“What! Fucking Batman!” I groan throwing the laptop hard on the floor that the screen scattered.

“Oh fuck.” I whisper to myself jumping of the bed cleaning the mess up quickly. “Love isn’t always fair huh Andrew Biersack!” I think I am going nuts with rage, like I said anger management problems. This is just great!

“Uh…” I look up to see Kurt eyeing me with his brow raise. “It fell just off the bed.” “Yeah just fell, get ready Bell, we need to be at the venue in a few hours.” I sigh and nodded leaving the piece of crap laptop on the ground.

What I need now is something to get me high, and I know just the person… Kim.

Notes

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