I was on the way home in the bus, i was crying, i can't see Andy for a long time, and then again i got his number along with CC,Jinxx, Jake and Ashley's i wanted to write to them, i looked in my pucket and coulden't find the piece of paper with their numbers on. Omg no i hope didn't lose it.

I kept on looking after that piece of paper for more than 30 minutes or so, but i never found it, now i was crying alot more than i did before.

At last i stopped looking and turn my mobilen on and started to play Black veil brides song - Lost it all -

"Lost It All"
- I ruled the world.
- With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
- I laid the gods to rest.
- I held the key to the kingdom.
- Lions guarding castle walls.
- Hail the king of death.

- Then I lost it all
- Dead and broken.
- My back's against the wall.
- Cut me open.
- I'm just trying to breathe,
- Just trying to figure it out
- Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
- I said, "Then I lost it all."
- And who can save me now?

- I stood above
- Another war,
- Another jewel upon the crown.
- I was the fear of man.
- But I was blind.
- I couldn't see the world there right in front of me.
- But now...I can... (Yeah)

- 'Cause I lost it all
- Dead and broken.
- My back's against the wall.
- Cut me open.
- I'm just trying to breathe,
- Just trying to figure it out
- Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
- I said, "Then I lost it all."
- And who can save me now?

- (Oh)

- I believe that we all fall down sometimes (Oh)
- Can't you see (can't you see) that we all fall down sometimes? (Oh, yeah, oh, yeah)

- I believe that we all fall down sometimes (Oh)
- (Can't you see) Can't you see that we all fall down sometimes? (Yeah, we all, yeah, we all fall down)
- Yeah

- I believe that we all fall down sometimes
- Yeah
I coulden't stop crying, the song was so close of what have happend with the paper, i finally fell asleep after som time, the next thing i knew was.. I was home again, i got off the bus and said goodbye to my classmates. i started to walk home, i lived about 40 minutes away, but when i got back to my apartment, i jumped into bed and began thinking.. - What can i do now, i don't have their numbers anymore- i got up and walked towards my laptop..

I opened twitter and remebered that if i wrote to them there, they might see that it's me and give me the numbers again..


- 6 months later -

Nothing happened, they never wrote back..
I was begining to think that they may have forgotten me, og even worse hate me!.. Noo no i don,t think that they would hate me, or did they?

at the following day i got a phone call, it was the police " Hello are you miss Sabine Schytz" i said " Yes, what is this about?" and then he said " I'm so sorry to inform you that, you familie has been killed in a fire" i began to cry, my tears were rolling down my cheeks, i was in shock but i got back on the phone with a hoarse voice " W-who fr-r-om m-y-y fa-m-i-il-i-e-e di-e-e-d" the policeman said " your Mom,stepdad,your to sisters, and also your grandparents" i had lost all the people i loved, now i didn't have any familie at all, sins my dad is dead along with his parents and brother.

After some silence again the policeman said " Do you need help, to make a funeral?" i said " no i will cope by myself but thanks anyway" i hung up. I sat in the cornor of the livingroom all shocked and crying, i was about to break down, when i got a text from my best friend.

Tenna - Hi i heared what happened, are u okay ;(
Me - No i can't belive i just lost, the rest of my familie ;'(
Tenna - Do u need me, i will get to you now sweetie? ;(
Me - No i'll cope, but thanks anyway.. I just need to be alone right now.. ;'(
Tenna - Okay just text me if you want me to visit u, promise me that.. ;(
Me - i will..

I throw my phone into the pillow, and took my hands up to my face and began crying even more, what am i gonna do, i lost my familie and i can't contact Andy or CC, i needed them the most right now.. i kept crying to i fell asleep.

- A week later -

I stood with my arms covered in blood.. i had begone to cut myself again, my mind was gone and my life, was not worth living for anymore, i just wanted to die!..
I fainted, and when i woke up again, i was laying in a hospital, my wrist were covered with plaster.
Why didn't i die, why.. my live was meaningless to me right now..

- 2 days later -

Still laying in the hospital bed, my mood was still the same, the door opened and Tenna walked in saying " How are you feeling?" " I'm good thanks" i said quietly. she smiled and then said " I have some good news for you" What could be good news for me now, that my familie rised frome the dead.. " What's the good news?" she smiled again " Well i got in contact with Andy and the boys.. They are on their way to Denmark right now.." "i told them what happened and Andy said that he would rush over here right away!" I began to smile, when was the last time i smiled, not sins my familie was killed.

After Tenna left the room i began to feel like i could live again, If Andy was coming, i would rather live than never to see he's face again.. I began to get my good mood back again, Tenna was the most loveing person ever, i got to se the boy i loved and, my best friends again, i could not wait..

I walked from my room to outside, and i wanted to smoke, i was happy, more than i have been lately. while i smoked i began to think about how it would be to be together with Andy again.

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What happens when Andy arrives? And will her life began to turn to the better? Find out in next chapter..

Notes

Sorry it's a bit sad, but the chapter made me cry ;/ But next chapter will be a happy one belive me ^^,