Amber's POV
I was still on my bed, looking stupidly at the closed door. 'Yes I trust you Jack, it's just that it hurt even more to talk about it.'
How... How could he be so nice? So nice when his heart was broken, the one he love was already dead! I felt like an ass for telling him such stupid things! How could he smile, laugh and care for me that much when he had been broken?When he is broken? How? How? HOW?
I felt asleep with those “how” in my mind. I had a bad night, filled with nightmares... Of course about Andy. But also about my chlidhood.

At the morning I was almost as tired as if I did'nt sleep at all. But I was still thinking about Jack's story. He was so nice with me, always wanting to protect me. I suddenly felt the need of talking to him. Yeah, I will tell him about my story...

I get out of bed and run out of my room, then called him again and again until I finaly found him. He looked up at me, gently smiled then said:
“Hi Angel, how are you?
-Hu... Hey Jack! I'm fine... Hu... can we talk a bit?”
He looked at me quite surprised then nodded and silently followed me to my room.

I did'nt know how to start, if I should start but he was looking really confused. He asked me softly:
“What is happening Amber? Is there something wrong?
-No.. Yes.. Wait, let me try to put my thought in order then...
-Are you sure you want to talk about it?” he cutted me, I looked at him shocked. It means that he already knew?

“No, I don't. If I did I don't think I would ask about it... There are some things that I can't read in your mind. It's like if they were locked in a box... I can feel there are somethings but I don't know what. And know you are slowly opening this box.” he replied, as if I asked it loud.

“I feel the need of talking about it, I know I should but it's so hard...
-Take your time then, I'm here listening. If it's not for now it will be later.” he said so nicely I felt tears forming in my eyes. It seems like I finally found the big brother I always wanted...

“When I was a kid I was really ugly and shy, I wore huge glasses and I was fat. I was the “fatty fatty”, I was always alone because of my shyness.The other children were always looking at me weirdly, saying bad things about me. They use to tell me that I was so fat I should take care not to break chairs and some hurtful things. Then I got skinnier and prettier, but still I was alone. Everybody knew me as “fatty fatty” even if I was'nt fat anymore. I hated them all so much, but in the same time I was jealous of them: they actually had friends! When I get to teenage year, I started to listen to music. But my music was different of their, as I was. I started to dye my hair, wear black make up. They started to bully me.”

I could still remember their face, laughing while kicking me. They liked to send stones on me, to make me fall...

“I was alone, feeling like nobody cares, feeling like if I was dead it would be the same for everyone... It would even be better! I tried two time, but I failed at suicide too. I was so useless, good for nothing. Most of the time I was'nt able to do simple things, I was such a failure! I started to believe in their lies, at least maybe I was just the 'sutip emo freak'.”

Jack pulled me in a hug then started to rock me softly. He did'nt say a word, letting me finish.

“But in this living hell I found a friend, Gracie, someone who actually seems to care. She was always there for me and fighting for me. She was always happy, smiling... And step by step I felt better. I achieve to tell my parents about my problems. They reacted, they cared... I was wrong, there were actually three persons caring for me! It was way better than nothing!
I was'nt scared to go to school anymore, I was feeling fine, I was smiling, Gracie was there. Well, I was happy! So much better that I started to succeed at school, to succeed in life!”

I smiled at this thought, I was happy at this moment of my life.

“But then, my Gracie passed out, she had a rare cancer, doctors did'nt know what to do. She stayed two months in hospital before she... I fell in depression, my parents were worried, they wanted to help. But I did'nt want to let them. I finished my last year of high school, passed the exam in memory of my best and only friend. But this time, after meeting the feeling of Happiness, I did'nt want to kill myself. No! I wanted to be happy. So I get closer to my mum, she was so happy of that and helped a lot. I found BVB and some other bands, their lirycs were helping me to resist to the call of suicide. Each night I was crying, and I'm still crying thinking about my friend, my only one friend that was dead. But each morning I swear to myself that 'today wont be the last', I think it's at this moment I fell in love with Andy. Knowing that he went through this hell too and won was helping me. Way more than his cute face. Because I knew that a cute person out are not necessary cute in...”

I don't know how and why, but talking about it felt like a weight was taking away from my heart.

“I never cared about the fact he was in a relationship: first because there was no way in hell I could have met him and even so he would never had fallen for me. And second because he seemed to be so happy with his girlfriend that it actually made me happy. This girl -whoever she was- must be exeptionnal and amazing! Well, if he fell for her...
Then one night you talked to me, I knew you were coming in my room a long time ago. I've made some weird dreams about it, and sometime I could feel you." I smiled at him.
"Otherwise, yesterday I over-reacted on Andy... I know he is worried and all but I just can't tell him. I love him, I don't want to see him sad. I know you can understand.”

I hugged him tighly, my 'big brother'! Always here for me, caring.

“Thank you Jack!
-You welcome... Even if I don't konw why” he replied laughing, “And thank you Angel, for trusting me enough to talk about your past. You're not alone anymore now, I'll always be there for you.”

Then he leaved my room, I fell asleep because of my bad night. Now I have the feeling that there wont be nightmares anymore. I have two 'families': the vampire one, and FIR. I have people that care about be, believe in me and make me feel happy.

I spend the next day hunting and working on my powers, as I did'nt have to sing or anything. I was still a bit sad and sorry about Andy, but what's done is done. I can't change the past. In a certain way I prefer him to be angry against me than worried... Or sad.

In the beginning of the night, I heard a knock upon my room's door. It was mum:
“Hi sweatheart, there is someone for you!
-What? Someone for me?
-Yes, he is waiting for you in the lounge”
He? I wonder to myself as I went out of my room. I exepted it to be Ronnie or any other FIR's member because they are the only one who know my adress. When I arrived at the lounge's entry I felt a mix of feeling in my heart: love, sorrow, fear, panic... When I saw him. Here was Andy, waiting for me. I thought about running away, as he had'nt saw me yet but my body did'nt want to move. I felt tears forming in my eyes when he turned his emotionless face to me.

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