Finding Help

After letting Andy convince me it would me okay we packed up all our belongings, I packed Jake's too. I wanted to cry but nothing would come out after all my years of repressing tears. As a child I convinced myself it was a girl thing and that no one deserved my tears especially since I was a tomboy. CC called in a bellboy to help me with Jake's and I's bags. I walked to the bus and into the bus like a Zombie. After realizing I was going to be on stage in just a few hours I began to get really worried and really scared. not that you could tell because I was insanely calm in the outside. Some how that is how I functioned. Mom always told me that was weird about how I never showed my emotions. I called Jake's phone again and again no answer. I had wondered if since he was with fangirls if he was okay. There's no reason for them to hurt him if he is okay right? I mean in less they are into dominatrix. But what if they didn't take his phone? He better not be ignoring my calls, I'd be so pissed since I have to be the one to take his spot. God I don't people to know who I am, why did I ever agree top ever come on this tour?

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