Finding Help

Life isn’t easy but Jake always helped. My Uncle Jake was more like a brother, he was able to get over his weight problem and insecurities that he now feels like he can help me through everything. My parents were never the greatest, with all the fighting, but he really helped me through it. He was always different to wearing black and leather all the time but he was not the reason I wore black. I am my own person, that he taught me that. But now he is touring with his friends. We were born in love with music but his dreams really took off when he got with Black Veil Brides.

I love the way he told me, he gave me his phone to listen to a song and in seconds I was screaming “I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!” he smiled an excited smile and asked why I liked it so much and I told him:

“Dude they have amazing sound, I mean the drums are bitchin’ the guitarists have major strength and sound like they are just tearing it up, and dude the singer his voice oh my god! Dude the message in the song was so positive.” I told him almost fangirling over a band I didn’t even know.

“Dude that’s the band I’m apart of now!” he freaked out happy that I loved it.
“Well what is the band name?” I had asked.
“We are the Black Veil Brides” He said in a malicious dark voice. It sent chills down my spine.
“Oh how intriguing.” From that moment I was in love but right now I’m in a dark place. Its spring break and I’m at home with my parents. Jake is in Europe and living the rock star life style probably not even thinking about me. I miss him so much and while he sleeps all day or busy with fans or managers I’m at school and while he is partying I’m at home wishing I had someone to talk to.
I had started cutting back when I was in eighth grade and it felt great to have a release. It feels greater than smoking and I love smoking, but my parents found out about it and they got angry but Jake was scared and he made me feel better so I quit for a little while. Every once in a while I would start back up but Jake made me feel better. He is now know where to be found so I let the blood flow free my like my adventurous spirit. As soon as I’m done I have a cigarette I have stolen from my dad. I run my fingers over the eleven lines on my arm.

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