I love you more than I could ever scream

Jinxs pov*
When I woke up Jake was sitting at the edge of my bed nodding off.
I didnt want to half wake him?
So I just laid there. Thinking about what happened with me Andy and Ashley.
Fuck, I hate Ashley.
Why cant Andy love me like I love him?
I started to cry. I fell so hard for him its unbelievable.

Jakes pov*
I woke up to Jinx crying.
I guess you could say "woke up,'' considering I wasnt really sleeping, or wasnt really awake either.
I layed down next to him and just held him.It was a little awkward but neither of us said anything. I didnt know what to do to make him feel any better. I knew what happened.
Absolutely nothing i could do.
He cried himself to sleep.
I grabbed his wrist and softly kissed his cuts, knowing it wasnt going to do anything since he was sleeping. But I did it anyway.
How could somebody hurt someone so much it caused them to hurt themselves?
I guess Id never understand why anyone did it.
I didnt know what I was feeling. Did I love Jinx? Or was it just pity?
I fell asleep holding him.
When I woke up Jinx was still sleeping.
It was 8 at night, so I woke him up.
When he woke up he just stared at me, not in a bad way.
And he just smiled.
"Thank you Jake.." He whispered, "when you kissed my cuts, i wasnt sleeping.
I got so embaressed.
"Jinx... listen, im-
He cut me off. He hugged me. As tight as anyone could ever hug someone.
I might be over exaggerating a bit.
I hugged him back but even tighter.
How could Andy hurt him like this? Especially for that douche Ashley.

*next day, still Jakes pov*
When I woke up and went into the living room,
what I saw was just unreal.
I saw Ashley dry humping some whore.
I didnt feel bad for Andy for him hurting Jinx like he did.
Well maybe a little,
because I pulled Ashley off of that girl.
I threw him up against the wall and punched him over and over again.
That bitch, all she did was scream.
I didnt care. I just beat the shit out of Ashley.
Jinx came running in and pulled me off Ashley,
there was blood all over him.
I smiled,
Jinx took him to the hospital, when they got back, I found out all I did was break his nose and give him a black eye. I was a little disappointed.
I told Andy everything too, he was staring at me like i was some kind of monster.
Like I was the one who was cheating on him.

*Andys pov*
I stared at Jake in awe.
What was I suppose to do? Thank him?
Maybe that would of been a good idea..
But I brushed it off.
I walked into Jinxs room. I pulled him to me and I kissed him, hard.
Jinx pushed me away from him and just walked out of the room, "what the fuck?''
I followed him and yelled "what the fuck Jinx?''
He stopped dead in his tracks, turned around and calmly said "You dont understand Andy. I love you to death and would do anything for you," He started getting louder "but you fucking come to for your little sex doll because Ashley cheated on you!"
And with that he walked away.
Well.... that hurt, I thought to myself.
Is this how I make him feel? I felt horrible.
Now I cant do anything about it. I laid down and just cried. And couldnt stop.
Than Ashley walked in. He had a sympathetic look on his face.
He sat next to me and hugged me, I didnt do anything. He hurt me too much.
Then he started kissing my neck then biting it. My heart started pounding.
I pulled him on top of me and started kissing him. I couldnt stop, I was in love with him and couldnt resist him.
He started running his fingers up and down my sides, it gave me the chills.
He grabbed my hips and moved them in circles.
But of course.
Jinx comes in.
Fuck.
We were in Jinxs room.
We met eyes and in his, there was so much pain and disappointed.
"Finally he walked in" Ashley said nd smiled and walked out of the room.
I laid there.
Not doing anything, my heart snapped in half. Now I know what I do to Jinx. Why do I keep going back to Ashley?
I walked to the kitchen. Jinkx wrapped his arms around me and whispered " No matter how much you hurt me Andy, I will always love you."
I didnt know what to say, so I stayed quiet.
I dont love him like he loves me. I love Ashley.
He started to softly cry. I think he didnt want me to notice. But I did.
I dont know why, but I said I love him too.
Well, I just screwed myself over.

Notes

Idk, I just feel crappy, sorry if this is depressing and short or whatever .___.