The Unwanted

We went into my living room and Ashley sat down on the couch as i got a took a new shirt from the pile of cloths that were on the chair next to the T.V. I Took off my shirt forgetting that Ashley was there watching the whole time. I dropped my shirt on the floor and looked at him. His eyes were open wide and he just stared. once he noticed that i looked at him he quickly looked down at the ground and started whistling.

I put on the clean shirt and went to the bathroom. I washed my face off to clean the blood that was still on my face. I went back to the living room and noticed that Ashley wasn't on the couch anymore. "Ashley?" I looked at the piano and saw him looking at all of the pictures that were on it. He held my picture in his hand and smiled. He put up the picture next to my face looked at both and nodded. "Yup you look better in person." His face became confused as he set the picture back on the piano. " I looked through every picture of yours and in the 5 recent ones you don't smile anymore. Why?" He grabbed my hand and pulled me to the couch.

"I just don't, i mean why should i? Ever since sixth grade I finally understood everything. I understood why i couldn't see my mom anymore I finally understood why i wasn't treated the same as my other siblings. I was different. "I just have no reason to anymore." i gave a fake smile and looked down at my lap. Ashley put his left hand in mine and pulled my chin up with his right. "You do now." he said as he kissed my lips. The warmth flowed through my body as i felt like life had just entered me again. He put his hand across my cheek and continued to kiss me. I felt as if my body had been covered in a warm blanket.

Ashley loosened his grip and pulled looked down at the ground. "I'm sorry i didn't mean to do that...... Well i did but i don't want you tho think that all i want is well you know." he stood up and walked over to the window and stared outside. I walked over to him and grabbed his shoulder. "You shouldn't be sorry...... that thought never entered into my mind." i walked over to the couch and sat down. Ashley sat beside me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. "I know we just met today and i know that i don't know you well and you don't know me that well but would you wanna like date?" He faced me and smiled.

I wanted to but then at the same time i was afraid. I didn't want to mess up like i have allot. I also was afraid that once he got to know me that he would dislike what he saw in me and want to leave. "I.....I don't know. I mean i really want to but i'm afraid that once you get to know me that you will not like what you see. I also don't want to mess up or hurt you." i stood up and walked to the window and moved the curtain and looked outside. I felt him grab my shoulders making me jump. He turned me to face him and he rolled his eyes. "That wont happen,.....I promise. I already like what see in you why would you think that that would change."

I smiled and giggled. I haven't been so afraid but so happy at the same time ever before and now I will finally know i am worth something. I grabbed his hands and smiled. "Yes i will...... but i am not perfect." He smiled at me and pulled me close to him making our bodies touch. "Neither am I."

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