Redemption

I was scared. My heart was pounding and I couldn't seem to focus. "Alesana.... You okay?" Sammi asked as we were walking into the arena where Warped Tour was. "I just can't believe youre making me go see Black Veil Brides" I stated bluntly. She sighed "You know I'm dating Jinxx its not because of Andy" I shuddered at the mention of his name. Memories of him were bittersweet.

*Flashback*

Andy and I had been dating for several months and I was happy, but one day I got a call. "Hey Ales." Jinxx came over the line. "Oh hey! What's up? I'm not with Sammi if that's what you're wondering." Jinxx sounded like he was hesitating and I started to get worried. "Uhh no I actually called for you.....you see there's something I need to tell you." I remained quiet too scared to ask what it was. Jinxx continued on "Last night there was a party and well things got a little out of hand." He paused. "Yeah?" I questioned hoping for the best. "Well Andy got.....REALLY drunk. I mean complete shitfaced... and well I saw him kiss a girl and it wasnt just a peck on the lips."

I immediately dropped my phone causing it to shatter to pieces but I didnt care. My phone was nothing compared to my heart. I had spent the next few months just doing the bare necessities. I had quit seeing my friends and never went out besides to get groceries and work at the hospital where i was a nurse. I didnt even bother to get a new phone, until one day I told myself I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. So that morning I woke up took a shower and headed out to the world I havent encountered in what seemed like an eternity. Today was gonna be a day for myself. I decided first I was going to get a new phone after all I had went without one for 3 months now... so I stopped by verizon and decided to get the latest and greatest... the iphone. Next step I called Sammi and she was so happy that I was out of the house. I told her to meet me at the local salon and that it was going to be my treat.

About 20 minutes later I pulled into the parking lot of the salon and saw Sammi's black BMW with the license plate JINXXEDOLL (A/N idk i just made that up for no reason at all) I walked into the salon only to be tackled by Sammi. "I thought you were never going to get out of the house" she practically screamed in my ear. We spent the rest of the morning catching up on things. For one she told me that her and Jinxx are engaged and that I was to be the Maid of Honor. She also told me how she was very sorry to hear what happened and that she didnt understand why she couldnt get a hold of me on my phone. "My phone shattered to pieces because I dropped it and I never bothered to get a new one." I stated as a matter of factly. She just nodded and smiled. "Well I'm glad youre better now. Wait... you are better now right?" she questioned. "Well I'm better....." but I didnt get to finish my sentence because she had cut me off. "Great! So since you paid for this do you want to go to Warped Tour tomorrow?!" she now had her best puppy face on. "Depends. Whos playing?" she ran through a list of bands really quick but I caught the one I knew she was hididng from me. I heard the name Black Veil Brides escape from her lips and I started shaking my head uncontrollably. "No. No way. Not gonna happen." I exclaimed not wanting to hear anything else she had to say. "But I want you to go and I want to watch Jinxx" was all I heard before I angrily started walking to my car. "Who put you up to this huh? Andy?!" I was shouting now and I was beginning to scare myself. "No, no. You just said you were better so I figured you could atleast come watch with me....." she grew quiet and her voice sounded so small "I guess I'll go by myself, but I already paid for our tickets."

My mind was racing. I didnt know whether I should just go and suck it up to be with my best friend and watch her fiancee or stick to my guns and stay away from the guy who broke my heart. "Fine" I said just as quietly as her plead for me to go. "Really!" She shreiked and yet again tackled me into a giant hug. "Only for the other bands and not because of Black Veil Brides" I stated. Before I knew it the night had flown by and we were inside the arena for Warped Tour.

*Present*

Black Veil Brides were setting up for their act and I was beginning to become more and more uncomfortable. Sammi and I were front row and in the center. CC came out to set up his drums. He looked directly at me and wide smile appeared on his face. He gave me a wink and headed back behind the stage and where I pressumed he was telling everyone I was there. A few minutes later Guitar riffs sang out into the crowd and I knew it was almost time for the show. Ashley, Jinxx, and Jake all came on stage. Jinxx blew a kiss at Sammi and his eyes practically bugged out of his head when he noticed I was there too. I could tell he was in complete shock. They began the intro to a song I havent heard before and Andy came running out onto stage. "Whats up motherfuckers!?!" he screamed. Oh God. He had changed so much since the last time I saw him. His hair was now short and he wore less makeup than he used to. Instead he had a black and white line go across his cheeks and nose and had a grey smokey eye. My knees were growing weak. It had only been 3 months since I had last seen him and I felt like he was a completely different man. A man that I still loved. I reached my hand out and grabbed onto Sammi. I needed something to keep me standing upright. She looked at me with a concerned face but didnt say anything and I didnt either.

Andy began singing and his voice sounded sexy as ever. Why am I thinking like this?! I felt like I had gone insane. Andy tripped over a word and I realized its because he spotted me. We stared at each other for quite sometime. Eventually I felt like his eyes were sucking out my soul and I had to look away. "This next song is called God Bless You"

The lyrics echoed in my head " You left me with these broken lies and I let you. Got no more time for your goodbyes so God bless you"

"You always want the one that you can't have
Cause love isn't always fair
You are the best romance I've never had
Cause love isn't always fair"

"I never meant to be the one who kept you from the dark
But now I know my wounds are sewn because of who you are
I will take this burden on and become the holy one
But remember I am human and I'm bound to sing this song"

All songs he seemed to focus on me more than the crowd behind me. At first I thought it was my imagination but soon realized that Sammi saw it too. I had no idea what to do. Should I talk to him after the show? My head was saying no but my heart was screaming do it.

In only a blink of an eye the show was over. We were about to leave when we heard a security guard calling "Miss! 'Scuse me, Miss! Come back!" We turned around thinking he wanted Sammi to go back stage and see Jinxx. "Are you Ales?" he questioned looking at us both. I froze. Why did he want me. I was not going back there. My head already told me no and that was what I was listening to. "She is" Sammi stated. My face dropped. She just gave me away! The man grabbed hold of my arm and dragged me through the crowd. I looked back at Sammi to see her yelling and waving me to go on that she would catch up. I gave up struggling and let him take me to where ever it was he wanted to. "Here we are Miss" was all he said before he left me in a dark hot hallway.

Where the hell was I? This was backstage? I tried opening some of the doors but they were all locked. I was starting to panic. I came to the last door and read the name "ANDREW BIERSACK" in big black letters. My hand touched the door knob and it seemed as if everything had stopped.

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