Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly,
Early Summer
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet


Andy wiped at his eyes as the van bumped down the road and he could only focus on the scenery as it passed them by. It had been ten days, two hours and forty minutes since he buried Lily and still it felt like he was dying on the inside. He had his buds in his ears, the wire curling around his clenched fingers and as he looked down, Andy realized that this was the same iPod that had started everything. The same one that had been taken down to Hell and the very one that had connected he and Lily. It broke his heart to see it sitting there when she wasn't, but he couldn't help but smile as he pressed the replay button and shut hit eyes.

Morningstar by AFI was constantly playing in his head, it had been their song and the first song Andy had sung along to with Lily. Listening to it now and trying not to look back at the very back seat of the van was hard, harder than he thought it would be, but Andy couldn't feel that pain right now. All of the other guys, besides CC who was driving, were sleeping and he could even hear Jinxx's snoring through his music. Andy was glad that no one was paying attention him because he didn't want them knowing he was still a complete mess. They were trying to tour for their new album, which was going to come out in less than a month and yet Andy felt like something was missing.

Lavender eyes haunted his closed blue ones and even when Andy opened his eyes he could still feel as if Lily was with him. Maybe she was? Maybe she would always be with him, but then again that wasn't good enough. Andy wanted to hit something-he had never gotten to do the things with Lily that he had wanted to do and a lot of those things had been intimate and he had been unaware of how important they were. Ash kept telling him to move on-there were plenty of girls out there who would want Andy, but the singer only wanted one girl and she wasn't alive anymore.


"You okay back there man?" A voice called out to him and Andy quickly removed a bud from one of his ears and noticed that CC was talking to him.

"Y-yeah..." Andy said as he straightened up and looked up to see that CC was looking back at him through the rearview mirror.

"No you're not." The drummer said and Andy said nothing as he burst into tears. Quickly the van pulled over and as they came to a stop Andy noticed that CC was now completely turned around in his seat.

"You're allowed to miss her man...no one's going to judge you." Oh but they would...everyone would eventually.



Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight


Andy looked at the Angel in front of him and wasn't sure how he was supposed to feel.


“Explain what? Why you took the love of my life from me? Because the only question I have is…why her?” He grew sad-all of the fight had left his heart and Andy had been left a shell of the person he had once been.

“She was never meant to live the first time Andy-this is why I have been sent…to explain to you what your new destiny is and what Lily’s always has been.” Uriel looked at him, her lavender eyes sad as she folded her hands across her lap but remained sitting. Andy only stood where he was, his arms still crossed over his chest as he cocked an eyebrow.

“So…explain.” He said simply and Uriel only smiled gently as she locked eyes with him. Everything in the world seemed to stop-the wind, time and even his heart beat seemed to slow down as Andy prepared himself for what he was about to hear.


What could this Angel possibly tell him about his destiny? That he didn’t have one anymore because with Lily’s death he already knew that. Andy had no purpose anymore-he had the band and the fans, but what were all of those things without the one person in his life who understood him? Lily had been there-she had pushed him to his breaking point and all the while he still remained hopelessly in love with her. She had left him and now he didn’t know how to live without her.

They had been working on the album, but even something that he used to love doing so much left a bad taste in his mouth. He could hardly sing Mortician’s Daughter any more, or Carolyn and forget singing Knives and Pens. No-anything that reminded him of Lily he had completely gotten rid of in his life. Silently he stood there, listening as the Angel Uriel began to speak.


“Lily was created based on a prophecy that our Lord became aware of at the time of your birth. He heard of a Half Demon-Half Human baby being born on Earth, but that he had been whisked away from his mother and taken down to Hell. That baby was destined to be the world’s undoing. He would be trained to be the fiercest fighter and when the time was right he would be given the throne to Hell-passed down from his father Satan…you.” Andy looked on with wide eyes, his mouth slightly open as he continued to listen.

“Lily was born in Heaven-an Angel. She was sent to Earth as a baby and was given the hardships in her life so that she would eventually join you in Hell. She was made to be your complete opposite and she was created to bring you to Earth. Our Lord has a plan for you Andy-a destiny and Lily was sent to you to help fulfill that destiny.” Andy was in shock. Lily-his Lily-had been an Angel all along and she had been given a terrible life and sent like a lamb to the slaughter to Hell so that he would fall for her, save her and return to Earth.



Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?


They were both naked, ready and as Andy held himself above her he could only smile as he looked in to her eyes. She was ready-they both were and although he wasn’t exactly sure what he was doing Andy knew that he just had to go for it. He kissed her lips, softer this time as he pressed against her and he stopped suddenly as he felt her wince. He looked down in to those mesmerizing eyes of hers and he saw that while she was in slight pain, she was looking at him as if to say, ‘what are you waiting for?’

Andy only smirked as he pressed his lips against hers once again and pressed into her further. Her arms wrapped around his neck, her black finger nails scratching against his back and Andy let out a low moan as he pushed fully into her and then held still. Lily seemed to be okay and with a quick look into her eyes, Andy knew that she was absolutely fine. What he was feeling in that moment was incredible and suddenly he understood Ashley’s passion for women and their many talents.

They were slow to start at first-Andy didn’t want to hurt Lily any more than he already had, but soon enough she was meeting his hips with hers. He looked down, his hair sticking to his forehead from sweat, but all Andy could see in that moment was Lily. This was it-they were finally expressing how they felt for one another physically. The clung to one another, their breathing heavy as they felt their passions over take them and soon enough Andy felt his eyes shut, his head fall back and he smiled as he let go.

He let go of everything-his hate, his anger, his sadness. Nothing mattered in that moment other than the girl in his arms. Lily shuddered against him, moaning lowly as her lips grazed over his chest and she kissed his skin. Andy only continued to smile as he came to rest against her heaving chest, his hair sticking to her sweaty skin as she ran her fingers over his scalp gently.


“I love you…so much right now that I can hardly breathe…” Andy said against her skin as he moved so that he was looking into her eyes.

“I love you too…I never thought this was possible…” She smiled at him gently as she continued to rub her fingers over his scalp.

“Can we be together forever? Do humans have a forever?” Andy asked, his voice childlike and Lily could only smile at she looked into his wide blue eyes.

“No-humans don’t have a forever. You should know that Andy…look at your past.” She said, her voice growing soft at the end as she noticed that his eyes had grown dark. His fingers were running cool trails over her hips and her stomach and Lily felt herself shiver under his soft and loving touch.


Even if they didn't have a forever...this was the only forever he would ever need.



Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight


Andy looked at Lily as she laid there in his arms as she slept and he couldn't believe how lucky he had gotten. Lily had left him-had been taken away from him and yet here she was-sleeping in his tattooed arms once again. How could someone be so perfect? How could someone be so amazing? Andy felt her stirring beneath him and he knew she was beginning to wake up-even though she hadn't really been asleep. Angel's didn't sleep-not really, but they recharged themselves and that was as close as they were going to get. Finally Andy noticed that her lavender eyes had popped open and she was staring up at him through her long thick eyelashes.


"What time is it?" She asked, her voice groggy from her time spent deep in meditation and Andy only smiled as he placed a soft kiss against her skin.

"Just a little after 2 am." Andy said as he ran a hand through her soft blonde hair. Lily only smiled as she curled into his chest, her knees pressing in to his side and Andy chuckled. This is how they used to lay together in the van-mostly because there was very little room on those narrow benches.

"Shouldn't you be asleep?" She asked him, her voice slightly muffled by his shirt and her hair, which had fallen in front of her face.

"I should, but I never do sleep very well." Andy admitted with a frown. He hadn't been able to sleep since Lily had come back to Earth because every time he did sleep he woke up in a cold sweat, scared that she had left him again.

"You know I can help you with that..." She said as she sat up and began to rub her hands together. Andy only smiled and placed his hands over hers, holding on to them tightly.

"No need. I like staying up with you...I've missed you." He admitted and Lily only smiled as she tucked some hair behind on ear and looked at him. She had missed him as well, something she hadn't been able to admit until getting her ability to feel back.

"You're impossible."

"You love me." He smirked at her and Lily cleared her throat. She had her feelings back, but love wasn't one that she was just going to throw around lightly like it was nothing.

"I was made that way..."


Andy smiled softly as Lily laid back down in his arms and they both lapsed back into a comfortable silence. She was back in his life...back where she had always been meant to be.



Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight


“Why not?” Lily asked as she moved her hips slightly and Andy had to hold in his groan. She was teasing him-she had to be.

“Well I mean you’ve been scaring the shit out of me the past few months-telling me if we ever give in to that passion that I’ve got a one way ticket to Hell and your wings are going to be ripped out of their sockets. For one…” He laughed and Lily only smiled down at him as she leaned down and pressed her lips against his.

“I don’t care about any of that right now…I only care about you.” She whispered, her lips still against his as she smiled and bit down on his lip ring. Andy groaned and with as much strength as he could muster, he pushed Lily away.

“Yeah, but I care too and I don’t want to get you in trouble.” Andy said and Lily only looked down at him, sighing heavily as she sat up a little bit more. Her shirt had ridden up her stomach and Andy wanted to reach out and run his fingers right across where the waist band of her jeans met her skin.

“It’s just one night Andy-just tonight I want us to be together…lets be human together.” Lily’s eyes were filled with a childlike glee that he hadn’t seen since she was human and he found it infectious.

“Just tonight? That’s all I’m good for?” He asked, half kidding but he couldn’t help but feel slightly hurt. Was she just using him? Was this just some game to Lily at this point?

“It has to be only for tonight…I want more, but I don’t think there can ever be anything more for us. Can we just have tonight…please?” Lily asked, her bottom lip sticking out and Andy only smiled softly as he looked up at her.

She looked so perfect sitting on top of him-almost like she had never left. Andy had missed this-he had missed her and Lily knew it. She had watched him, she had heard him cry out for her at night and he knew she had seen him wake in the mornings-tears running down his cheeks as he looked around for her. She had come back to him, hatred filling her heart but not because she wanted to feel that way and Andy knew that it was only a matter of time before she came back to him entirely.

Now here they were, in her bunk with the curtain closed and everyone else on the bus was fast asleep-no one would know. It would only be for this one night, which made Andy sad to think about, but one night with Lily was worth the pain…it was worth everything.


“I love you.” He said before Andy reached for Lily’s face and brought her lips crashing down to his.



Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight


“I-I never meant any of it Lily…none of it. I love you…I will always love you.” Andy said, coughing and Lily cringed as blood dribbled down his chin. She grasped his hand and as she looked down in to those eyes, Lily knew there were only two things for her to do in this situation.

“Hey...Andy look at me. It’s okay…I forgive you. I see now what you were doing and it’s okay…” Lily said and as Andy smiled up at her, she could tell they were running out of time. Suddenly the door burst open and people began to flood around them. Michael-battle worn and tired looking-came to her side and Lily cried out as he put a strong arm around her shoulders.

She knew what she had to do…

“Andy, Andy listen to me. I can help you-I can heal you and make you whole again, but there’s a catch.” Lily said and Andy’s eyes grew wide as he looked up at her. Lily sighed, her tears falling down her cheeks as she locked eyes with him.

“If I heal you…you will become human. That means you would lose all of your memories of me and this war. You’ll just be Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides…no longer a Demon fighting his way through life.” Lily said and Andy grumbled, clearing his throat so that he could speak.

“No-take me to Heaven…I want to be with you…I have to be.” He spoke and his voice was so low and muddled that only Lily could hear him. She cried then-this was so hard. Selfishness wanted to win out and the thought of eternity with Andy made her heart grow light.

She knew now what she had to do.

“I-I can’t do that Andy…you have so much left in you. You have an Army that needs you…friends that need you…you aren’t done setting the world on fire Andy. You have to stay here.” Lily said sadly and she felt her tears falling down her cheeks and could see that they were landing on Andy’s face and neck. He only smiled at her, pressing a hand to her cheek and he felt ice cold.

“I love you Lily…” He said softly, his eyes closing and Lily knew it was now or never.

“I love you too Andy…always.”

She pressed her lips to his and a blinding light filled the room. As Lily brought her face up and looked towards the ceiling she knew…this had been the right choice and it couldn’t be any other way.

They had been meant for one another, but Andy had been meant for so much more…he had set the world on fire and now he had to live to see it burn…

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