Our big family (book three of Unbroken series)

I had to bunk with the guys of Motionless In White. I couldn't sleep on the same bus as Ronnie, and I certainly wasn't ready to share a bed with Andy again. Quinn had to help me too the Motionless In White bus because I was so weak that I could barely stand. It had felt like someone punched me in the stomach.
Chris had asked me what was wrong, but I wasn't able to respond. Quinn just lead me to an empty bunk where I laid down, staring at the top of the bunk. I didn't even tell Quinn what had happened and I could tell by the look in her eyes that she was terrified of what I might do.
"Kit, are you okay?" she asked.
"No, I'm not," I croaked.
"Why didn't you want me to take you to Ronnie's bus-ooohhhh," she said, realization hitting her.
Tears reappeared to my eyes and I let them fall.
"I'm sorry, Kit."
Quinn gave me a light hug, then left to talk to Chris.
"What's going on?" I heard him ask.
"Ronnie broke up with her. Don't leave her by herself for more than five minutes. I'm scared that she might hurt herself," Quinn said.
I heard them talk for a few more minutes, but I didn't absorb what they were saying. I was too numb to even notice that my eyes began to droop. I fell asleep, letting myself drift into blackness.
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I woke up the next morning feeling like I had been hit by a train. I sighed as I got up and remembered that today was Ashley's birthday. I had gotten him a necklace with Quinn's picture in it. I kept it in my back pocket covered in a bandana, planning to wrap it last night, but since I didn't go back to the Falling In Reverse bus, I never got the chance to.
I slid on my converse and I headed off of the bus. I noticed Ashley talking to Andy by the venue. I walked over, making sure to avoid Andy's eyes.
I handed Ashley his present and he said, "Kit, you really didn't need to buy me anything. A simple happy birthday would suffice."
I shrugged and sat down at a wooden table by the wall of the venue and stared off into space. After a few minutes, Quinn found us. I chatted with her, trying to steer clear of any mention of Ronnie. I was about to get up and leave the table, when I saw two familiar faces walking towards us.
"Jayy? Dahvie?" I asked disbelievingly.
"Hey, Kit-Kat!" Jayy laughed, lifting me off of my seat and spinning me around.
"I thought I told you to stop calling me that," I smirked.
"Ehh. I never do like doing what I'm told."
Dahvie came over and gave me a tight hug. I really missed them.
"I heard you've been having a rough time," Jayy said to me.
"I guess. I kinda don't feel like talking about it, though," I sighed.
I saw Andy staring at me intently. He knew something was up with me.
I remember thinking over the past week that if I broke it off with Ronnie that I could go back to Andy, but now that Ronnie and I are through, I can't see myself back with Andy. It's not that I don't love him, but I need to find myself out before I devoted myself to anyone. I think that was why Ronnie and I didn't work. Once Andy broke up with me, I went straight to Ronnie. I didn't let myself heal.
"It's fine if you don't want to talk. I get it," Jayy said.
"Um, Kit?" Andy asked.
I tensed up. I wasn't in the mood to talk to him. Not now.
"Yeah, Andy?"
"Can we talk?" he asked.
I nodded. Jayy and Dahvie looked at me suspiciously as Andy and I walked around the corner of the venue.
"Kit, you don't look so good. What's up?" Andy asked, holding one of my hands.
"Ronnie broke up with me last night," I admitted.
"Oh. How are you holding up?"
"Okay, I guess. I haven't cut, if that's what you're wondering."
Andy gave me a guilty grimace and looked down. We stood there in awkward silence for a few moments.
"Kit, Ronnie doesn't know what he's missing out on," Andy told me.
"Actually, I think he does. He broke up with me so that you and I could be together."
I saw Andy's eyes brighten with hope, and I felt terrible.
"Andy, I'm not ready to get back into a relationship with you. I love you, but I don't fully trust you. There are a lot of issues that we need to work out before I'd be willing to be your girlfriend again," I told him.
"Oh," he said, his hope deflating.
"I think we should head back to the rest of the guys," I sighed as I walked away from Andy.
I saw Dahvie and Jayy looking at me expectantly. I looked down at my feet, but not before I saw Calvin and Elliot getting off of the bus. Shit was going to go down between Calvin and Jayy, I could feel it.

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