I Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream

Andy sat next to me on the plane back to Ohio. His fingers locked in mine as both of us listened to our respective music. I sighed, and leaned my head on his shoulder.

I can't believe this is happening. We have a month until Andy, the band, and I all flew over seas. I remember when my cousin got sick, it happened so fast. In a span of about two months, I barely even got to say goodbye.

Danielle didn't deserve this, she is too young. She has her whole life ahead of her, just like I do and I've always pictured us growing old together. Not one of us lying in a coffin while the other lives out a happy life.

My mother told me on the phone yesterday that they had known about this for two weeks now. At first I was angry, but I understood that they were trying to protect me. I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that I was in Disneyland while Dani was growing weaker, getting closer to her eminent death every minute.

We were now almost in Ohio. Danielle told me that she had a suprise for me when I got home, and I was nervous. Mostly nervous about the suprise, but a lot about how calm she seemed to be. I talked to her this morning, and she sounded the same, just a little weaker.

I felt the planes wheels touch the runway, and I breathed out a sigh. Andy had taken his earbuds out, and he was looking at me.

"Everything's going to be okay." He said squeezing my hand. I gave him a small smile, and shook my head.

"I don't think so, Andy." His features turned worried in a matter of seconds, as I stood up. He did the same, and we grabbed our bags out of the overhead compartment.

We slowly moved off of the plane behind the other passengers, and finally reached the walkway into the gate. Andy's parents were picking us up, and driving us over to my house, where I would stay with Dani for a while. Then they'd come back, and we would spend the next few nights at Andy's.

It it was my mother's idea to have us stay at Andy's instead of my house. She said it would be a lot for me to take in, and that Andy and I were too young. I knew Andy wanted to see his parents so I agreed.

Before I knew it we were stepping into Chris's big silver sedan.

"Andy, Jasey!" Amy said hugging us both from the front seat.

"Hey mom." Andy said kissing her cheek.

"Hi Amy." I smiled warmly at her, and she took my hand.

"Sweetheart if their is anything we can do please let us know." She said squeezing my hand.

"Of course." I said, nodding.

"I'm so sorry Jasey." Chris said looking at me in the mirror.

"Thank you." I said smiling at him.

"I did hear that you may be able to dance again!" Amy said, "That's so great!"

I glanced at Andy. I had no idea how much he actually told his parents.

"It's amazing, I'm so happy." I said.

"I'm glad." Amy said.

I leaned into Andy's side as he talked about his music with his parents. I was so thankful to have not just such a wonderful boyfriend, but a wonderful second family.

Notes

..bare with me guys..these next few are gonna be..hard.