Warning : Contains Self-Harm , May Be Triggering To Sensitive Readers .

Andy's POV
I packed , up my stuff , and left the class , the boy kept staring at me , it was fucking werid , I started walking to my next class , putting in an ear bud and turned on a random song by KISS .

I turned it up all the way , knowing that my ears were probably bleeding but that boy and his posse were right behind me and annoying the fuck out of me.

I look back and connected eyes with the boys girlfriend , she sneered , I looked back down , until I felt my body bump into someone . I didn't bother to look up . They'd probably call my a fag or something , causing me to put my head down again.

"Sorry , I'm so sorry " I said sadly . "Hey no worries right ?" A guy said . I looked up and there was a guy smiling . He looked like me . I stared wide eyed . "Why so shocked , ? Surprised that I'm not a dick like everybody else ?" He said laughing .

I chocked out a small "y-yeah" . "The names Jake Pitts " he said extending his hand . I smiled a little . "Andy" I said shaking his hand . "You new here ?" He asked . "Yeah , " I said my face turning into a frown . "Rough first day ?" He asked . "You bet " I said . "Well what classes you got "? (*gasp* improper English .. ) . I handed him my schedule.

He took it and read down the list , well we have the next two periods together , umm 5th period with my friend Jinxx .You got lunch with all of us . And 8 and 9 with my friend CC .

He put a little emphasis on the "friend" on the sentence with CC. I brushed it off . "We'll be late if we don't hurry for science " he said pushing my in the direction of the science room

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Time Skippy : Lunch
Andy's POV (Again , I know it will change soon )

I got my food and looked around , finally finding Jake sitting with 1 other person , I guessing to be either CC or Jinxx, I sat down .

Jake introduced me to Jinxx . I waved . He mumbled , a "hi" . "Where's CC ?" I asked . "He's coming" he said right as a boy sat next to Jake and planted a big fat kiss on his lips .

My eyes widen with surprise . "Oh Andy , CC's my boyfriend , I forgot to tell you " Jake said shakily . "Oh , I don't judge , I just ... I gotta go" I said grabbing my backpack and running to the bathroom .

I locked the door and ran to the sink . Blinking tears out of my eyes , that stung like acid as they raced down my face . "Why does everyone have love "? I asked myself as I dug it out of my bag .

A fresh blade . I placed it steadily in my hand . I rolled up my sleeve . And pressed it to my scared forearm. I dragged it across my forearm . My pain and heart beat slowing as the dots of crimson blood turned into a line and started to run down my arm

I smiled slightly as I stared at the blood running slowly , ever so slowly down my arm . Letting the monster that's trapped inside my skin , come out and breathe . And for a moment I'm no longer a monster in my skin or myself . I'm somebody different , no longer damned in this hateful life . I'm a nobody .

It's comforting , and disheartening at the same time . I slice my arm a few more times , having more blood run down into the crook of my elbow and pooling there . Pulling my senses and pain out of my body with it .

The feeling is almost euphoric. It's horrible and fantastic at the same time . I laid head against the wall , having the feelings set into my body . My cuts throb with every beat of my heart it hurt , but nothing compared to the hurt in my heart .

And no amount of cuts can change that , and I'm sure nothing else can either .

Notes

Long chappy
Well Bye Beautifulzzzz
<3 Please Stay Fucking Strong <3
I know it's hard , just please stay strong ,
I believe in you , even though I wasn't ,
You still can .
I LOVE YOU ALL , VERY MUCH !!!!