Dream Of Your Nightmares (Andley)

Andy's POV
I walk into my first period class ,English , everyone stares , sigh and sit in an empty desk in the front of the room , next to a boy that was like me , but had a girl , slung on his arm and was surrounded by the "jocks" of the school . "How the fucking hell does that happen"? I whispered to myself .

The boy turned around and looked at me , looking up and down my body . I tended my body and forced myself to stay still , awkward wasn't even beginning to explain it . His chocolate brown eyes locked with mine . I forced myself to look away , by fake coughing and looking in the opposite direction .

"Smooth Andy , SOO fucking SMOOTH !!" I said internally scolding my self . I pulled out my journal , knowing by tonight I'd come crawling back to the razor , on hands and knees , begging for its sharp surface to once again slide across my skin and spilt me open and draw the pain out of my body and then give me that two seconds of comfort then the slam the pain in my body again , 10 fold , I should know , I do it every fucking night .

I sighed letting my fringe fall in front of my face . I grabbed my pen and started writing down lyrics .

I Look Around And All I See Evil .
The Walking Dead Disguised As Real People .
Its Kill Or Be Killed , Cause Life Is Not Forever
It Comes Apart Then It Falls Together ,
I Am What You Made Me , Till Death Do I Burn
Its The World I've Grown To Know
Unforgiving , And So Cold ,
Take It Away , Take It Away , I Don't Want It ,
It's The Life I'm Forced To Live ,
I've Got Nothing More To Give ,
Take It Away , Take It Away , I Don't Want It Anymore ,
The Generation Dead ,
Were Dead

I looked over at the boy , and continued to scribble down lyrics

You See Yourself As Such A Fucking Shepard ,
You Drip The Blind And Then You Curse The Leper ,
Do You Really Want My True Opinion ?
I Think You've Taken More Than You've Ever Given !

That's all I could write down until somebody snatched me journal away . "Hey give it ba-" I began to say until I realized it was the teacher . "Oh shit " I mumbled . "Well I think since you clearly disobeyed me , by not putting this away Andrew , I think I'll read it to the class ." She said emotionless .

"No please " I begged . "Non-sense , if this was good enough , to have you miss my class , everyone should hear it . " Everybody snickered . I put my hand on my forehand and let my fringe cover my face . "No , I whispered to myself as she read it out load , not caring to read the swear words , loud and clear .

Being the immature little fuckers they are the snickered again at "Fucking". I sighed . Ugh I knew not killing myself , was a mistake . She went to give me back my journal . I grabbed it back . And stuffed it into my bag angrily . I sat down again and stared at the board pretending to pay attention .

But I could feel there eyes burning into the back of my head . A tear rolled down my left cheek , as I whispered , " I just wanna die" .

Notes

The song Andy "wrote" was Generation Dead by Five Finger Death Punch .
Well .
Bye Beautifulzzzz
<3 Stay Fucking Strong <3
<3 Because Eventually Saviour Will Be There <3