I had arrived home from my morning stripping, this time $1250 dollars in hand. The most I had ever gotten in my three months of working there. And I only gave myself to one person, but they wanted so much... It has scarred me and I probably won't ever be the same again sleeping with another woman. It was so far out of my comfort zone but I needed the money so bad. She even gave me her number for private at home sessions, I wasn't too sure about that but if that meant more money, it meant less time to work at the club and possibly search for a new place to live and a new job. But in Seattle, it was so much harder to find good work with a good pay.
As I slipped into my ripped grey skinny jeans, black converse, Megadeth tshirt, and spiked jacket, my phone began buzzing. It was Ivan.
"Hey Elena! What are you up to?"
Only Ivan knew I stripped for my money, I knew him before any of my other band mates and we became really close friends when we had searched for band mates together. I was beyond scared to tell the rest of the guys and what they would think or if they would view me differently.
"Just got home from the club, managed to make $1000 today so my manager said I won't have to work for a while, and even gave me a bonus of $250 for going out of my comfort zone."
"Out... of your comfort zone? You don't sound good Elena, your kind of scaring me. Should I come over?"
A sniffle or two came out of me, I needed Ivan. "Yes... please..."
I spread myself across my bed, a tear or two shed down my face. And sooner than expected, Ivan came barging through my room (Yes, he had a house key just in case anything happened to me). The moment we made eye contact, he literally jumped to my bed and instantly wrapped me in his arms. I was kind of shocked by it, but embraced him anyways.
It was the first time in 2 years that a man really held me, and held me close. Honestly, my heart kind of melted and a smile was planted on my face as I began to cry. Still holding me, he layed down on his back with me on his chest, almost completely on top of him. The crying stopped momentarraly, he wiped my eyes, and looked down at me and said, "Tell me what happened, I don't like to see you so shattered."
The way those words flowed out of his mouth, in his voice, for whatever reason, made my heart fall straight to my ass. His voice was so tender to me for the first time. And so, captivating. I didn't know how to explain it, but I just wanted to hear him keep talking.
"I slept with another woman today. She wanted a lot more than expected that was out of my comfort zone but it meant good money. So, I did it. And now, I know I'm for sure scarred. And she gave me her number and name for home sessions, and I took it..."
"Elena, you don't have to do this to yourself if it's going to hurt you that bad. I can't stand to see you so hurt with everything else that's already upon you. Don't force yourself if you don't have to, please..."
Something seemed different about Ivan in this moment. But for the first time, I felt somewhat of an attraction towards him.
"I hear you. But I do need that money. If I keep doing mornings like this, then I won't have to work as much and I might have more extra cash to do stuff with you and the guys. More time to start recording and I would be able to pay for it. New equipment to replace the old and back up stuff. To get the band going."
"Just do what you know best to do. But please, for my sake, don't push yourself too far. I can't have anything happen to you. That would just destroy me..."
He held me tighter. I did in return. Once we had relaxed from the long hug, he didn't let me go. I was totally okay with that. I was craving this for the first time, just to be in his arms. Before I knew it, we were legit cuddling. He began caressing my back, and I began stroking his chest. We have held each other before when we've been through hell and back wether it was together or individually, but this was the first time we had actually cuddled. I felt so happy, relieved, comforted, and most of all, safe. I then burried my nose into his neck and he embraced me with another hug.
When we both brought our heads back up from the hug, we accidently had eye contact with each other, which wasn't a bad thing. It seemed like forever that I held his eyes with mine. His big bright green eyes locked with my hazel eyes, taking in every inch and curve of his face. His sharp jaw line, his rounded cheek bones, his awesome red and black hair, and most importantly, his semi plump, soft, pierced lips. I couldn't help myself, I was pulled in by him. I craved him that much more. I wanted him. His touch, his love. Any love to actually feel love and feel loved. I could tell he had been studying my face like I did with his, and instinctively, I bit my lip. I'm glad I did but at the same time, wish I hadn't. Thankfully, he just smiled and softly giggled. I loved how deep his giggles were, I instantly melted. He had me, and I wouldn't care what he did to me at this point. I blushed in return.
Once we shared eye contact once again, he took his right arm out from his grasp around me, and ever so softly, took his finger tips and began tracing my cheek before placing his palm on it, thumb under my jaw. My eyes grew bigger, eager for more, and pulled my face and pressed his lips against mine. Flashing back to a while ago, I mentioned I was 16. Ivan is 23, the third oldest in the band. 7 years difference. But with how close we were and how much growing up I had to do anyways, I didn't feel 16 and I honestly at this point, I really didn't fucking care.
His lips danced upon mine, and I danced with his. And with every kiss, we held it a little longer every time. No tongue, at least not yet, just simple kisses. These were the ones I loved. We did have conversations through out our whole friendship about the kind of kissers we were and what we liked from someone else, and I think we both remembered. And especially remembered the fact that we were the same type of kisser. He drew back, and it drove me crazy, to fix his hair. With his right hand now on my neck, he slid it into my hair and grabbed it, his other hand struggling to get it under my jacket and shirt to place it on my bare, lower back. I giggled and pulled away to stand on my knees on the bed, and slowly took off my jacket ever so seductively but showed only innocence and love. And I knew it was love at this point. I threw it to the other side of the room, my Megadeth shirt now exposing.
"Heh heh, I like your shirt, Elena. "
His voice drove me nuts. In return, I smiled and bit my lip. Before I knew it, he was on his knees in front of me. He placed his right hand on my hip and slid up my side, over my boob ever so carefully, and back to the back of my neck, his left traveling from my other hip to my back under my shirt, and pulled me against him, hard. His right hand finally in my hair gripping it tight. My hands danced on his strong and built chest, but instantly broke that tiny space to push me against him harder. Making my arms wrap around his neck. Our lips still hadn't touched since I had taken off my jacket, and at this point, I was already breathing heavily by his touch. We both smiled and softly giggled again, and began kissing each other once again.
Before planting his lips against mine again, he traced my lips with his tongue. My lips quivered, and he still didn't kiss me. He really knew how to tease a girl. Finally, Ivan slowly put his tongue into my mouth and rubbed it ever so softly against mine. I let out a somewhat of a high pitched, quiet moan. We both pulled back to giggle more than we should have.
"*giggling softly* Are you alright, hun?"
He called me hun, I had no idea why but that just made my heart race so much more faster. Seductively, I returned with this.
"Please, don't stop *giggle*"
He chuckled a deep chuckle, and placed his lips on mine yet again. Shortly, our tongues danced together. He slipped my shirt off, and I took off his. We pressed against each other again. Skin on skin. He was so warm and I could feel the static being exchanged through our bodies like a circuit. Still kissing, he picked me up by my skinny waist and layed me down on my back. Him still on his knees, bending over to kiss me. He then pulled away unfastened my button and zipper and slowly pulled only my jeans off to find out I still had my shoes on, his were already off.
"*chuckling* Why do you have your shoes on?"
"*blushing* I thought we were going to go somewhere else heh heh."
He smiled down at me, and took my shoes off and threw them in the corner and ripped my jeans off the rest of the way. I then bent up to unbuckle his seat belt and his jeans fell to his knees. He had been wearing some baggier jeans today but that made it much easier to get them off.
Our clothes were on the other side of the room by this point, only our undergarments on now. At this point, I decided to bend over to my side table and open my secret box to grab a condom I kept for safe keeping for a time like this and placed it next to us. He chuckled and was then on top of me, inches from his face and his body pressed against me and in between my legs. I hadn't had sex with a guy since I was 13, but I knew I was good at it. I was born a natural and with someone I knew and care about, I was all for it and not nervous. Even though he was seven years older, he had more experience. But I knew I was about to surprise him in many ways.
He began sucking my neck and slowly slid his hands down my collarbone to my boobs. He looked up at me, and smiled. Silently, I knew he was saying 'I love you.' and leaned in for a kiss as he began massaging my 36Cs. He slipped his arms underneath me and undid my bra and softly took it off and placed his hands on me again. I moaned again. And following that, we both chuckled again. I laughed because I hadn't made those sounds in a truthful manor in a long time but I had no idea why he was laughing too. He planted my lips over and over again with simple kisses and then kissed down my neck, then with his index finger and thumb, he began playing with my nipples. I let out another moan, and I felt something wet between my legs. I had came already? Even he felt it and giggled against my shoulder and bent back up, keeping eye contact with me the whole time. While he had been laying on me, he grew acceptionally hard. We both knew that oral wasn't going to be nessecary at this point, plus we both knew we wanted to keep it genuine, loving, and old fashioned in a sense if that would be the right word to use. He was back on his knees in between my legs, and slowly pulled my panties off. Soon after his were off too.
I hadn't seen a penis in so long, considering the last three times I've had sex was with other woman, that I actually felt normal again. And boy, he was BIG! And vainey, but it was exactly what I had been wanting for so long. To feel normal, and I think I was due for some real sex. Before he had the chance to grab the condom to slip it on, I couldn't help myself but to grab is hardness. He let out a grunt as soon as my hand made contact with it. Instantly, I began stroking it back and forth, slowly gaining speed and toying with his head with my thumb. He was breathing so heavy and grunting so often, it even got me excited and I was close to coming for a second time. Before he could come, I planted my mouth on his head and caught everything that came, and swallowed. At this point, he was as hard as a rock. I wasn't in the mood for oral on me, only because I'm so sick of it from sleeping with woman, and he knew.
I handed him the condom with a bite of my lip, and he chuckled once more and slipped it on in no time. Once it was on, I got a little nervous. He could tell, and bent down next to my ear.
"Don't push yourself. If you don't want this, I'm 100% okay with it. I want the best for you and I don't want to put you through anymore pain or regretful decisions."
"No, Ivan. I want this."
He smiled and kissed me softly, using tongue every so often to get me excited and not to bore things. We kissed for what seemed like forever, just naked, with him laying on top of me. His hardness pressed up against the top of my womanhood to my belly button. Did I mention he was big?
He finally pulled himself away, and took his two fingers and ran them down my clit and my vagina. His touch make me jerk more than a few times from the pleasure, I was so horny that any touch down there made me go fucking nuts. He slipped one finger inside ever so slowly, and I moaned. Which made both of us chuckle once again. Then a second finger. I bit my lip. Next thing I knew, he was going in and out with his fingers, making them C shaped when he was pulling out toward himself. He didn't do it for long since he knew I was going to climax easily, and slowly slipped his behemoth of a hard penis inside me. It had been the oddest sensasion since I hadn't had true sex in so long.
I felt his head enter, then the beginning of his shaft, and stopped halfway in to ask;
"Do you want me to go all the way in or take it easy since you haven't had sex in so long?"
He knows me like an open book.
"Babe, I want it so bad. Go full on, show me what it means to be a woman. And what a woman should be doing." I tried to make it not sound so slutty, but with a true essence of love. He knew.
With him half way in, he bent down next to my ear and whispered;
"Elena, I love you." and violently shoved the rest of his big cock inside me before I could say anything back.
I moaned louder than I had ever had in my life. I came even though I hadn't climaxed yet. With his full erection still inside me, I grabbed his hair and pulled him down to my level.
"I love you too, Ivan." and kissed him hard.
Still in this position, he began pushing in and out of me. He was kissing me like a mad man, and I followed. With every time he pulled out, he pushed in even harder. I cried out his name, never had I ever called someone's name out during sex. He began to go faster, and I bit my lip so hard that I had almost made it bleed. I moaned again. But every time I moaned, it had a hint of a scream to it. It drove him nuts. At this point he had to lift off of me even though I wanted his chest on mine. But to get the job done, it had to be this way. In and out he kept going, and we were both about to climax. It felt so good to have a penis inside of me instead of fingers, toys, or a tongue. It felt so human, and so fucking amazing because of his size.
At the same time, we both moaned loud and both came. Instead for me, it was the most I had ever came and unfortunately, it got on my comforter. At this point, I didn't care. Thank the lord he did it into a condom. I didn't want to risk getting pregnant or get his load on my bed.
We were both breathing heavily. We were so out of breath from that. His erection was still fully inside me, keeping my insides warm, and he just stayed there. And I liked it. With him still inside me, he took his right hand and began softly massaging my abdoment just above my labia. His touch was warm and full of love. As he pulled out, he put pressure onto my abdoment for one last feeling of pleasure. Most of my come was stuck onto the condom thankfully but at the same time, it was a tad gross because he had to take it off.
Thoughtfully, I took it off for him and set it in the trash beside me. We lifted the covers on my bed and both slipped under and began cuddling once more.
"Did I hurt you at all?"
"After 3 years of not having sex, I'm surprised it didn't."
"You were extremely tight, I'm surprised too. I'm glad it didn't hurt though. I would have felt like shit if it did. I did force myself the rest of the way in pretty hard." He kissed my cheek.
"No, I fucking loved it. Best sex I've ever had." We both laughed.
Still laughing, he hugged me so tight, me hugging back tight, and rolled around on my bed.
He stopped, then asked;
"Oh shit I forgot, can you walk?"
I got wide eyed, and I remembered I had some arrends I had to attend to tonight. I hopped out from under the covers and slowly stood up. So far so good. I took on the challenge of walking to the bathroom. Once I made it there, I turned around and ran back to the bed and hopped on top of Ivan.
"It's a miracle!" We both giggled.
We didn't want to get up yet though, so I slipped back under the covers and we fell asleep in each other's arms.

Notes

Okay, so that was LOOOONNNGG!!! Took me two hours to write! Next chapter will be the second dream! ;)
Also, I accidentally published only the first half of the chapter earlier so make sure you read the rest of it!