Sometimes You Just Have To Let Go

I sat there, swinging my legs back and forth staring at the gently swaying leaves surrounding and hiding me. I heard some rustling and pulled my legs up to myself balancing on the large branch. It was probably Andy looking for me and I didn’t think I was ready to face that. I felt the anxiety start to rise in my chest. God I hate this. I hate getting anxiety over nothing. My breathing started to become more shallow as I tried to calm myself.
“Scar..?” I heard Andy gently yell out somewhere near my hiding place. God what should I do? Do I answer?!
Something inside me said yes.
“Up here..” I quietly called out secretly wishing maybe he didn’t hear me.
Unfortunately, he did.
I saw Andy make his way under the giant weeping willow. He looked up at me, something dancing across his eyes. But it wasn’t pity, like I was used to.
“You know, this tree reminds me of you.” He said as he climbed up the branch to take a seat next to me.
“You don’t even know me that well. You literally met me just the other day... How can you be comparing me to anything?” I said with a slight bite to my tone.
“I just feel like I know you, you know people you kind of just connect with right away?”
“I guess…” I answered him.
I felt like the anxiety was starting to strangle me. I took a deep breath, held it, and then let it out shakily.
“You’re so much like this willow tree. Beautiful, but neither can see their beauty, both sheltered from everything underneath their beautiful armor.” He said gently. I felt his eyes on me and I just looked harder at the ground, surveying every little crack in the dirt. I can’t lie though; my heart sped up at what he said…
I sighed. Why was this so hard for me?!
“Scarlett… I won’t push you to open up anymore. I know that is only going to make things worse… But will you at least come back to our spot and be silly and care free with me?”
I glanced at him and he had to goofiest grin plastered on his face and I couldn’t help but smile back. Care free… If only he knew how messed up I was, he would know that care free is impossible for me. But I agreed anyway and shook my head.
I jumped down from my beautiful branch but when my feet touched the ground I fell back onto my butt. I couldn’t help but burst out from laughter. The kind of laughter that makes me wish I could laugh forever. I gasped for breath in between my chuckles and Andy held out his hand to help me up, slightly laughing at me as well. I blushed slightly and took his hand. We stared at each other for a few minutes before he started to make his way out of the beautiful spot.
I looked back at the branch knowing I would be back soon, this was my new spot. My happy memory. And I would always hold onto. I sighed and followed out after Andy and we started to make our way back to “our” spot.
That’s what he had called it and I couldn’t help but get butterflies, somehow knowing it meant more than how it sounded.

Notes

OMG, I am so so sooooo sorry. I've been dealing with so much stuff. I've been having really bad anxiety and I went to Denver Colorado recently, it was great. I honestly wish I could go back, it made me so happy. But now I'm home and I'm starting school Tuesday and I'm just so bummed :/ I'm going to be a Junior this year and it's kind of scary and I just get really anxious when i think about it all... Anyways I hope you enjoy! Again, I AM SOOO SORRY! COMMENT RATE SUBSCRIBE? <3