Lost It All

After hearing the harsh words of the dance directors, Carolyn couldn't help but start to notice every little thing they pointed out. She stood in front of the mirror and grabbed her stomach, squeezing the fat that had formed from having Aria. She pinched her now forming love handles and let her hands travel down towards her thighs.

The sound of Aria crying in the next room shook Carolyn from her thoughts and pulled her away from the mirror. She could stand there all day and grimace at the unsightly shape of her body.
When she walked into Aria's room, Andy was already there, picking up his daughter and snuggling her against his chest. He turned when he heard the door hinges creak.

"Oh, hey." He said. "Don't worry about it, I got her."

Carolyn forced a small smile and walked towards him. She stroked Aria's black hair and kissed the top of her head.

"How did the audition go?" Andy asked, rubbing small circles on Aria's back.

Carolyn stepped back and folded her arms across her chest. "I'd rather not talk about it."

Andy put Aria down in her crib. "Come on, what happened?" Andy wrapped his arms around Carolyn from behind and held her close to him.

She struggled out of Andy's grasp. She didn't want him to feel the difference in her body shape. What if he didn't love her anymore after that?

"Whoa, babe, what's going on?" Andy sounded surprised at Carolyn's rough tug away from him.

"I told you I don't want to talk." She snapped back at him. She realized quickly that she had hurt his feelings when his facial expression melted into a look of misfortune and Aria began crying again. "I'm sorry," She apologized. "I'm sorry..." She backed up a few steps and then turned, running out of her room and into the bathroom.

"Carolyn, wait!" Andy called to her but she didn't stop. She ran into the bathroom, slamming the door shut.

She looked at her body in the mirror and grabbed her stomach again, looking down at the fat that seemed to bulge out. She fell to her knees in front of the toilet and impulsively shoved two fingers down her throat.

Notes

so yeah. thoughts maybe? idk omg

Shout outs:

-Kvengeance
-This Is Our Sweet Blasphemy
-Suffer in Silence
-Chloeabrandon
-Andyismybatman143637
-DemonicKitty121512666