She's moved on...why can't I? I muttered as I laid in my bed. Tears were threatening to appear.

I can't...love her...

But I did. I loved Grace.

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"No...please....no," I desperately thought as Dr. Good came closer to me, the dreaded needle in his hand. I stayed silent though.

"I found it, Grace! I found the correct vaccination!" Dr. Good laughed evilly.

All of a sudden Dr. Good's changed....it was now Ronnie in those freaky glasses and the mad scientist lab coat.

He slipped the needle into my arm.

I screamed.

"YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL GRACE!!!" He laughed.

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I awoke covered in sweat. Luckily I wasn't screaming.

What did I dream? It was so frightening...so real... but I could not remember. Maybe I was just insane.

I got up from my bed and the memories of yesterday flooded back to my head. Tears sprang into my eyes.

He didn't go all the way so it wasn't rape was it? And I was kissing back so all he probably thought I was doing was moaning instead of saying no. It wasn't his fault, it was mine. I probably should've been more firm in saying I didn't want to. I had probably left him confused and hurt.

I was the bad guy, not him. He just thought I wanted it.

But I didn't. I didn't want him in that way. He was like my best friend. Yeah sure he was hot and I definitely liked him, but I didn't like him enough to do that! It did feel good though...

Okay stop it Grace! Just don't think about it!

The cellphone I was given started ringing. I answered it. "Hello?"

"Hey beautiful you awake?" Ronnie said, making me giggle. I had forgiven him. It wasn't his fault.
"Yeah," I sighed.
"I want to apologize for last night," he said, "meet me in my room at 12."
"Okay Ronnie I'll see you there," I smiled.
"See you there too my little angel."

I had to admit I got butterflies in my stomach whenever he called me his "little angel". I sighed as I got up from bed.

An hour later I was walking to the elevator when I saw a very happy looking Amy standing there waiting for me.

"So how was it with you and Ashley?" I smiled.
"We'll he was a little gentleman he took me out to eat and then we sat and talked outside underneath the stars. I thought he was gonna be a little pervert and try to take advantage of me but he really was sweet. He brought me flowers too! Roses...how did he know those were my favorite?" She giggled.
"Well I'm happy for you guys!" I said, brightly.
"Well how about you and Ronnie?" She asked.
"Um," I started, "it was fun. I'm going over to his place right now," I smiled, a little non-convincingly.

The elevator door opened and we stepped in. Amy looked at me strangely.

"What happened?" She said, her tone serious.
"Nothing," I said nervously looking down.
"Grace, something happened," Amy frowned.
"It was nothing," I mumbled.

She put a hand on my shoulder. "Tell me."

I breathed out frustratingly.

"He's really nice I had a lot of fun with him. When we went to the club we danced and had a nice conversation, but then he said I looked tired so he walked me back to my place."
"And?" She said, still frowning.
"Um he told me he liked me, and I said I liked him back, but then he kissed me, and he...he was on top of me...and," I felt the tears coming, "and I told him no, but he wasn't listening..."
"He didn't rape you did he Grace? " Amy said, her eyes wide with shock.
"No I finally got him off me and told him I didn't want to. He looked like he understood, it just...scared me."
"Well that's good Grace, but I don't think you should be with him if he didn't stop the first time you said no," Amy frowned.
"I, I really like him though Amy! And it wasn't his fault I just didn't sound convincing!" I said, putting on a fake smile.

"Well, if you ever need advice I'll be here," she smiled.
"Thanks Amy," I smiled back, "and I gotta go!"
"Bye Grace!"
"See you later Amy!"

I breathed out and stepped out of the elevator. I was on Ronnie's floor.

I walked to Ronnie's room and knocked on the door.

A couple seconds later it opened, revealing a smiling Ronnie.

"Hi," I blushed.
"Hey there beautiful," Ronnie smiled, "wanna go get ice cream?"
My mood got happier when he suggested that. I loved ice cream!
"Yeah!"

He took my hand and we walked to the elevator, then to the food court where an ice cream shop was located. I ordered mint chocolate chip. He got strawberry.

"Gosh I haven't had ice cream since.." I began, "since last year!" I giggled.
"Are you kidding me I get ice cream everyday from this place"" he laughed.
"You lucky person!!!" I laughed then kissed him on the cheek. He smiled, as if he knew he had been forgiven.

"You're the best thing that's happened to me in a while Grace," Ronnie smiled.
"You're the best thing that's happened to me in a while too!" I giggled.

We finished our ice creams and threw them away. We then walked around the mall, laughing our heads off and making fun of the clothing in most stores. His hand felt comforting in mine.

After we were done he hugged me goodbye.

And everything was perfect again.

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WHY?!?!? WHY DID I STILL LOVE HER?!?!?! My mind screamed as I punched a wall.

Luckily my hand didn't break.

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