Highschool story (no longer being writen)

Kelsey'sPOV
After I left Andy's I went home and walked into the kitchen where Aaron was.
"Where's my mom?"
"she's upstairs. She hasn't come out of our room in a few hours"
i sighed and started walking to the stairs.
"You know she's just trying to help you Kelsey."
"I know."
I went up the stairs and knocked on her door.
"Yeah?"
"can I come in? Please."
"yeah."
I pushed the door open and saw my mom sitting on the bed looking through photo albums and there were kleenexes around her. Her face was red and tear stained and I instantly felt terrible. i climbed into bed next to her and looked at her. "Mom I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said any of that. I was just overwhelmed and this is really hard for me. You have to understand that this isn't something that can be fixed in a few days."
we talked the rest of the night and we came to a agreement about my eating. I apologized over and over but I still feel bad. She was just trying to help me. I had my first therapy session today and I was nervous. I knew of I didn't get help I would get sent to the hospital and I couldn't do that.
"hello Kelsey I'm Ana." My therapist said. I sat down across from her and she got out her notepad and clicked her pen. I didn't like that she had to write down everything I said. It felt weird.
"Hello"
"how are you doing today?"
"fine I guess"
"you guess?"
"yeah. I mean I'm not good I'm not bad I'm just fine"
"why don't you tell me why you're here"
"because I have to be"
"you know what I mean. Why do you have to be?"
I knew I had to tell her on order to get better but other than that one time in the hospital when Jason made me I hadn't talked about it and I didn't like to or think I could.
"you know Kelsey I can't help you of you don't open up"
"nothing you tell me leaves this room. Unless you tell me you're going to hurt someone or yourself."
i stayed silent. I felt like I was wasting her time by just sitting here in silence.
"I can't do it"
"can't do what?"
"I can't talk about it I don't want to. Not now"
"the we won't. What do you want to talk about?"
"I don't know. I feel weird. I don't know you."
"then let's get to know each other."
"okay."
so for the next forty minutes I told her about me and she told me about herself. It was okay I guess. I have to go again later this week. That's right two sessions a week.
I walked to Andy's house after and then we walked to the park.
"How was it?"
"fine I guess."
"how are you doing"
"better than I was last night. But I don't know."
"do you want to talk about it?"
"no. I've done enough talking today. Can we just sit here for awhile."
"sure"
we sat down on the swings and I grabbed his hand. I was really glad I had Andy. He sure did make things easier.
"wait Andy. You didn't tell tag and the guys about what happened right?"
"what? No. It's not my place to tell I figure of you want them to know you'll tell them."
"thank you. I just can't handle them knowing right now"
he nodded in understanding and I looked up at the clouds.
"You know when I was younger I used to think I could live on a cloud. I always dreamed about one day running away to one."
"so did I. Then I read a book in school that told me what a cloud really was. I was crushed."
"when I found out I think I was in denial. I thought everyone was lying to me about what it really was."
he laughed and I saw him look at me from the corner of my eye.
"When I was five I ran away from home. Well actually I ran to our shed. I wasn't allowed to cross the street. I think I had a fight with my parents about something stupid. So I packed my little backpack and ran outside. Then it started raining. I was so set on leaving home though."
"how long did you make it"
"I think about a hour."
I laughed and shook my head.
"Did you ever run away?"
"well like you I only made it to my backyard. Just before my parents divorce they fought all the time. And when my dad if ally left all my mom did was cry. So I packed a bag and went out to my tree house. I think I stayed out there for three days."
"Wasn't your mom worried"
"I don't even think she knew I was gone."
"she never came looking for you?"
"nope. I mean she did have a lot going on. I just kind of wish she would have looked for me."
"do you ever think about running away now?"
"sometimes. I mean I like it here. I like the people. But sometimes I wish I could just shit my brain down and escape for a bit. You know?"
he nodded and then I saw a smile form on his face.
"come with me"
he stood up and pulled me to my feet. He started dragging me over to the wooded area of the park.
"Andy where are we going?"
"I have to show you something."
"are you going to kill me out here."
"we'll see" he joked.
We kept walking through but I was getting impatient
"Andy where are we"
"just hold on. We're almost there"
"fine"
we kept walking and a few minutes later I was told I could open my eyes
"Okay open your eyes."
I was confused. I didn't see anything.
"What am I looking at"
he lead me over to a pile of logs and stuff and a few feet away from it thee was like a little "house" made from logs. looked inside.
"What is this?"
"I found it a few years ago. I haven't been here in forever I almost forgot about it until you walked about your tree house. You said you wanted to escape the real world for awhile. Well whenever you need to just come out here. It can be our place. Our secret"
"our secret." I repeated.

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