Highschool story (no longer being writen)

Kelsey's POV
"You guys should go. If she goes we'll give you the chance to say goodbye okay"
"Of course" Andy, Jason, and Emily all left followed by the doctor who told me to get changed. I stood up and started putting my clothes back on and then waited for him and my mom to get back. I can't get sent to the hospital. I have to convince them to let me stay out. The doctor walked in followed by my crying mother. She came over and hugged me and I tried to get her to stop crying.
"I'm sorry mom, please stop crying"
"Mrs. Rein our plan is to send Kelsey to inpatient care to help her."
"Please don't make me. I meant what I said earlier." I begged
"How long would she be there"
"That all depends on Kelsey."
"Mom please. Please I'll eat, I'll go to therapy, I'll do anything to stay home. Please"
"Kelsey this is dangerous. I can't take the chance of losing you"
"I promise. I'll try really hard. Please, I can't get sent to the hospital. I need to be here with my family and friends please."
"I'm giving you one chance. One chance and we'll be doing monthly visits to check your weight. If you come in here again for this it's out of my hands." the doctor said
"Thank you. Thank you so much"
"Mrs. Rein do you have any questions"
"No sir"
"Well then you two are free to go. I'll see you in a few weeks Kelsey"
I nodded and we walked out of the room. My mom wouldn't look at me or talk and she just started walking faster.
"Mom wait" I grabbed her shoulder and spun her around.
"Kelsey not right now. We'll talk when we get home."
"But mom"
"Kelsey I said not right now"
She walked away and left me standing there in the hall. I felt tears start to fall but I quickly wiped them away and went to the waiting room where I hoped Jason and Emily would be. When I got to them I was surprised to see Andy was still here.
"Um have you guys seen my mom"
"She just walked past. We'll drive you home" Jason said
"Thank you"
"Lets go home"
"Andy do you need a ride too"
"Yeah, thanks"
We all started walking outside and I stayed back behind them. They all hated me, they think I'm selfish. I slid into the back seat of the car next to Andy and stayed silent. No one made any attempt to try and talk to me and I didn't try to talk to them the entire ride was completely silent. we dropped Andy off and then parked the car in the garage. I wasn't ready to talk and who knows maybe I wouldn't have to right now but I know that they'll be making me eat under supervision for awhile.
"I'll be in there in a minute. you guys go ahead." I told them
I sat down on the steps and set my head in my hands. how could I be so stupid, what am I going to do. I can't get sent to a hospital but eating isn't easy, I feel terrible when I eat. I stood up and took a deep breathe before going into the house. Everyone was sitting around in the living room waiting.
"Kelsey we all want to talk to you" Aaron said.
"Okay"
I went and sat down across from all of them and waited for someone to say something.
"Mom. Please say something"
"I'm just trying to understand why"
"I don't know. I wish I did"
"When did this start"
"Last year" I whispered
"Last year?"
I nodded and looked away from her. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to get like this. I just skipped a couple meals, I just wanted to lose a few pounds."
"Kelsey this is so dangerous"
"I know, I didn't mean for this to happen. I'm sorry"
"I think we need to make a few rules for awhile. First, we are going to make sure you eat three meals a day and you will finish every bite. Second, You're going to see someone to help you deal with this."
When she said the rule about the completing three meals a day I felt myself start to get panicked. I haven't eaten three meals in what seems like forever and finishing them is going to suck.
A hour later my mom told me to go upstairs to my room so I did. I sat there thinking about what I was going to do. My mom was downstairs making dinner and I would have to eat every bite. I haven't heard from Andy since we left the hospital. If I were him I wouldn't want me anymore either so I guess I get it.
"Kelsey dinner is ready" Emily said walking into my room
"okay" I made no attempt to move.
"Are you okay" She asked sitting down next to me.
"No"
"Kelsey you have to eat"
"I know. It's just going to be hard"
"It'll be okay"
"how do you know"
"I don't but I'm being optimistic"
"You don't get it"
"I know. Maybe one day you can explain it to me. But if we don't get downstairs they'll come drag us down there"
I sighed and stood up. "Lets go then"
We walked down the stairs and sat down around the table. My mom had loaded my plate and I was feeling overwhelmed but I can't let them know. When they all sat down they began eating and I just stared at my plate for a minute before I took a bite. With each bite it got harder then easier and then I started to feel full and it got harder again.
"Mom I'm full please"
"Not until you're done"
I sighed but kept eating. I finally finished and then stood up to clean up. I was stuffed and I hated that feeling. I went upstairs and sat down on my bed. I grabbed my phone and texted Andy.
Me:Can we talk?
I impatiently waited.
Andy:Meet me outside
I stood up and went downstairs.
"Mom I'm going outside"
"Don't leave the yard"
"Mom come on"
"Kelsey just please don't fight me on this"
"Fine"
I stepped outside and saw Andy standing on my steps.
"Um hey" I said
"Hi"
"Please don't be mad at me"
"I'm not mad. I'm worried"
"About what"
"You. What you're doing is dangerous Kelsey"
"I know. Fuck I know everyone keeps telling me that"
"Why didn't you tell me"
"It's not really something I announce."
"Andy look I get it if you don't want this, us anymore. I'm a mess I know I wouldn't want me either"
"Kelsey this doesn't change how I feel about you"
I wrapped my arms around Andy's waist and we stood there together which is what I needed right now.
"I should get inside. I'll see you later"
"Goodnight"
I pulled away from him and ran back inside. When I got upstairs to my room I saw Jason sitting on my bed. I was still pissed at him.
"What do you want"
"Look about today"
"Jason I'm really not in the mood to deal with this. It's been a long day so just get out"
"Kelsey just listen to me"
"Why should I"
"Look I'm sorry that I made you tell Emily and Andy"
"You had no right to do that"
"I know, I get why you're mad but you have to understand-"
"I have to understand. No Jason you don't get it you don't understand what I'm going through right now. You don't fucking get it, none of you do"
"Then explain it to us"
"I can't! I can't because I don't even fucking get it!" I yelled
"Stop!" We turned around to see Emily standing at the door.
"Emily not now" Jason said
"Shut up Jason"
"Emily get out" Jason yelled again
"Then stop yelling at each other. You two yelling isn't going to change anything."
" Can both of you just get out please."
"Kelsey"
"Please. Just get out"
They left and I locked the door. All I wanted to do was lay in bed and not shut everyone and everything out.
-Next day-
Meal one done. It's been a hour since we ate My mom made a big breakfast for me and it was torture to eat. I decided to go for a walk to clear my head. Two more meals plus she's making me snack throughout the day. I'm starting to get really overwhelmed with it all.
After like a hour I walked home and sat in the living room with Aaron. We were watching some movie and just as it was ending my mom called us for lunch. Meal two here we go.
Full again. I feel guilty. Lunch was harder than breakfast had been.
-Later-
I have been upstairs all day laying in bed. I fucking hated this. It was almost time for dinner but I don't think I could do it. I heard a knock on the door and yelled at for whoever it was to come in.
"Dinner is ready" Aaron said
"I'll be right down"
He left my room. I stood up and walked over to my mirror and stared at my reflection. My disgusting reflection. I grabbed a blanket from my bed and covered the mirror before going downstairs. Once again my mom filled my plate. I stayed silent through most of dinner but when I got about half done with my plate I just gave up on trying. I pushed my plate away and set my fork down.
"I can't do it. I'm to full"
"Kelsey we had a deal. Three meals a day"
"Mom I'm full"
"You aren't leaving this table until you're done"
I picked up my fork again and finished eating. When I was done I stood up and threw my plate in the sink. I'm full, angry and my chest felt like it was caving in.
"Kelsey" My mom said walking up behind me
"What"
"What's wrong."
I turned to look at her and I lost it. "What's wrong. Everything everything is wrong mom. I can't do it I can't just eat three huge meals a day. I can't deal with you always loading my plate and monitoring me. I can't do this."
"We had a deal. A deal you agreed to. You are the one that said you would start eating again"
"Well I didn't mean like this. None of you get it none of you just back off!" I yelled before running outside and down the street I just kept running. After a few minutes I stopped and called Andy.
"Hello"
"Are your parents home"
"Um no why"
"Can I come over. please"
"Yeah of course"
I hung up and went to Andy's house. I knocked on the back door and waited for him to answer when he did I walked into his house and turned to look at him.
"Are you okay"
"No. I'm so far from being okay. I can't do it Andy" I let all the tears I had been holding back fall and he wrapped his arms around me. We just stood there like that. I was crying he was trying to get me to stop. And after awhile he just stopped trying and let me cry he let me be sad and that was all I wanted. all I wanted was to be able to let myself feel sad and just let it go. I couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried(A/N tehe anyone no okay)

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