Kinky Fuckery With The Outlaw

The next few weeks soon shot past as most of them was spent hanging out with Josh, everything was chilled and relaxed. Not having to really care about anything. Our relationship had defiantly gotten closer as friends. We've always been hanging around and helping out, it's been amazing to have a friend so close to me again.
Andy's been phoning every night to make sure we're all alright and everything's good. Which it has been obviously. And the even better news is that the guys are nearly back here again got the show tomorrow night, which here's hoping I can go to.
Melody has certainly gotten better at sleeping and all that but she sometimes bursts out crying for a bit of attention at times, just like her dad. I just can't get over how much like Ashley she already is and she's only a few weeks old! It's really scary. And I'm just wondering what the hell she got from me, probably nothing. But I only hope she has Ashley's way of thinking so I know she'll be amazing in life. I never really had that much of a plan as such.
"Come on Melody, Andy's going to be here soon," I pick her up.
Her big brown eyes look up at me, which is just like looking at Ashley.
"Yes sweetie," I kiss her head.
I carry her into the kitchen and check on dinner. With the guys on the road and eating crap, I though they could do with something better to eat.
"Hello?!" Andy calls though the house moments later. "Haven?"
Quickly I run to greet him. "Hey Andy."
"There you are.," he hugs me lightly being careful of Melody. "Hey little one."
"Hey I want to see the little ball of baby," CC chips in as the rest of the guys walk though the door.
CC takes her from my grip as the guys gather around to see her. All apart from Ashley who just heads for the living room, not even acknowledging me. Well hello to you too!
"Holy shit. You can tell who the father is. Hey Melody," CC talks to her.
"Haven can I have a word?" Andy asks.
"Sure. Guys be careful with her and no more swearing in front of her. Jake I trust you most, if anything happens your to blame," I tell him as I follow Andy into the kitchen.
I hear CC argue back but shrug it off.
"What is it Biersack?" I ask as I set the table for dinner.
"I had a talk with CC. Ashley did open up to him," he grabs a bottle of whiskey out the cupboard.
"Ok and?" I'm still unsure if I want to know what's going though that mans brain.
Andy takes a deep breath for replying. "He likes you."
My eyes widen with shock as I'm unable to process the information. Not too long ago he was the one using me for sex, not talking to me. He must be having it on. Just telling CC that to explain his behaviour other something. He can't like me.
"Your kidding," I shake my head in disbelieve.
"I'm not. He won't touch Melody because he knows if he would he fall in love with her, leaving her was hard enough. But I guess he didn't want to admit it to himself," he explains.
"Oh... What should I do?"
"Up to you. I won't stop you if you don't want me too. Nor will I punch him or yell it get mad if you want him. I know you like him too."
"Alright. Thanks Andy," I mutter, heading into the living room where the guys were watching Melody.
I catch Ashley taking a quick glance over to her now and again from over his phone. It's true what he told CC if it wasn't he wouldn't even bother to look over.
"Hey guys can I have my baby back?" I wonder over to them.
"No. She's way too cute. She's coming with us," Jake picks her up, hugging her close to him.
"Give my baby back," I take her from his grip.
"I know she is," I walk over and sit next to Ashley on the couch.
Andy calls the guys into the kitchen leaving me alone with Ashley, which I'm thankful for. Last thing I need is the guys listening in and being in on all this.
"Do you want to hold her now?" I speak in a bare whisper.
"No I don't," he replies coldly.
I lean a little closer to him. "I know you want to."
"Haven..." I soon cut him off. He's not telling me anymore bullshit or crap about how he doesn't want her or how he doesn't want to hold her since it's all a lie.
"Don't Haven me. I know you want to so have her. She's your daughter Ashley. Whether you like it or not she's yours," I snap at him but being careful of my tone since anything is more than likely to set Melody off crying.
"Haven I don't want to hold her," Ash tells me sternly.
"Andy told me what you told CC," I resort to the last thing I wanted to say. I want him to admit it to me but since he won't.
He bites his lip speechless.
"It's ok Ash. I forgive you," I pass Melody over to him.
He hesitates at first but soon changes his mind and takes her small body from me. He cups her face with his hand, stroking her cheek with his thumb. From the corner of his eye a small tear makes its way down his cheek.
"She's perfect," he mutters under his breath.
"She's like you," I smile.
"I know... Look is it too late to have her at mine a few days?"
"Sure but your still going to give me money to look after her right?"
"Of course. Aren't you going to get yourself a job yet?"
"I'm looking. I just haven't found one that's me and I want to be home to raise Melody," I shrug. "So want to spend today and tomorrow with Melody and I'll take your place on stage?"
Ashley chuckles lightly. "Nice try."
After dinner the guys crowd into the living room to watch a horror movie. I grab a bowl of popcorn and head into the living room just before it started.
"Hey has anyone seen Melody?" I ask as I left her with Andy while I got the snacks.
"Oh yeah Ashley took her upstairs and hasn't came down since," Andy responds.
"Thanks," I place the popcorn on the table and head to Melody's nursery.
I open the door to reveal Ashley sat on the floor playing with Melody in his lap. I smile and quietly walk over and sit down next to him. Ashley gently strokes her nose causing her to let out a few happy noises while also raising her arms in attempt to get his hand, in which she always misses.
"Hey aren't you coming to watch the movie?" I ask. "There's whiskey and popcorn."
"Nah I'm going to stay here with Melody," he replies, his brown eyes never leaving hers.
"It's Melody's bedtime soon Ash. She needs her sleep."
He bites his lip a little disappointed. "Oh."
"You can bath her and put her to bed if you want to spend more time with her," I suggest.
"Sure... Where's her stuff?" he asks.
I giggle. "Come on. I'll help you."
Twenty minutes of spending time with Ash helping him to bath Melody and put her to bed, we lay on my bed. The movie has already begun and the guys would more than likely be drunk now so there's not point joining them. Ashley moves closer, wrapping his arm around me. I move closer, laying my head on his bare chest.
"Look Haven I am really sorry for what happened between us in the last few months. I know I've fucked it up but I want to make it better. I want to raise my daughter not someone else. You both are my family and as family we take care of each other. I'll make it up you... both of you."
"Thanks Ashley but we're fine. I know you like the rock 'n' roll lifestyle. Go live that life," I sit up, looking away from him.
"I'll do that when I'm touring but when I'm at home I'll be the sort of man who looks after his daughter and the mother of his daughter," he rubs my arm gently.
"What about us? Where does me and you stand in all this exactly?"
Ashley bites his lip. "I don't know. It's not you, I'm sure you'll make an amazing girlfriend but I don't know if I'm ready for something so serious. I love to party too much and I tour way too much, it just won't be fair on you and the baby for us to be in a relationship. You understand, right?"
"I guess your right but what about you? You deserve someone to care and look out for you," I reply.
"After the way I treated you I really don't deserve your love or affection... And don't you dare say that you will forgive me for the way I treated you. I should of never said or done any of those things."
"Can we just fuck instead?" I ask bluntly.
I might as well get straight to the point. In all the time I've been pregnant and been looking after Melody I never have time to myself. Hell I even haven't gotten my hair done from last time Ashley got his friend over to have blonde put it. It might be long over due a touch up but I don't simply have the time, Melody has turned out exactly like Ashley. A little attention seeker and will do anything for it. At least she hasn't used Ashley's way of manipulation to get what she want's yet. I have a feeling Ash will teach her how to do it. There is simply no time to relax and I hate off loading her onto someone else all the time, I hate it.
Ashley stifles a laugh. "W-What?"
"You know just some kinky stuff. I'm not asking for a lot," I shrug.
"Babe how long has it been since you had sex?"
"Since the last time we fucked in my bed and Andy walked in......" the room is full of silence.
"You've not had sex since then?" he questions, breaking the quietness.
"Well I'm sorry I have no time to go out and find someone for a one night stand. So what do you say?"
"I'll think about it buddy."
Buddy? He hasn't called me that nick name in a long, long time. Its a rare time when he actually calls me that.
"What?" Ashley snaps me from my thoughts.
"Nothing it's just you haven't called me buddy for a long time."
"Don't you like it? Have you out grown the name?"
"Of course I like it... It's just.... are we going to fuck yet?" I groan.
Ashley chuckles. "Getting impatient huh?"
"Ashley please I don't know what's wrong..." I pause suddenly realising why he won't have sex with me...... well not in the way I want him to. So it is true that he likes me but I need to get him to say it himself.
"What is it buddy?" Ashley asks, confused.
"Nothing it doesn't matter Ash. Goodnight," I lay down facing the door.
Ashley moves, laying next to me. His arms wrap around my waist, pulling me close. Instantly I relax in his arms, surrounded by his scent which fills my nose, it just feels right and now there isn't no contract I know I can fully relax knowing I won't be told to do something like get him a drink or his phone.
"Ashley can I ask you something?" I mutter sleepily.
"Sure. What is it buddy?"
"Do you have feelings for me? More than friends kinda feelings?" I ask.
This is Ashley we're talking about, he won't tell me that he likes me as easily as I want him to. Hell he might not even tell me at all! I feel his body tense a little before relaxing just as quickly as he did when he tensed.
"Haven I care for you.... A lot," he tells me.
"That's not what I asked Ash," I yawn.
"Your tired buddy. You don't know what your talking about, get some sleep and we'll talk in the morning," Ashley kisses the back of my head.
"No. I do know what I'm on about," I turn over to face him. "Ashley please tell me."
"What would make you ask something like that?"
I shrug. "Look CC told Andy and Andy told me. I just wanted to hear it from you... I just wanted you to be honest with your feelings to me and not hide them. I like you too Ash that's why I walked out."
I pulled the blankets off to get up but Ashley grabs my arm and pulls me back down. Before I could speak a word his lips was on mine in a soft and gentle kiss. I lay a little shocked by the sudden action but soon return the kiss, wrapping my arms around his neck. Slowly he moves so he's on top of me and uses his knee to separate my legs a little so he lay in between them. I wrap my legs around his waist, pulls him close, needing him close. All too soon he pulls away, running a hand through his hair, removing it from his face.
"I like you Haven. I always have done... I just didn't know what to do about it so I thought that using a contract would be the best thing," Ashley strokes my cheek.
I'm shocked not sure how to reply. So many thoughts run through my head. He likes me! And he admitted it! Finally! But he thought the best thing to do with those feelings was to lock them up and put them in into some sort of contract? Is he crazy or something?!
"Your confusing," I mutter.
He chuckles. "I know its not one of my finest moments."
"So where do we stand with this now?" I ask wondering what the hell we're going to be facing now.
"Well I'm not sure. It's not going to change my views on being in a relationship with you even though I very much want to be. It's just not fair," Ashley explains.
"Please? I know we have a baby now but I want to give it a go. Even if we just talk one day a week or when you have a day off. Please I've liked you for a long time I want to know if it means anything," I tangle my fingers through the ends of his hair.
"Alright but just because its you," his lips are soon on mine again.
I smirk against his lips, the kiss soon turning hot and heavy. Ash growls, grinding himself against me. I moan against his lips causing him to smirk. I growl and flip him off, pulling his boxers off.
"Are you forgetting who's in charge in the bedroom?" he raises a perfectly plucked eyebrow.
"Are you forgetting I don't care since I've not had no contract or rules given to me?" I slowly remove my clothes.
"Well how about I show you some rules huh?"
"Well how about you shut up," I press my lips against his to shut him up.
"Hmm," Ashley grabs my face in between his hands, deepening the kiss.
Rummaging through the night stand I find a foil packet and place it against his chest. He takes it from my grip as well as breaking the kiss. While he busies himself with sliding the condom on, I strip from my night clothes. Ashley grabs my hips, pulling me onto his waist so I'm directly above his dick. Slowly he guides me onto it. I gasp and moan softly as I feel him deep inside me once again. I wrap my arms around his neck, looking as his eyes closes with pleasure.
"Fuck I missed this," he breathed.
"Me too," I mutter.
Ash opens his eyes looking directly into mine. His eyes flicker between love and lust, not sure which one remained in his eyes for longer but I didn't care at the moment. I bite my lip and slowly moves my hips, Ashley gasps and kisses my neck softly. A small moan escapes my lips. Damn I've missed his touch so much.
"Fuck me like you used to..... Master," I whisper seductively in his ear.
Ashley's eyes widen and I feel his breath caught in his throat before he swallows.
Out of nowhere he flips over so he's on top, where he belongs. Without question I hold my hands up knowing I can't touch him.
"Good girl." Ash.... Master pecks my lips.
Suddenly Master pounds hard just like he used to all that time ago. I throw my head back moaning loudly as he pounds harder and deeper. Ashley attacks my neck in rough kisses occasionally nipping my skin.
"M-Master," I gasp, thrusting my hips up.
Ashley gasps not expecting me to move along to his beat. He looks at me smirking then capturing my lips in a heated kiss in attempt to silence or at least muffle the moans coming from my mouth. My hands tighten around the pillows resisting the urge to scratch his back or pull his hair. Ashley pounds deeper soon hitting that spot deep inside me. It never took him long to find it in the first place.
"Are you close?" Ashley mutters.
"Y-Yes Master," I moan loudly.
"Hold it," he rubs my clit.
"A-Ash please," I gasp moaning loudly.
"What was that Ash? Someone isn't going to come tonight," Ashley smirks.
"P-Please Master! Let me come," I moan in pleasure.
"Fine you have 10 seconds," and suddenly he hits my spot harder.
I moan loudly, grasping the pillows tightly as I have my first orgasm in what seems like forever. Ashley soon follows and comes moments afterwards.
"Damn," I pant.
"I know," Ash falls on my chest, panting just as heavy.
I wrap my arms around his neck, stroking his hair until we both calm down. I yawn softly as Ashley heads to the bathroom before I close my eyes and curl into the sheets.

Notes

Sorry for not updating DX I've been trying to and its been really hard to think of what to write. I've rewrote the last part SOOO many times until now I'm happy with it.
I'll try to update more often
Thanks for sticking with me! it means a lot even though I'm not the greatest writer ever