Kinky Fuckery With The Outlaw

"Come on Haven, one last push darling," Juliet tells me, stroking my hair.
"I can't," I cry out, feeling like giving up.
The past remanding months seem to have flown by and suddenly the baby is coming. Luckily we was ready in time for everything to happen.
Ashley appeared to the rest of the hospital check ups even though he probably had somewhere else to be, but I didn't care, he pissed me off and it was my turn. And as much as he didn't want the kid I didn't want him in for the birth, I couldn't handle facing him, I just wanted Juliet and Andy, the people who have been there for me throughout all these even thought they both had busy lives.
Instead Ashley is outside in the waiting room, I at least want to punish him for all this even though I don't trust him with the kid. We're sorting that out later.
"Haven come on. One more," Andy holds my hand for support.
I take a deep breath and push one more time, screaming in pain as it's finally over. The room suddenly fills with the sound of the baby's cry.
"Well done," Andy kisses my head before going to the baby which the doctor is checking over.
He's been amazing though all this and basically doing Ashley's job.
I close my eyes, finally able to rest, 10 hours in labour is a real strain and something I am not prepared to do again. I hate it.
"Haven do you want to see your baby girl?" Juliet asks.
"I want to sleep," I murmur sleepily.
"Come on Haven. 3 minutes. Let her see her new mommy," Andy says.
"Fine," I open my eyes to see my baby asleep in Andy's arms.
Carefully, he passes her over to me, her small chest expanding and retracting as she breathes softly. I hold her up her small hand with my finger, lightly her fingers grasp it softly. I smile a little.
"When can we go home?" I ask.
"In the morning," Andy tells me.
I glance over at the clock reading 3:24am and I just want to go home and sleep in my bed where it's safe, if I sleep now I'll sleep until late afternoon. Then I remember that Ashley is outside and would want to see her before he goes.
"Hey Andy, bring Ash in will ya. And if he has a chick with him, don't let her in."
"Sure sweetie," Andy walks out to find Ash.
"So what are you naming her?" Juliet asks as she sits down.
"I don't know.... I was thinking Melody or something like that. I'm not sure," I tell her.
"I like Melody. It's cute and suits her," she replies.
"Yeah I guess," I look down to the small body in my arms.
Her eyes open, looking up at me. I smile down softly at her, she has Ashley's huge brown eyes, nose..... basically anyone can tell she's Ashley's kid.
"I don't want any pictures of her online," I whisper, hugging the blanket around her small body.
At that moment Ashley came walking through the door with Andy, he looks shattered like he hasn't slept in days. I just hope we can put what happened behind us and get all this sorted. He walks over to me.
"We'll leave you alone," Andy walks out with Juliet close behind her.
The air stays silent between us both except the sounds coming from Melody. Both of us watching her as she looks around with her huge eyes.
"She looks just like me," Ashley murmurs a little, just loud enough so I could hear.
"Go to daddy, Melody," I hold her out to him.
"Haven no. I don't want her," Ashley backs off a little.
"Ashley she's your kid and she needs her father. Andy can't do that, it wouldn't be fair on him," I told him.
"Haven I'll support you financially but I'm not holding her or having her at all," he informs me.
"I don't care, your the father."
"I don't want her."
Melody bursts out crying at us both raising our voices, shouting at each other, ending our conversation between one another.
"Shhh," I rock her softly, trying to calm her down.
"I'm going. We'll sort this shit out another time," Ashley tells me as he heads out the door.
"Your such an ass Ashley."
"You only just worked that one out?" he walks out the door.
I sigh, not knowing how this whole situation is going to work, Ashley isn't going to have her and she needs her father. I'm sure Ashley can take a few days out the month to look after Melody. The whole situation isn't my fault, it's both our fault and he thinks he can pay his way out of this one.... no way. He's not getting his life while I have a child to raise. Abortion was never an option and I'm glad, as much as she looks like Ash, she is also my child.
Juliet walks back in without no Andy.
"Hey where's Andy?" I ask as Melody finally calms down.
"Security has taken him and Ash outside to calm down," she replies.
"Oh... What happened?"
"Andy lashed out, he heard you both shouting and when Ash walked out he lost it... I think he'll be allowed back in.. Hopefully."
The nurse walks in requesting Melody so she can sleep in her cot for the night. I happily give her over and settle down for the rest of the night.
Just before I fall into a sleep, I see Andy quietly walk in.
The following afternoon the doctor lets us go home, since the nurses was looking after Melody for the night so I could get rest, I dread to think about what will happen tonight. I love sleep but that's something I have to sacrifice for her.
I carefully place Melody into her cot, being extra careful not to wake her up since she fell asleep on the way home. I place the baby monitor on and walk downstairs to Andy in the kitchen.
"I don't care Ash. Get your ass down here and sort this out......." Andy yells on the phone to Ash.
Really what is Ashley's problem lately, it's not just me he yells at, something's gotten to him.
"Ashley listen....... No.... Haven needs you and your acting like a real asshole.... Ash she's been your friend for ages... you were both inseparable..... Look put that behind you, what you did has been done but you can make it up to her..... By being here for her and your baby.... Fine we'll see you soon," Andy hangs up.
"What was all that about?" I ask.
"I don't know. I'm not sure what's gotten into him... I'll ask CC see if he knows, Ash tells him nearly everything," Andy sends a quick text to CC.
A few moment later the doorbell rings and it's only one person it was, Ashley. I open the door to reveal Ashley stood wearing the usual black skinny jeans, Metallica shirt and leather jacket.
"Talk. I have better places to be," he walks past into the kitchen.
Since Andy is outside talking on the phone with CC, it's left me alone with Ashley.... I'm not sure whether it's for the best or not. Either way we're both going to be yelling at one another. I follow him into the kitchen, watching as he grabs himself a bottle of whisky and a glass. He pours himself a drink before placing the bottle back.
"How much do you want me to do Haven? I've been with you at the check ups, I'm going to be giving you money. How much more do you want from me?"
"I want her to grow up with her father..... I don't want you to do every weekend or anything like that. A few days a month at the very least. Please," I beg.
Ashley digs into his pocket and pulls some money out, placing it on the work surface.
"There's this weeks money. That's all your getting from me, if you don't like it then you won't get anything," he informs me of what's going off in his books.
I sigh in defeat. "Thank you Ashley."
"Your welcome. May I go?" he asks.
"Sure," I take the money he placed down.
"Is that enough?"
"Yeah it will do. I still have money left from the relationship thing," I struggle to put it into words what to call it.
"Alright. See you," he walks out.
"Bye," I murmur, sighing.
I take a seat at the table, waiting for Andy to get off the phone with CC, hoping to know what is exactly wrong with Ash. In all the years I've known him I know that this isn't him, unless it's a phase he's going though.... or its midlife crisis hitting him... I don't know and I want to know, it's scaring me that I don't know what is wrong with him. Even though, according to him that we're not best friends, he still feels like my best friend.
Andy walks in a few minutes later, smelling of cigarettes. It really mustn't be good if he had to smoke. He's suppose to be cutting down, for his health and us lot around him, even more with my baby.
"What did he say?" I ask not wanting to wait any longer.
"CC said he'll tell me on tour when the time is right. He doesn't have the full story yet but is thinking that Ash is soon to telling him once a few whiskeys is down his throat," Andy explains.
"Ok. Are you packed for tour?" I ask.
"Yeah just about, just got to check everything and then I should be done."
"Have you packed Melody's things?" I ask since he's saying that's his baby.
"Nope she's staying with you," he informs me.
"Thanks for the news update. I thought you said she's your baby."
"I'm on tour."
"She can be the new BVB tour baby or something," I shrug.
Andy chuckles. "That's cute. Look I'm sorry for this tour being at the wrong time but if you ever need me then I'm just a phone call away, so is Juliet, we may not be able to come down and help but we can still talk and give you help that way. If you really can't cope then get a friend in or go to my parent's. They would love to help out."
"Can't Ashley miss the tour and I'll replace him?" I pout.
"Sorry sweetie."
I pout more, this is really unfair. This is Ashley's fault too and I've been on nearly every single tour with the guys, I don't see why I have to give it up and Ash doesn't. Sometimes I really wish he was a chick so he can have these life problems.
"I'll take care of her tonight with you and you should have everything you need. I'll leave my car and you can drive it. When we're near you, I've made arrangements to come by and we'll see you for a day before we get back to touring," Andy tells me
"Ok. I guess that's fine."
The following day Andy departs for tour, leaving me and Melody alone for a few months. I watch at the bus pulls off from the front of the house as well as trying to calm Melody down, she's woke me and Andy up all night which isn't a great start to our time together.
"Come on Melody. Go back to sleep for mommy," I rock her back and forth, walking to the kitchen for breakfast which thankfully Andy already cooked.
Melody doesn't calm down for the past few minutes resulting into multitasking by eating an trying to calm the baby down.
As soon as I finish the last of my breakfast, Melody finally calms down. Finally! And now I'm hoping she stays this calm while I get a shower and dressed. Already I can tell these next few months are going to be stressful, as I was just putting Melody in her cot and walking to the bathroom, she starts crying. Great!
I just wish I was on tour with Andy and the guys. I would have support and some downtime to chill out and have some me time, go out and what not. For the past nine months all I've been stuck with was the baby and now I'm going to be stuck again for another nine months. The guys are the only ones I could trust to look after Melody while I go out and chill out..... Maybe I can get Joe, Andy's cousin to help, I trust him to watch her for a few hours.
"Come on sweetheart. Go to sleep," I pick her up, holding her in my arms.
I switch on some soft music on low in the background, which quickly soothes her and I'm thankful for it. Placing her small body back into the cot then heading to the shower.
After a quick shower, the doorbell rings in the middle of getting dressed in some baggy jeans and a bra. I shrug, running downstairs and open the door.
"Hello?"
"Hey. Is Andy home?" one of Andy's best friends, Joshua asks.
"Sorry he's on tour Josh. You just missed him," I tell him.
Joshua has been one of Andy's friend for a long time, he's a little like Andy in some sense. They both have near enough the same dress sense, just a few inches shorter than him, has black hair, is shaved all around and but a lot shorter on the top. But unlike Andy, his eyes is a deep green and has a more of a build on him than Andy... I would say somewhere between him and Ashley's kind of body.
"Great," he sighs. "I was suppose to give him something before he went."
"Is it anything important?"
"Nah just some stage stuff," he shrugs.
"Alright... Wanna come in?" I offer since he's drove all the way down here.
"Sure," he steps inside. "Andy told me you had a baby. Where is she?"
"Upstairs. Asleep." I speak too soon as Melody's cries through the baby monitor.
Josh chuckles. "Not anymore."
"I'll be back," I run upstairs into the nursery.
I pick up her small sweaty body, her cries ring though my ears.
"Hey shhhh. What's wrong huh? Are you hungry little one?" I ask as I rock her in my arms in some attempt to try to calm her down.
I head downstairs with her in my arms into the kitchen to where Josh is at the breakfast bar.
"Hey is this the little monster, huh?" Josh takes her from my arms. "What's her name?"
"Melody," I reply as I get her a bottle of milk ready.
"Cute name. Hey Melody are you driving your mommy crazy huh?"
"Yeah she is," I take her back from his arms, holding her bottle to her mouth.
Her cries soon calm down as she gently drinks the milk, her small hands tighten into small fists. Her huge brown eyes look up towards me, instantly I see Ashley shining though her.
"Haven do you want me to feed her while you finish getting dressed?" Josh pipes up.
"Oh yeah," I laugh a little nervously, forgetting that I'm still in my bra and jeans.
Carefully I pass over Melody's small body back over to him along with the bottle, being sure not to interrupt her feeding. I jog up the stairs back into my room. Rummaging through my draws I find a old BVB hoodie that's way too big for me but it would do. I slip it on then tying my hair into a rough ponytail. As I head back for the stairs, Josh walks up with Melody.
"Hey she's done and fell back to sleep afterwards," he informs me.
"Alright. Well put her in her cot," I walk into her nursery.
Josh follows close behind and places Melody into the cot, tucking her in tightly.
"You can tell who her father is," he comments as we watch her sleep peacefully.
"I know. She's his double... but he doesn't want anything too do with her so," I shrug.
"He doesn't?" he asks in shock.
"Yeah. He will give money but that's about it."
"So she won't have a father growing up?"
"She will have Andy and the rest of the band. She'll be fine," I shrug as I watch Melody's small body sleeping peacefully.
I know she'll be fine.
"Well if you ever want help while the guys are away then I don't mind. She's adorable," Josh smiles.
"You don't mind?"
"Not at all. I mean I do owe you for helping me out on tour a few years back. And besides I have nothing on, a few nights later on." Josh shrugs.
His job involves helping setting up stages for gigs/ shows. He the sound guy and one of the best. We're not as close friends like him and Andy are but Andy won't introduce me to any weird guys or anything. We've hung out at a few shows just talking in general.
"Alright. Thanks. I guess it would be a little lonely with just me and Melody," I smile.
My phone vibrates in my packet cutting the conversation. I step out the room and answer it. It's Andy.
"Hey Batman."
"Hey how you doing?" he asks.
"Fine. Your friend Josh is here and is going to keep me company while your away," I tell him.
"Oh yeah he has some stuff for me doesn't he? I meant to tell him that the departure time for the bus changed.. Oh well, I'll do without it. Well that's nice of him, he's a good guy but just in case, us protection this time," he tells me with all seriousness in his voice.
"Andy," I scowl.
He chuckles at the other end of the phone.
"Who's that? Is that Mandy? Who's she having another kid with?" I hear CC chirp up in the background.
"CC get out of here. Yes it's Mandy," Andy tells him.
"I want to say hi," he responds.
"Fine keep it quick."
"Hey Mandy," CC speaks happily though the phone.
"Hi CC."
"Who's the guy?"
"Just a friend of Andy's. How's Ash?" I ask wondering if I want to know the answer.
"He's.... Ash," he struggles for a word to describe him.
"Alright."
"Hey we have to go. Andy will talk do you later. We're shopping for some food for the bus," CC tells me.
"Alright then. See you later."
"Bye," he hangs up.
I spend the rest of the day with Josh and Melody, going for a walk in the park, a trip the coffee shop on the way. It turns out he's a pretty sweet and down to earth guy, the sort of guy that I need in my life right now after all the stuff that happened before the pregnancy and during. No tour talk, no partying, late nights early mornings, no chaos. Just a pretty chill time.

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