Let me set your world on fire

I sat crying in Vic's lap in the hospital waiting room. I cry for the man who i thought was the love of my life. I believed that he cared and meant every affection word he said. I believed it when he said that i was his everything and that i make him happy... i guess i wrong. Im so stupid. I dont make him happy... Frank does. I cant blame him though. Jake deserves someone better then me. Some one who isnt so ugly, or stupid or too affetionate. He deserves so much more then i can give him.

My thoughts were inturpted by Andy. "Hey buddy, Jakes awake and hes asking for you."
I slowly get off of Vic and straighten myself out. I give Vic a small smile and head down the hallway to Jake's room. As i approach his door i take a deep breathe and slowly push the door open. I gasp as i see a very pale Jake laying there hooked up to all these machines.

"Come on and stop staring CC" Jake croaks.
"S-sorry" I stutter as i close the door.
"CC please come sit. We have to talk" Jake turns his head so he's looking at me with sad eyes.
"Your right" I say as i go to the chair next to him.
"CC, whats going on between you and Victor?" Jake asks with his glassy eyes and sad voice.
"Nothing. But why do you care? You have Frank" I snap at him. How can he say Vics name like hes disgusted? He has no right.
"Why do i care? Christian how can you ask me that?! Look at where i am! Do you know why i'm here? Because i saw you with Vic! And i dont have Frank nor do i want him! CC you are the only one i want and i want to know if i have competion for your heart. Because i wont let you go. I know i made a mistake with Frank but it wont EVER happen again. I promise!" Jake exclaims all in one breathe.
"Jake.... You made a mistake when you did what you did with Frank, but i cant trust you. I made sure nothing ever happened with Danny or Andy. And it's obvious that there is something between you and Frank that we will never have an-" Jake interupts me.
"No! What me and Frank have is Physical! I love you CC. More then anything and i want to be with you more then anything. Please just listen to me. CC i cant lose you. I cant and i wont" Jake says as he begins to sob. I grab his hand and stroke my thumb across the back of his hand gently.
"Jake.. I dont think this is going to-" I was stopped by Jake pulling me into a passionate kiss.
But this kiss is not as close to as passionate as the others. It held all of our love, lust, happiness and sadness all in one kiss.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me that meant nothing to you. Tell me that you felt nothing!" Jake yells through his tears. By now im crying too.
"I cant say that.." I say looking down at my lap.
"Then please tell me that there is still hope. Christian Coma i want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to die in your arms. I wont give up until i have you back in my arms" Jake says as he interlocks our fingers.
"I think i just need time.... To let the whole thing with Frank go. I'll see if i can stay with Vic and-" And again interupted by Jake.
"No! no please dont stay with him. Why cant you stay at our place? I'll be here in hospital" Jake pleads with me.
"Because Jake! I need him! He makes me feel better! He listen to me cry over you! And while ive been blaming myself for not being good enough for yo-" Interupted AGAIN!
"No CC! Your too good for me actu-"
"Shut up!! let me finish my sentences! He made me feel better and i just need some comfort. He's a good friend!" I yell.
"Really?! Fine go run off ith Vic. I'll just call Frank. He'll come and cater to my every need and want. So fine go run off. I dont need you!" Jake yells and covers his mouth.
I started sobbing. During all our yelling, we didnt hear the door open and see everyone staring. Andy comes and wraps his arms around me protectively.
"CC, baby you know i didnt mean that. I was just hur-" Jake trys to plead with me.
"No Jake. You didnt say it because you were hurt. You said it because you want it to be true. So fine, call Frank. I'll be out of the apartment by the time you get out off the hospital" I say calmly with tears streaming down my face. I get up and walk over to Vic's warm and caring embrace.
"CC please dont do this" Jake sobs behind me.
"And you can keep the ring" I say as i sob into Vics neck as he carrys me out of the room.

-------Time Lapse to Everyone's At Vic's--------

"CC, you know he didnt mean it. He loves you" Andy says rubbing my back.
Now im in a pair of Mikes sweatpants and sobbing lightly into Vic's chest on their couch.
"Guys please. I cant" I say.
"I think we should let CC get some sleep" Vic says petting my head.
"Okay. Goodnight CC talk to you tomorrow" Andy says leaving. I hear a chorus of byes and feel betters.
"Come on" Vic says as he leads me into his room.
We lay down and i cuddle into his side. He wraps his arms around me and i feel safe. not as safe as in Jake's arms but safe.
"Thank you. For this. And everything." I whisper to Vic.
"Anytime. I'm always here for you. And i know this is hard for you. And i know you dont want to hear this but... I think you and Jake need time to calm down. And then talk things through. Everyone knows you guys still love each others. And you guys will get through this together" Vic says into my hair.
I just nuzzle more into his side and slowly drift off to sleep. And i could have sworn that i heard him say something but i couldnt be sure.....

Notes

okay so... SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!!!!!! i really hope that this makes up for it. and i hope you like it.
Also we all know CC is NOT ugly.
So.. what do you think is going to happen??

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