Let me set your world on fire

I looked at CC as he lay curled in my arms, his pulse pounding gently against my wrist as he slid his head down to curl into a ball. I knew it was pointless trying to sleep now so I climbed carefully over him and tugged the curtain closed so he wouldn't be disturbed. No-one else was awake and it looked like the bus was already halfway to the next location. I poured myself a coffee and sat on the couch, my legs tucked under me as I flicked through the channels as I hoped for something good to come on. I was disappointed but ended up settling on some kids show called Ben 10. It was actually pretty good. I got lost in the show, only moving when I needed to get another drink, the stupid cartoons taking my mind off what Ella said last night when Jinxx and Ashley went to get more drinks.

I flicked the channel over, looking for another aimless cartoon to distract me when CC staggered to the front of the bus, his eyes still full of sleep. "Morning baby." I muttered as I stood to pour him a coffee.
"What were you going to say last night, just before I fell asleep?" He asked, not even saying good morning.
"Have a coffee first?" I suggested, holding out a mug.
"No!" He complained as he pushed it away. "I wanna know what you were going to say."
"Fine CC, just remember that this wasn't my fault." I said, waiting for a nod before continuing. "Ella told me last night that she wants me to leave you and the band or she will make me regret leaving her, even though she was the one that broke up with me. She told me that if I don't she'll hurt you because she doesn't want anyone else to have me."
"Why though Jake?" CC asked as he placed the mug on the table, grabbing onto the edge of his chair as the bus went round a corner.
"Because CC, she's pregnant, and apparently it's mine." I muttered, looking up at him to gauge his reaction.
"You wouldn't.... You didn't...... Please tell me it's not...." CC started, unable to finish any of his sentences. He climbed to his feet and pushed the mug away from him. "I think I'm gonna throw up." He said as he staggered to the back of the bus. I went to follow him, but my guilt led me to sit back down. Yes, we had slept together, but that was only when we were together and the time scale clearly shows it isn't mine. I have no idea what she would say it for, but it breaks my heart seeing the tears that fell down CC's face before he walked away.

I walked past the bunk, ignoring the fact it was empty and went to the back lounge, dropping to my knees in front of CC. He refused to look at me which just made the pain that much worse t bear. "CC...." I started..
"Jake, I don't give a shit okay. I know it can't be yours but the fact that she doesn't want us to be together hurts. I love you but sometimes I think it would be better if there wasn't an us just because it would make our lives ten times easier." He said, finally looking at me. "Jake, please don't ever think I would hate you, okay?" He asked as he placed his hands either side of my face. I nodded softly. "Now come here you big idiot and cuddle me." CC said as he pulled me onto his lap.

****

I opened my eyes and panicked, CC had gone and the bus had stopped. That meant we were at the next venue but surely CC would wake me and let me know that we had gotten there? I shook my head and stood slowly, trying to avoid the empty cans on the floor. I walked to the front of the bus, finding it strange that no-one was there. After I looked in all of the bunks, I opened the door, the outside completely black, not a single piece of scenery stood out against the dark. I stepped slowly down the stairs, trying not to trip as the dark engulfed me, crushing in either side of me. I walked aimlessly, time not seeming to pass as I wandered through the dark, completely unable to see my own hand in front of my face. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a light and turned, walking towards it. A small scream escaped me as I stepped into the small ring created by it. Right there in front of me was CC, hanging from a tree, his mouth open in a silent never ending scream. "I told you if I couldn't have you, no-one could!" Ella's voice rang out across the dark, her cackle extinguishing the flame on the small candle. I screamed loud, my voice echoing in the dark.

****

I felt hands caressing me as I opened my eyes, tears sticking to my cheeks. "CC?" I sobbed.
"I'm here baby, I'm not going anywhere. I promise." He muttered as he wrapped his arms even tighter around me. I reached up and felt his chest, making sure that the heartbeat I felt was real. When I felt it beating slowly under my hand I sighed and curled up into an even smaller ball, my head in CC's lap as I cried, him running his fingers through my hair and muttering sweet nothings until I had calmed down enough the breath without sobbing.

Notes

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